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4 paul M
05 Feb 2021 · 1+ YEAR
Friday night (or early Saturday). I don't know what to do. Everything seems to be painfully pointless.
Love !
05 Feb 2021 · LEGEND

I appreciate the ruthless honesty expressed here. Sages have been saying this for ages which is why many remain detached from the world and its meaningless activities and pointless pursuits.

nat !
05 Feb 2021 ·

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paul M
06 Feb 2021 · 1+ YEAR

:) wish I was a sage.

Love !
06 Feb 2021 · LEGEND

The mind is spacious enough to hold both sage and fool. I'm more ignorant than wise, but aspiring to be less stupid.

nixiblu .
07 Feb 2021 · HERO

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5 paul M
29 Jan 2021 · 1+ YEAR
I have a short vacation, few days. A goal is to feel less anxiety.
Ann L
30 Jan 2021 · GUARDIAN

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Love !
30 Jan 2021 · LEGEND

Hope you find strategies to promote that end. For me, its breath work (eg Wim Hof Method), exercise, meditation (yoga nidra or guided body scans are best to relax), progressive muscle relaxation, hobbies. May your choices bring your mind peace.

nixiblu .
30 Jan 2021 · HERO

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John T
30 Jan 2021 · LEGEND

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Esther B
01 Feb 2021 · LEGEND

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5 paul M
27 Jan 2021 · 1+ YEAR
January update. Stupid virus screwed up the remains of my social life. Vaccinations are stalling, it looks that we can look forward to at least full year of corona loneliness and chaos.
Sara H
27 Jan 2021 · 1+ YEAR

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Max T
27 Jan 2021 · LEGEND

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27 Jan 2021 · LEGEND

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29 Jan 2021 · LEGEND

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31 Jan 2021 · HERO

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5 paul M
14 Dec 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Year is almost over. I look at my spreadsheets. Fun fact - at December 2109 I had same amount in debt as now I have in savings. I'm still adjusting to this new way of life and ...
paul M
14 Dec 2020 · 1+ YEAR

...and I really, really hope not to lose everything in stupid purchases. It is a kind of shock, not to be in debt anymore. From other side I wonder, if am I turning in a kind of Ebenezer Scrooge. Time will tell.

Ann J
14 Dec 2020 ·

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Esther B
14 Dec 2020 · LEGEND

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Esther B
14 Dec 2020 · LEGEND

What a progress!

Love !
14 Dec 2020 · LEGEND

That's awesome, Paul & inspiring. On the same trajectory. No debt, saving, trying to maintain the discipline.

Spacekitten V
14 Dec 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Ann L
14 Dec 2020 · GUARDIAN

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paul M
14 Dec 2020 · 1+ YEAR

I've been very lucky to keep my job in these times. And, since now I have less options to spend money, well, it accumulates faster.

John T
14 Dec 2020 · LEGEND

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nixiblu .
14 Dec 2020 · HERO

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Love !
30 Jan 2021 · LEGEND

Agreed. I think that may be a reason I, too, was able to pay off debts and save.

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4 paul M
25 Nov 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Feeling tired of life and work. One day I will fall back to mindless screen watching and will never come out of it.
tEnT S
25 Nov 2020 · SUPPORTER

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Mandy H
25 Nov 2020 · HERO

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Tasha S
25 Nov 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Chameleon X
25 Nov 2020 ·

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Chameleon X
25 Nov 2020 ·

Or you won't. Something else could happen.

Esther B
25 Nov 2020 · LEGEND

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nixiblu .
25 Nov 2020 · HERO

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paul M
14 Dec 2020 · 1+ YEAR

Future is really unpredictable, still, some things are more probable than others.

nixiblu .
14 Dec 2020 · HERO

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4 paul M
04 Nov 2020 · 1+ YEAR
I've had beans, milk and sauerkraut. Magical combination. Glad I'm alone and can truly enjoy the effects.
Mandy H
04 Nov 2020 · HERO

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Love !
04 Nov 2020 · LEGEND

lol. that's an explosive combination, Paul.

