to change, I wouldn't want to have no BPD at all, I just wish I had more happy times. I know on MP I have a lot of green, but I sort of tend to give myself higher scores unless I'm totally dysphoric.
I wish I was more often on 8, and less on 5 which for me is feeling meh and bleh.
sounds like a universal human condition. We're in this together, sis.
them I don't drink at all, because this is ridiculous. I obviously won't have a heart attack without alcohol and not for into delirium tremens BECAUSE I NEVER DO WHEN I DON'T DRINK
Pissed off. Not drunk.
main problem... It kind of pulls paranoia along with it, which is the worst!
Are there slow release anti anxiety meds? I've been googling but it's somewhat confusing.
Can you ask your therapist?
helpful to me. I stopped blaming myself for feeling things that I don't like. As long as I act as a decent human being, it's all good. And I wake up the next day feeling happy and energetic, as if there was no mood drop. This is great!
This is a god reminder. Especially when I'm tempted to not be myself because I want to be 'in'
Love to you 🙂😘
Thanks guys 😊
play Rocket League.
It's great you have nice relationship with your in-laws!
Anna, it really is. Thank you
It's one of the ultimate. Sometimes it just comes when we least expect it.
Sounds like a peak experience that you can trust to orient you. It is the ultimate joy that springs from within and connects us to the All That Is.
program means 8 weeks of inpatient treatment when I won't be allowed to leave it have visitors (because covid). Also no drinking. When I told my therapist I felt like I wasn't sick enough for the treatment and felt like an impostor, she said 'if you
didn't need treatment someone here would have told you that a long time ago. You are here for a reason'. That felt so validating. I do need to learn DBT, I need to change in order for my life to change. I want to improve the quality of my life and my
relationships. I am scared of missing out on things. Like being there to see E's new business flourish or fail. I'm scared I will be forgotten in 2 months, I'm scared his family will treat me different. But all of that would mean they can't accept me
for who I am, and I need that. I accept people for who they are, and I deserve the same (see, I'm learning to say nicer things to myself). Only time will tell, but I need to take my treatment seriously.
It's really hard to admit to someone you have intense reactions to things other people (apparently) don't care about. It's hard to ask someone to change something they are used to.
I don't really feel I'm worth the effort, but that's not up to me, right?
Sounds like a great day 🙂