Yes, it's hard to be positive today and I can only imagine how it feels for someone in your situation.
I know how hard it is to ask for help. You remember that you've gotten through this before. But please consider talking to someone when you're at your lowest. Even chatting online can help! Hope you feel better soon, max.
I'm sorry, Max. Sometimes, just talking to a friend about anything helps distract from these low times. Or call a professional? Hope you're okay...
I don't know what country you're in but I'm UK based and I call crisis when I'm really low just to get talked down. Once I'm calmer I find it easier to rip off the plaster and talk to family and friends. Hang in there! You'll get through it
So been there. So difficult to get out of a gig for a breather. Do so if you need to but don't lose your friends. You are loved and appreciated. As is your strength to carry on. Just breathe if you need to.
Getting out will make you feel better, don't let the demons tell you otherwise, you'll be fine and you'll have fun :)