Had this day off as well. Have been alone, doing things in the house. Moody. Low. Nothing special has happened. Work tomorrow. We'll see
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Have not done a lot this weekend. Am numb because of the death of my friend. Still. I will cry for a looong time. Death is so final. I could not help him. That hurts like hell
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It's not just sad. I does hurt.

16 Dec 2018

I hope it was not a suicide. Bless you. May love surround you.

17 Dec 2018
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On my way home from visiting a beautiful foreign city. Came to think of my friend who is gone. Going home to reality. And the sorrow. And the loss. I cry and miss him terribly.

I'm sorry for your loss Aurelia

06 Dec 2018
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My former boyfriend and present good friend is dead. Could be suicide. I am terribly, extremely sad. Crying for hours

BIG HUGS to you! I'm so sorry!

27 Nov 2018

I am so so sorry for your loss! :(

27 Nov 2018

Thanks pandas

04 Dec 2018
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Slept well last night and was active at work. Noticed that the anxiety was om my head. Cried on my way home. Cried when I got home. I don't exactly know why. The cry is soar. From the heart
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My old lover claims we are not in a relationship. We talk every day, meet with and without sex, but he says we are just friends. That hurts. I'm sad. I want to hurt myself physical
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Manic today. Slept little, didn't manage to go to bed last night. My head is spinning. I cry now and again. Too many thoughts. I try to realise all my diagnosis and that the old lover is back
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Have anxiety now. Don't know why. Tired and too many things happen in my head. Will go shopping now. Eating didn't help me earlier
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Going to the physician tomorrow. Hopefully get results of the blood test. Have I got arthritis? Should go to bed now.
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I have realised I will end my life. Don't know when, but I will do it. I probably have arthritis. I am in pain right now. Physical pain. And the physiological pain. I can't live like this for long
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Never fully content. Always tired. Have borrowed a dog this weekend. Lovely to hug him. Feel the fur. But tired all the same
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Friday. Bus to work. Snow but not really cold. My left hand hurts today, seems like an infection. The pain moves around in my body. Left hand today, Tuesday it was in the left side of my head.
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Work out in pool today. Like being in water. Why am I never happy? I never feel real joy. I laugh and smile, but I am never happy.

Can relate to this. I can feel good and still not feel happy. I have too many ups and downs to really feel happy. My goal is to stick with my therapy and hopefully start to feel like a β€œnormal” human again. Ride the waves, you'll get there.

11 Jan 2018

I get that. My moods are up and down a lot and I'm not really any more than okay a lot of the time.

12 Jan 2018
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A weird weekend is coming to an end. Haven't been out in two days, but have done the things I meant to in the house. Am seeing a new therapist on Tuesday. Wonder what that will be like
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I have slept 14 hours . Strange dreams including exes and former school friends. Saturday has gone before it started. Am still exhausted. Trying coffee now and paracetamol
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I have slept 14 hours . Strange dreams including exes and former school friends. Saturday has gone before it started. Am still exhausted. Trying coffee now and paracetamol
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I have slept 14 hours . Strange dreams including exes and former school friends. Saturday has gone before it started. Am still exhausted. Trying coffee now and paracetamol
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Lots of anxiety this afternoon. I hope it's anxiety, otherwise I am really ill. Very dizzy. My subconscious is playing with me, because I have to put my dog to sleep. Crying now and again

I'm so sorry to hear. Lots of strenght on your way x

13 Sep 2017

πŸ’›πŸ’› feel better soon! Try some deep breathing, it should help!

14 Sep 2017
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Saturday. Me and my dog. I made an appointment at the vet's today, for my dog. Next Friday. I am prepared that this will be her last days here. She is very old, has alot of pains. Her hearing is...

... reduced and I have a feeling she has got a little bit of dementia. But I love her. And that means that I have to let her go now. A terrible feeling : having to decide to take your best friend's life.

09 Sep 2017

I am very sad. But I think the time has come. Unfortunately. My little rottweiler lady, 40 kg and 13 years

09 Sep 2017

I'm so sorry Aureila! I'm sure she was a sweet dog. It's hard to let go of those you love, but if she means as much to you as my dog means to me, she won't leave you. Stay strong. πŸ’›πŸ’›

14 Sep 2017
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I am my own worst enemy. Mocking myself. Hurting myself psychological. My mood is unstable. Earlier today I wanted to end my life. Now: I don't know. My body hurts all over. I eat painkillers.

Please be kind and gentle to yourself. You deserve someone to be nice to you, and you are someone. Stay strong! It will pass! πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸΌ

07 Sep 2017

If no one has been nice to us, we must become that person ourselves. That may require to become pretty agressive against that part of us which likes to bring us down.

07 Sep 2017

Thanks for feedback.

09 Sep 2017
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