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Had help tidying up yesterday. Feel momentarily on top of things. Felt energised by a amazing person on the phone but I ruin it with a made up as I go along story about a vomiting sailor.
John T
3d · LEGEND

My Dad has injured his back. I'll make extra effort to cheer him up tomorrow after volunteering. First things first. Xmas tree up tomorrow morning.

John T
3d · LEGEND

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3d · LEGEND

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Panic attack earlier prevented me from going to volunteering but a new album downloaded has come to the rescue. Susanne SundfΓΈr is post human. Unreal singer. I've managed to be productive today.
John T
6d · LEGEND

Sometimes all those immobilising feelings coming out leave me pretty telaxed

John T
6d · LEGEND

Relaxed*

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6d · LEGEND

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6d · LEGEND

Sorry to hear you had a panic attack. I know how awful they can be!

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6 John T
20 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
Stressed about dentists check up tomorrow but feeling ok. Haven't been running for a while need to get back out there. All my favourite paths are saturated after the city's most wet autumn on record.
John T
20 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Can't make excuses because I usually just run round and round the council estate.

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20 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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7 John T
17 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
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7 John T
11 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
https://johntownshend.bandcamp.com/album/thats-what-i-need download my new album for free... it's been a really good release making it over the past 6 months or so and has helped me relax
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11 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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11 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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11 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Great achievement! Congratulations :) Thank you for sharing it.

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12 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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12 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Well done John

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15 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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6 John T
08 Nov 2019 · LEGEND
My personality is the past was mostly a self loathing, ***al, neurotic mess. That doesn't define me. In the present I am more of a variable reflection of my situation (still neurotic). Who knows?
John T
08 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

For me 50% of being happy is accepting being sad.

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08 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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08 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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09 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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10 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

I agree, John, that acceptance changes things. Keep at keeping at it!

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13 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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13 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I liked it, about the 50%

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7 John T
30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
Just walked 28 miles in the mountains
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30 Oct 2019 · HERO

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30 Oct 2019 · HERO

Super!

Jason E C
30 Oct 2019 · SUPPORTER

Wow!

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30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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Manda P
30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Awesome, John! That's really great!

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30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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30 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Ooh, a seven, lovely :)

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31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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31 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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31 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Nice! That sounds wonderful!

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31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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31 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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31 Oct 2019 · HERO

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31 Oct 2019 · HERO

Idillic

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01 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

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01 Nov 2019 · LEGEND

Oop! Two hugs for you! Wish I could walk in the mountains.

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5 John T
22 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
Just ate some delicious food. I realised today that when I'm tired and hungry I'm a total ***
John T
22 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

The woman in the flat upstairs is laughing hysterically. It's infectious. I'm just sat smiling at my cat

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22 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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23 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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23 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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24 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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24 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Idyllic 😁

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31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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6 John T
05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
The blades could only draw but I read a lot today. I am enjoying the achievement of having enough concentration as much as the book - and the book is fantastic. I've got the sequel lined up too.
John T
05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

I am still feeling down on and off but I love autumn so much it helps so much

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05 Oct 2019 ·

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Tebby B
05 Oct 2019 ·

I love autumn too! I'm so relieved my depression hit at a time of year when I have so many things to look forward to and be positive for. Summer depression for me is harrrrd

John T
05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Summer is hard for me every year. I like to wear beautiful thick jumpers, watch colours change, feel a bite of the wind on my cheek, see the animals prepare for the winter to come. I like warmth after coolness, not constantly.

John T
05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Like contentment after depression you appreciate it more. It's having known the low that makes you enjoy the high. You can generate heat easily in autumn, run, dance, play. In summer it difficult to cool down.

John T
05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

In summer temper grows and break like the thunderstorm after a drought. If we can cling on the minor details maybe the smell of petrichor or the human love of shelter we can retain hope for better seasons to come.

Jen B
05 Oct 2019 · HERO

Autumn is wonderful. What are you reading?

Tebby B
05 Oct 2019 ·

Yesss! I love all of this sentiment John

John T
05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Book of dust: Part One La Belle Sauvage by Phillip Pullman. The original 'his dark materials' trilogy are some of the very few novels I can endure, even enjoy. The only fiction I usually like is poetry. I like non fiction books more

John T
05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Thanks tebby! You might enjoy a little place I keep my awful babbles. There is a little more autumn chat there http://johntownshend.com/wordpress/

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05 Oct 2019 · HERO

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05 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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06 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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me M
06 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I love autumn too <3

Alicia B
16 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Happy birthday, dearest panda John! <3

Jeff M
16 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Happy birthday, John! :D

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16 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
16 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Happy birthday John! Hope you enjoy the day and are doing okay. I love autumn too and am another October birthday person- we rulexx

me M
16 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Happy Birthday!! Hope you have a great day.

John T
19 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Thanks for the birthday wishes

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31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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4 John T
02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND
Just made 6 burgers. One tin of chickpeas partially blended with like juice and chilli sauce. Spice blend: very hot chilli powder, 5 spice, ginger, curry powder, msg, garlic.
John T
02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

One onion chopped and fried with a little sugar. Stir fried veg (green beans, peas, carrots) in a little oil, then partially blended.