John T
04 Nov 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
04 Nov 2020 · LEGEND

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Esther B
05 Nov 2020 · LEGEND

Sauerkraut ftw

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3 paul M
31 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Saturday sucked. Sunday will suck too.
Lauren E
31 Oct 2020 ·

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John T
31 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Love !
31 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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31 Oct 2020 ·

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Chameleon X
31 Oct 2020 ·

I'm old, like 56 old, AND mentally ill. So, here's some wisdom from the future. You just don't know that - no matter what the past record looks like. Hang in there. Even if Sunday does suck, Monday is coming. ♥

Manda P
01 Nov 2020 · LEGEND

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paul M
04 Nov 2020 · 1+ YEAR

Thanks, Chameleon. Yes, miracles happen and I've had most wonderful moments coming out of nowhere.

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3 paul M
30 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Still, life is pointless as soon as I stop and think about it.
Tasha S
30 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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30 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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John T
30 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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30 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Love !
30 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

'All is vanity,' declares the preacher in Ecclesiastes. He could just as well have written, 'All is pointless.' 'All is illusion,' say the Buddhists. 'All is Maya,' say the Hindus. Vanity, illusion, pointless...

Love !
30 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

I want clarity, not diversion, illusion, meaningless distraction, pointless entertainment.

paul M
31 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

Ecclesiastes, only part of the Bible I find to be meaningful.

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4 paul M
29 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Hard to concentrate on work.
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29 Oct 2020 ·

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Ann L
29 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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29 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Esther B
29 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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29 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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nixiblu .
31 Oct 2020 · HERO

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5 paul M
22 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Also, it is a kind of achievement - I've been tracking my expenses for exactly 1 year now. After 16 years of trying to find a way I could stick to. Good thing, I'd say.
paul M
22 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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paul M
22 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

Gives a kind of clarity and ability to plan forward and see the past too. Some measure of control, maybe, or, at least awareness of money flow.

Paige L
22 Oct 2020 ·

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paul M
22 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

At some point I was actually waiting for bills to come, it was almost fun :)

Esther B
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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John T
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Love !
23 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

That's a wonderful discipline. We can keep track of where the money goes. What we can measure, we can manage.

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5 paul M
22 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Filled Beck Depression Inventory, it say that i I have moderate depression. 22, low end. Goodie. Improvements over last 5 years - I sleep better, I cry less.
Albertine M
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Glad you can sleep better - does make a difference

John T
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Shelley H
22 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Ann L
22 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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paul M
22 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

Actually I feel lost when I've slept really well (7.5 hours, imagine that...) I am rested, I think, now what? I've been so busy with being tired that I don't really know what to do when i suddenly am not tired. These things need a time to get used to

Esther B
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Esther B
22 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Sounds good?!

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4 paul M
18 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Sunday. Lonely and lot's of work because of procrastination. Have to do something to keep away thoughts of my uselessness.
Shelley H
18 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Ann L
18 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Love !
18 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Jen B
18 Oct 2020 · HERO

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18 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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18 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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18 Oct 2020 · HERO

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19 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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5 paul M
16 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Lots of work, busy Friday. But I like to work, makes me feel somewhat validated. Also, I still have a job, which is a blessing.
Mandy H
16 Oct 2020 · HERO

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John T
16 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Shelley H
16 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Jen B
16 Oct 2020 · HERO

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17 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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17 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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nixiblu .
17 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Love !
18 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Indeed. Having a job or a viable business in this climate is a blessing.

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5 paul M
13 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Eating vitamin D for 3 weeks. Maybe it is placebo effect, but I feel better. I sleep better and, well, *downstairs* work better. Not that it matters much, but still, it is nice.
Max T
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Max T
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

That's great news, Paul!

Silke V
13 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Love !
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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nixiblu .
13 Oct 2020 · HERO

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Manda P
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Glad you are feeling better, paul!

