Wish i could look like this😓 but before i'm skinny i still need to lose at least 9 kg https://theskinnyme4ever.wordpress.com/tag/skinny/

THAT is a TERRIBLE websites! They all look so unhealthy. Skinny is NOT attractive. No-one wants to hug a skeleton, literally, skin n bones. When you hold a woman in your arms , you want to feel flesh and comfortable. PLEASE, aim for health not a look

11 Jan 2019

That site is body-shaming and giving false/wrong ideas/ideology. This is how Anorexia/Bulimia start... And I've seen that lead to death. : (

11 Jan 2019
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Im going on a diet! Im 5'2 amd weigh 47 kg now, i want to be 37 kg! I really like to see how much weight i have already lost😍

Best of luck, though it sounds like you're already doing well. Good for you - it's pretty tough

17 Nov 2018

37? Really. That sounds too low.

18 Nov 2018

I'm 57kg at 5ft 5 that's a size 8-10.

18 Nov 2018

I have size S-XS, i dont know what that is in american sizes... 37 id fine, i saw it on a BMI calculator

18 Nov 2018
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Harmed myself again.... After almost 4,5 months of not doing it... Really sad and angry at me. It wasn't just one, it are at least around 20 on my arms.... Really feeling like cr@p rn... F*ck my life

But you did stop for 4.5 months - think of the progress you've made, all the commitment that took. I'm sorry you harmed yourself again, and hope you stay safe, but you have a lot to build on and be proud of xx

07 Oct 2018

Couldn't put it any better than the way that Cindy did! ^^^^ Be kind to yourself because you deserve that. One moment of weakness does not take away from the progress you made. Sending love xxx

07 Oct 2018
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Emotionally: i'm done. Metally: i'm drained. Spiritualy: i'm dead. Physically: i smile.
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I got the job! Jeejj🎉. But on the other hand im stressed out, what if i do it wrong... And school also stresses me out, too many tests and projects this month...

Well done

14 Jun 2018

Congratulations on getting the job! Always stressful, but just do the best you can. They hired you for a reason. You got this!

14 Jun 2018

Thnx Tasha and Jeff!

15 Jun 2018
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I'm having a job interview today, stressed out!
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Mom and stepdad broke up after 10 years, all my fault. If i hadn't been so moody, my mom also wouldn't have been and then the fight wouldnt even had started. I saw my stepdad driving away. Cried all

Night because of the fight. He packed his stuif and left. We will soon clean the house and put it for sale.... That we will probably be in depts, since my mom isn't fit to work and she is the only adult left then.....

08 Jun 2018

This isn't your fault 🤗

08 Jun 2018

It's not your fault. Not uncommon for children of parents who break up to think this...do a few online searches. There's good advice and thoughts to show you how it is most definitely not your fault and how you can get through this...

08 Jun 2018

Sorry things are so rough with your family right now, but try not to blame yourself. Just keep moving forward, and you and your mother will have to support each other. *Big hugs*

08 Jun 2018
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I haven't been on MP for a while, i was really feeling in a bad place and i tried to commit su*cide again. Again didn't work. Wondering if i am even meant to die young or not. I'm slowly getting

Better, but i'm still in a very dark space rn. I hope to get a bit better talking on here again.

06 Jun 2018

well im glad that ur su*cide attempt didnt work and i know how u feeel

06 Jun 2018

Stay safe 😔

06 Jun 2018

I'm sorry to hear what's been happening, Emma Luna, but hope you find being back on MP helpful. It's been a long road for me to feel better and get back to work, but I'm doing it. Be kind to yourself and remember progress isn't always linear xx

06 Jun 2018

Very glad you're still here (in the world, and here on MP). It often seems like you'll never get out of these lowest points, and the climb out is difficult. Someday I'm sure you'll look back and be happy you gave yourself a chance!!

06 Jun 2018

Thnx Tiana, Tasha and nixiblu. Thnx Cindy, i hope it'll be too. Its Greta that you're getting back on tracks. I'll try too, i'll also try to be nice to myself. Thmx Jeff, i hope i someday will.

08 Jun 2018
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I wish i could erease my memories, so i could stop feeling so empty.

You probably just want to get rid of the bad ones but then it means losing all the good ones to. I've been in your position and you need to remember you can't change the past x

24 Jan 2018

We haven't heard from you for s while. How are you feeling?

28 Jan 2018

Missing you Emma! X

29 Jan 2018

Thnx everyone, sorry i haven't replied lately. Hi lieteke, im not ok, but its not as worse as it was a little while ago, thnx for asking. Awh thnx rosie. And Emily, if i would only remove the wrong ones, i would still be almost empty of my memories..

06 Jun 2018
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I feel like no one cares about me anymore, not even here on MP....

Sending you lots of love xxx

21 Jan 2018

We care! We're here for you!

21 Jan 2018

We do care, hope you are ok :(

21 Jan 2018

Emma I absolutely care xx hug

25 Jan 2018

Oh my gd,,, you're back on here. thank goodness, I was so worried when we didn't hear from you for so long.... I was going to create an Instagram account just to be able to connect with you.. 'Uchh' the thought of it... me with an Instagram accnt!?