John T
02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

A microwave bag of indian grains and pulses. Flour. Mix and shape. Freeze

John T
02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

From frozen shallow fry for four minutes a side or bake in the oven 200Β°C fan for 20 - 24 minutes

John T
02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

*lime juice not like juice

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02 Oct 2019 ·

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Ellie R
02 Oct 2019 ·

Sounds so delicious! and vegan too :D

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02 Oct 2019 · HERO

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John T
02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

I seasoned them with a bit of salt and a lot of black pepper

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02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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02 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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03 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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6 John T
25 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
Brain feels all over the place. Mad and frightening thoughts coming from nowhere. Simultaneously with a focus that I haven't experienced in years. I took advantage and read a big chunk of a book.
JVAN X
25 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

I know the feeling. Up and down and all around.

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25 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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26 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
26 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Up and down and all around, now shake it, do the crazy dance! :D JK. Big big hugs.

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26 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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28 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

πŸ˜œπŸ˜ƒ Alicia

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31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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10 John T
22 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
48:04 first ever 10k... I wish I had trained better but still pleased with a difficult run through the rain. Got a nice medal and a t shirt.
paul M
22 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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22 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
22 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

You rock!

me M
22 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Jake G
22 Sep 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

That's fast..... especially for a first!! πŸ‘

Max T
22 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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Max T
22 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

That's a great time, John!

Jeff M
23 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
23 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

That is a really good time! Way to go!

John T
23 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Thanks everyone. I was 621st out of 3872 runners. Foam roll on my legs this morning... Was not... Pleasant...

Jake G
23 Sep 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

that is a LOT of runners :-O

John T
24 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

There were more but loads of people's timing chip didn't work because of the waterproof ponchos and coats hiding themselves from the torrential rain.

Alicia B
24 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Beyond impressed.

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25 Sep 2019 · HERO

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12 Oct 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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4 John T
19 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
6am... I've had next to no sleep... Shall I wake up, put the kettle on, drink tea, and tidy the flat to beautiful music whilst the sunrise shines through my window? No. Thought not...
me M
19 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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me M
19 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Same here

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7 John T
18 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
This peaceful state of mind feels as unreal as the days my innermost turmoil is on the surface. It doesn't stop me milking every second. I get nothing done when I feel good or when I feel bad.
Jen B
18 Sep 2019 · HERO

I can relate to that last sentence. I read it and was like 'yes!'

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22 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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3 John T
14 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
A special thanks to all the deities that have ever been believed in by any animal for relaxing music in particular, also thanks to the musicians and their loved ones, and of course my cat.
John T
14 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Did an hour an three quarters on the exercise bike after anxiety cancelled my run earlier. Planning to try and get my support worker to book me a psychiatrist appointment on Monday - It seems I couldn't get it done myself on the phone on Friday.

John T
14 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

https://menitrust.bandcamp.com/album/oncle-jazz free download - very soothing indie pop - I managed to pre order the a copy from the first run of limited vinyl a while back too. I look forward to that arriving.

John T
14 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Determined to shave off my 'crisis beard' tomorrow and deal with my nose hair which in all honesty could probably comb into a reasonable moustache...

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14 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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16 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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1 John T
13 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
There I go crashing down. I'm going to phone the mental health team in the morning because I have fallen to pieces.
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13 Sep 2019 · HERO

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13 Sep 2019 · HERO

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13 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

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13 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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13 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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13 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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13 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

I'm sorry, John. I hope you're able to work your way back up again. Really glad you're able to recognize when to reach out.

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13 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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13 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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13 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

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13 Sep 2019 · GUARDIAN

Sorry to hear this John ☹

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14 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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26 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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7 John T
12 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
I'm feeling really good. A good run yesterday made me feel strong and fast. I'm going to stop writing 'taken tablets' because I'm not using this everyday anymore so there's no point.
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12 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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6 John T
07 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
Looks like updates! Hooray! I've tried to reply and hug but it's not working for me at the moment. I'm sure the site will be feeling better soon! Jake is working hard to improve it.
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07 Sep 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

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4 John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
Feeling like I'm trying extra hard to achieve the same old results. Evenings are becoming the most difficult time of day. No sleep so took sleeping tablet late. Slept until 1230 in the afternoon.
John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Taken tablets

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06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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06 Sep 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

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07 Sep 2019 ·

If I take my zopiclone even 3.75 me too - pm wake up. 7 mg+ All week out. But still sometimes no choice. Better than insomnia spiralling high. Learning to judge when. To know me.

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07 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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10 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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5 John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND
Had a lovely walk and took some photos. Photography is a good opportunity to be mindful and take opportunity but I tend to stick to pre thought out plans and forget detail in the moment. Taken tablets
John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

My 10k race is in two weeks. Training isn't going well. Going to go for it next week then cut back the week before. I'll stick to the 55 minute pacer and try to run towards the 50 minute pacer if I'm feeling good in the last half.

John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

I know I could do better if I'd trained better but I'm looking forward to having post ru reward cake so I don't care.

John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

I am currently jumping to conclusions that someone else is jumping to conclusions about something I said and I feel ridiculous. Sleep is not on it's way.

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06 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Jeff M
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Post-run rewards are the best! It's usually beer for me. I'm sure you'll do good, John. Remember to have fun. And warm up at least a half mile super slow beforehand. Helps a TON! Have a good weekend!

Jeff M
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Jake G
06 Sep 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

Hey John. If you find a moment, can you email me [jake@ ] I think you have my personal email address - with a list of the app bugs you've identified - I'll try to get them higher priority!

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06 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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John T
06 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Done Jake. Thanks for listening. Apologies for the length of the email. I made a best of compilation of my previous bug reports and added some new material. Important: +I am grateful for MP and I don't want to be ungrateful or harsh.+

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06 Sep 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

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