I feel so ashamed every time after I self harm. I don't mean that it's an acceptable thing to do and we should all just go for it. I believe understanding is more helpful in controlling it than judgement.
Understanding is SO important when it comes to mental health. From others & from yourself. Don't ever be ashamed for coping mechanisms. We are all broken & just trying to get by with healthy & unhealthy ways. Tomorrow is a new day, my friend! 💞
That's so sweet. I bet he feels the same about you!
Thank you, Manda, I don't know if he does :) but maybe yeah
So glad you guys have each other! 💞
Thank you, Manda, so am I :)
Sounds great, Alicia! Glad you had a good day! :)
and ugly. My brain is something. Man, mood swings suck.
Every time you think you're ugly, just remember the times you think you're pretty :) I'm sure you are pretty.
You are beautiful & never forget it. Let's try to come up with some nice things to say about ourselves. We sure do have caring hearts! 💞
I think I'm good at listening and understanding people. I sure do try :)
I think I'm a great listener, too!
You are all strong and I admire that. I guess I get stronger everyday, too. The fact that people take the time to hug other pandas, or even react to some, makes you all beautiful, caring people. Alicia, treat yourself like you would treat your best f
Your best friend!
Yeah! Treat yourself like you treat your best friend!
💜 right back at you, Spacekitten
Great words, Spacekitten!
Internet, I am
I am in the middle of the overweight spectrum. I'm not obese, I just need to lose like 8 kilos and I'll be with the norm
Do I really have to be horrified by the way I look? Can't it be seen in a different way? I feel fine, I lead an active life, my weight does not stop me from doing anything I like doing. Why the *** do I need to give it a second thought? I'm so tired
You're not a fat blob. I'm sure you're a cute person. If you are healthy, there's nothing to be worried about on your weight! ❤️
Anna is right
Thank you, girls :)
You're beautiful, Alicia! Beauty comes in all different sizes. I'm not happy with my weight either. My therapist reminds me that I'm a woman & am supposed to have some curves.
Thank you, Mandy. We shouldn't even be worrying about this stuff this much, we are loved and cared about. But... It is what it is.
I don't seem to want to spend time together, and I'm just too cold overall. It's all true, of course. I've always felt kind of tense around her, and I've never been so very in love that I would want to spend every free moment with her.
I suddenly find myself being just as distant as my ex. I'm not a great partner, I guess. Then again, it's not like I've ever had my needs met. Why would I be happy and grateful and full of ideas of things to do together?
On the other hand, aren't joint art projects a thing to do together that only I invent around here? Ugh.
This needs to end.
afraid of, finding out I do have BPD, or that I don't have it
June is almost over. I'm going back to work in July. I am waiting for October to come. Please, universe, make my wish come true.
paperwork to the driving school now, then cook and eat, then go back to school for a theory lesson. It's kind of nice, being busy. I've missed the escape of it.
boyfriend: 'he is a simple man', and smiles. This is why I'm on moodpanda. I like complexity, because it's me. I say about J.: 'he is as weird, if not weirder than me' and can't help lighting up like a chandelier.
Weird and complex people are great :)
Yasssss, Anna 😊
I'm definitely a fan of weird & complex people! We are the spice of life. So thankful you have J!
Were the real spice girls xD
Yay you two! That hair colour sounds great
I wanna see the hair!
alone. It feels like... Like I've lost my small child at a supermarket, and there is still hope but I am dying inside. I don't have any kids, I'm just guessing.
It feels like someone's just died, and I can't quite believe it yet, but I'm grieving.
Oh, no. I'm so sorry your are feeling this way. Don't give in to the drink! Lots of love. 💞
I'm learning to drive too. I have bad anxiety about it. I wish I'd learned younger
It was actually great fun for me today. Yay!
Snail, hope you learn to like it, too. Big hugs.
Thanks. Just being in cars as a passenger makes me nervous 🙈
vulnerable. It does feel great as well, don't get me wrong, but not when the goblin is doing their thing.
This is a problem. I need to fix it. I'm not sure I can. I need therapy.
I have finally seen the Goblin, I know where they are coming from, I know now why I've been avoiding loving anyone for so long. I am much more aware but I still feel all the same things. For the first time I'm not sure I can change anything.
And if I don't? I'll ruin everything with J. The only way I can come at the problem right now is letting go of control as much as possible. Don't try to control the other's feelings. Don't try to control your own. Let yourself feel. You know life is
not worth living when you suppress everything. A relationship is not worth much without trust, but hopefully you'll get it back. Hopefully, soon.
Especially since it's more of a faith issue, really. Not religious faith, but faith in humans and in connections they make.
Could I conceivably have faith in something I've never experienced? Maybe I just need time. And therapy, yes.
be able to go for a bike ride for at least a week. I was getting into a nice routine there.
This morning was lovely, I am very much in love and getting over my episode.
Feel better my friend XXX
Thank you, bearsies
Sorry to hear you messed up your knee again. Hope you have a quick recovery. So happy you are doing well! 💞
Thank you, Manda, it looks horrific, but it's just a flesh wound. It'll be fine, though it probably won't be pretty.