13 Feb 2018

I'm guessing you had a pretty difficult period, with the new year season and all that, but please understand and remember, no matter what you think of 'feel', there ARE people that think and care about you. And not just us here on MP. It's a case of

13 Feb 2018

... reaching out and finding out whom these people are. It could be difficult, at first, but sometimes we have to take the first hard step to finding help/friends. X {Big warm hug}

13 Feb 2018

Thnx u all, sorry i haven't replied for a while... Wasn't feeling good at all, i really appreciate your supports💕

06 Jun 2018

Hi Emma - I continue to care I hope you are doing ok

17 Oct 2018
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Somebody give me a hammer. I wanna break all the clocks and the mirrors. To go back to a time that was different. A time when i... Didn't feel like there was something missing.....
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Nu mom thinks i'm feeling better lately, just because i dont cut anymore... But i'm so depressed. I feellike i can talk to her, but also not. If i would tell her about my past $uicideattempts she

Would deffenitly let me see a therapist or something, she said she would do that only if i would cut again

27 Dec 2017

Well then if she found i tried to kill myself, she would defently force me to mental care

27 Dec 2017

And i dont want that!

27 Dec 2017
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i know how bad this sucks. I have

27 Dec 2017
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I have went through this too, and eventually I went to therapy and after awhile I felt sooooo much better. Idk maybe give it a try? It doesn't hurt.. if you don't like it try your best to not bottle up your feelings, as it makes it worse.

27 Dec 2017
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Always tell somebody if something bothers you, and also ask them for advice. Just remember that if you need somebody to talk to, I'm always here! :)

27 Dec 2017

Hi my love. Haven't seen you here for a while, thinking of you and hoping you are ok. Happy new year to you xx

02 Jan 2018

Hey Emma, glad to hear from you again, in spite of what it's about, 'was getting worried. Sorry that you're going through a tough period right now. We know and understand that it's difficult, but in the long run it works out for the best to get help.

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Need to go to school in an hour😭 https://www.instagram.com/p/BcoZG4VnsJs/

I hope school is better for you today than the list of things in that list Emma. Have a good day

13 Dec 2017

God, I loved school.

13 Dec 2017

School makes me feel exactly like that list Noel 😁

13 Dec 2017

Not heard from you for a few days Emma. Hope you are well.

22 Dec 2017
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Don't really know if i'm feeling depressed or not.... Everything is kinda numb to me. :(

Oops, i meant thnx😅

13 Dec 2017

Maybe check with your doctor Emma?

13 Dec 2017

Or try not labelling your feelings with something and just *be*, as a human. Let whatever the feeling is pass over.

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My mom found out i cutted myself... She was a bit mad at first, but then started crying real bad. We where both cryin much, we talked about what to do now.... She will try to help me get trough it...

The Zen poet Thich Nhat Hanh writes: 'No mud, no lotus.' The mud is suffering, its the undesirable stuff we want to be rid of. W/o mud, however, the lotus will not flower. You are in pain. Youre mother is suffering to see you cut. Thats the mud.

09 Dec 2017

Love is there, too. The lotus of love is flowering. She is standing by you w/ the strength of a mothers love.

09 Dec 2017

I'm glad your mother wants to help. It's good to have people who care about you! Big hugs

09 Dec 2017

We, too, are here, sending you our love and hugs. The lotus of compassion is flowering within you. There are depths of empathy & compassion we can only acquire through suffering. May today's pain be the stuff of tomorrows joy & wisdom.

09 Dec 2017

Her anger is probably out of fear. So happy she will be there for you and helping you!

09 Dec 2017

Glad your mom is there for you - thinking of you xx

09 Dec 2017

Having someone on your side is so wonderful.

09 Dec 2017

Thnx everyone, i really appreciatie the support. Love to all of you pandas xx

10 Dec 2017

Agree with Jeff, she must have been scared. That must have been a tough moment for you both - but how amazing to have someone help you! I'm so happy your mum is with you xx

11 Dec 2017

Thnx rosie xx

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1st day of studies I finish at 8:45pm.

08 Dec 2017

2nd day at 8pm. 3rd day of uni' I get home around 8:30-45.... I actually finish at 3:15pm,, but then have work experience on a horse ranch (that also does therapeutic riding), so that makes up for it and is a great way to finsh the week. :)

08 Dec 2017

Any ranches/farms near you?

08 Dec 2017

Yes there is a little ranch nearby Edward, but i'm terrefied for horses😅

09 Dec 2017

XD How about ponies? Hey, any animal farm will do... Apart from the one in the book Animal Farm. ; )

09 Dec 2017

(Ho do we do smilies on here? I feel like I'm missing out, and not able to fully communicate myself)

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https://www.instagram.com/p/BcaEwOTnAcs/ Couldn't stop feeling like $hit, so i kinda started again.....😰

Oh babes

07 Dec 2017

Think about calling a crisis line so you can talk it through anonymously.

07 Dec 2017

Aww...hope you're ok, Emma!

07 Dec 2017

'Sorry that you're going through this, even more sorry that can't be there to help you get through this. But please, find someone you can talk to and confide in. x {warm embracing hug}

08 Dec 2017

Thnx Edward, and the rest also ofcourse xxx

09 Dec 2017
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