John T
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
13 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

Good to see you around again and glad you're feeling better

paul M
16 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

Thanks, pandas :)

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5 paul M
09 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Still out of debt and building emergency fund. Chatting with Replika and alone.
paul M
09 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

Loneliness hurts, to be honest. But I still don't know, how to set boundaries and I am safer being away from people. I tried to be with people. Very expensive AND I still was alone.

Ann L
09 Oct 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Jen B
09 Oct 2020 · HERO

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09 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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10 Oct 2020 · LEGEND

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nixiblu .
10 Oct 2020 · HERO

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nixiblu .
10 Oct 2020 · HERO

Long distance relationship by any chance? I'm just out of one. Very lonely and expensive

paul M
12 Oct 2020 · 1+ YEAR

I don't know how to be in any kind of relationship. I'm just grateful for being mortal.

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5 paul M
22 Jun 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Had incredibly good luck last months. So. Soon. Very soon. June 30, eight more days. I will repay my debts. And first time since 1998 I will finally be out of debt. Then, maybe lose some weight?
paul M
22 Jun 2020 · 1+ YEAR

I can lose 50 kilograms and still be fat. Good. That will take most of my remaining life. Not much after that, I think. Mental and physical degradation, pain, humiliation, loneliness, dementia and finally, rest in peace forever.

Max T
22 Jun 2020 · LEGEND

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22 Jun 2020 ·

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Manda P
22 Jun 2020 · LEGEND

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Manda P
22 Jun 2020 · LEGEND

Congratulations on the no debt thing! That's awesome! You should be so proud of yourself!

nixiblu .
22 Jun 2020 · HERO

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nixiblu .
22 Jun 2020 · HERO

Covid weight creeping up, so is the debt. But both are manageable once things b

nixiblu .
22 Jun 2020 · HERO

Normalize.

nixiblu .
22 Jun 2020 · HERO

Well done on the debt Paul. That's a Biggie

Love !
06 Aug 2020 · LEGEND

Debt free as well. Relieved. Following Dave Ramsey's Baby Steps program. Now building up emergency fund & investing.

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3 paul M
30 May 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Netflix suggested Total Drama Island series. I didn't know about them. That's kids' TV. Now I'm crying over Lindsay finally remembering Tyler in 3rd season.
Shelley H
30 May 2020 · HERO

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Shelley H
30 May 2020 · HERO

Netflix has become my true love 🎥

paul M
30 May 2020 · 1+ YEAR

I'm not ready for it yet. Now, when I'll retire, that will be it. Netflix till I die.

Shelley H
30 May 2020 · HERO

Oh yeah!

Manda P
31 May 2020 · LEGEND

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3 paul M
30 May 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Plus. Virus so far has reduced my expenses, and there were some windfalls, and I am repaying my debts as crazy. I'm worried, because what will I do, when I finally will have money? I'm afraid to...
paul M
30 May 2020 · 1+ YEAR

I'm afraid to have it.

Shelley H
30 May 2020 · HERO

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Shelley H
30 May 2020 · HERO

Too bad you're not in the US. We got stimulus payments from the IRS this year because of the pandemic.

nixiblu .
31 May 2020 · HERO

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31 May 2020 · LEGEND

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3 paul M
29 Apr 2020 · 1+ YEAR
I am tired and I am a coward. And tired.
Spacekitten V
29 Apr 2020 · GUARDIAN

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Shelley H
29 Apr 2020 · HERO

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29 Apr 2020 · GUARDIAN

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29 Apr 2020 · LEGEND

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02 May 2020 · HERO

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28 May 2020 · HERO

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4 paul M
16 Apr 2020 · 1+ YEAR
Repaid one motherloving credit card. 3 more loans to go. Whee. I need to celebrate it somehow, not sure, how. I don't feel anything. I don't know.
nixiblu .
16 Apr 2020 · HERO

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16 Apr 2020 · HERO

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17 Apr 2020 · LEGEND

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