Want to start tracking my mood again. I feel I made steps backwards to my situation looking back at what I've written. Corona is making me nervous. The positives (reflecting back): I found a new job

In May last year.. it didn't feel like a perfect change but it allowed me to improve my finances massively and change my environment. My manager was a great support and made me want to take that job even though i didn't feel I suited it..

17 Mar 2020

The negatives: he's leaving now. And I don't feel like I belong to that place, I don't feel any happiness in the job too and I don't know what would make me happy. Still struggling to communicate and lose a lot of energy .. had very long commutes but

17 Mar 2020

Now during corona can stay at home.. the job will even change more into another direction so I need to think of what I could do next... I feel like I'm doing ok but by doing my work I harm my well being... sad about reading my old post and feeling I

17 Mar 2020

Didn't improve? Not happy about myself but I want to be good to myself

17 Mar 2020

Crying.. happy I'm still with E and have his support

17 Mar 2020

Feel like something is wrong with me but I don't know what

17 Mar 2020

Kaya! Glad to see you back. Wish you were feeling better.πŸ’–

17 Mar 2020

Thank you everyone β™₯️

18 Mar 2020
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help: what do i do when i want to find a 'simple' job although even though i have a good education and work experience? obvs i can't say i want to get a simple job to sort my mental health out i'm

getting 0 responses when i apply for shops or cafes..even tried to go in a shop and ask and they said use our website, i did and didn't get an answer, feel it might be my background... i feel soooo stressed at work but rated 5 because i can think

15 Mar 2019

clearly and feel weirdly determined and look forward to meet E tomorrow

15 Mar 2019

i realised i can function well weirdly when i overstrain myself but often the next days are really difficult

15 Mar 2019

probs i'm worse than a 5 actually haha exhausted.....

15 Mar 2019

Hi, Kaya! Nice to have you back. I wish I had advice but I have very little job hunting & work history. Fingers crossed you get something soon. πŸ’–

15 Mar 2019

Thanks Gabrielle, Ian, Manda <3 thank you!! trying to log more frequently! i tried morning pages but i believe it's better to share with the pandas xx

16 Mar 2019

they might have an application available but not really be hiring at the moment. if you really think it's your resume, just leave out some of the stuff

16 Mar 2019

Hi Kayabear! Great to see you! I've been in a similar situation in the past, and with some employers it helped to use a brief covering letter or intro to CV explaining that I was deliberately looking for and committed to this type of work

16 Mar 2019

It won't work with every employer, but some will be happy to consider you if they know that this is something you've chosen to do

16 Mar 2019
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had the best NYE at a friends with tv/music/food/drinks and even 2 dogs <3, felt so happy, and things with my family are sorted too! I feel so happy

That's brilliant! Good to see you so happy, you deserve it <3 <3

01 Jan 2019

Thank you Katie Rose :)))

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low energy level despite sleeping loads, felt miserable and anxious today, even scared to call family...but i want to make plans and open up more to my loved ones and stop being miserable

Aw, sorry to see this, Kaya. I hope you are able to open up. I'm sure everyone would be glad to listen & offer support. Thinking of you. πŸ’–

31 Dec 2018
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Oh my forgot to log! Lots of sleeping and not taking care of myself properly...Xmas was fun though with E, after that sleep coma at home though. Parents aren't happy with me, struggle to communicate

Glad you had a nice christmas Kara, you done the right thing with self care :)

30 Dec 2018

thanks Pandas x

30 Dec 2018

Glad you had a good Christmas, Kaya. I hope you find better ways to communicate with your parents. It's really important!

31 Dec 2018

Aw thanks, Manda and Katie too! It's much better now Manda, thank you so much xx

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Feel happy about the weekend and having Monday off! Have a German friend visiting tomorrow, today seing E<3

Kaaaaaayyyyyyaaaaaa!!!! πŸ’š

09 Dec 2018
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feeling exhausted. Want to start to track my mood again. Phone crashed and I can hardly use it but will try and use the web version for a bit...funny i am back again with a face mask and try to relax

actually more a 5 i am feeling ok, just very tired and overthinking...very happy with E he's a big support, also thankful for my family and my grandma published her book

05 Dec 2018

Wow.

05 Dec 2018

Go grandma

05 Dec 2018

Thanks all pandas x yes nixiblu she's 87 haha today she is presenting it to some audience

07 Dec 2018

Wow! Go, grandma, indeed! Glad to see you back, Kaya! πŸ’–

09 Dec 2018
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Relaxation, self care (face mask) & gratitude about relationships

Ooooh! Face masks are love, right?! 😍

15 May 2018
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Very tired today/yesterday. Friday was fun had the day off, did some shopping, went for coffee, to a concert and clubbing πŸ˜‚ with E! He said he loved me for the first time πŸ’— I miss him
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Yogi tea at work: 'kindness is the essence of life'πŸ’˜ was tired before but this made me feel better. Also I feel so much love for E recently, it's a nice an scary feeling, becoming stronger over time

Aw I sound weird, we're together but non of us said yet 'I love you' once he said on the phone 'love ya' :D I think he knows though I do, I'm so glad to have him in my life and he's really good to me, it's more about actions than words.. just

20 Mar 2018

Sometimes I'm worried he wouldn't like me anymore although there is no valid reason and I freak out and e notices haha

20 Mar 2018

I'm so happy you guys are still going strong! No need to worry. I hope he is reassuring in those situations. πŸ’–

20 Mar 2018

Thank you Lydia, Natalie, manda πŸ’—πŸ’— very kind! Yes he does! I feel he understands me emotionally although i struggle to explain all ha

21 Mar 2018
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Ha a very nice time in London and then met E and friends, today was just quiet, I stressed a bit in my head but actually I'm fine haha
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Off to London to meet a friend I didn't see in a long time!

Hi, Kaya! Hope you have a wonderful time! πŸ’–

15 Mar 2018

Aw thanks manda, Lydia, Jeff, Cindy! β˜ΊοΈπŸ’—πŸ’—

18 Mar 2018
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Exhausted! Had bad chest pains at work and no break, went for a house viewing later and had food & Sports/yoga clothes :) got a promo! Spoke with mum, she didn't seem happy, it's so hard to talk with

The ones who love me the most and it makes me sad.. I'm struggling so much to open up and they don't understand me easily because they're so different.. I feel I need to explain every little thing I do and it's tiring and difficult

14 Mar 2018

Thanks Michelle!

14 Mar 2018

Thank you manda, miles, Jeff! X

18 Mar 2018

And odie!

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Tired but very happy! Had so much fun with E yesterday and stayed over. Felt the loveπŸ’— work was a bit boring but I'm feeling calm and confident there at least which is a progress
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Weekend was slow, mostly life admin but looking forward to a concert with E tonight :) also I hated tidying up but recently enjoy it, that's a progress

Enjoy the concert Kaya

11 Mar 2018

Aw thanks so much! Noel, it was very nice!

12 Mar 2018
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Welcome back!

09 Mar 2018

Aw thanks Lydia :) x

09 Mar 2018

Welcome back!

10 Mar 2018

Thanks Justin & love <3 :)

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Brainwashed at work, conscious after yoga

Tomorrow dogs and kids st work, I will try to make the best out of my day. I'm creating my own agenda

21 Dec 2017

Thanks Kyle & manda <3

21 Dec 2017
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