I'm gaining weight, my boyfriend rapes me when I'm sleeping, I'm lonely and homesick, I hate my job and I'm under lots of pressure to find a new one, and honestly I want to die

That's a criminal offence. It's a very abusive thing. There are other better people out there, but remember that you are a survivor and that makes you stronger than you know at the moment. Things can change and change quickly, keep this to mind.

02 Nov 2018
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I've been really worried and scared over the last few days about what happens when we die. I'm scared of burning in Hell, I don't want to be in eternal pain. I know it's stupid to worry at this point.
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I'm with my boyfriend watching Mamma Mia 2 in bed in my new Twenty One Pilots top and I feel content x
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I'm a solid 2 atm. Really want to hurt myself until I end it all, but I'll survive. I'm not lucky enough to be granted the luxury of death
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I don't know how I feel. A part of me is okay and I don't have a reason to be sad but I guess I still feel sad. I don't want to eat. I don't want to do anything productive. I want to sleep, suicide...
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I'm so happy!! I did something normal!! By which I mean I was intimate with someone without past experiences making me have a panic attack. This is great. I feel great
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There's so much I need to do. I don't know if I can do it. I need a time out. A break from my life. I keep messing everything up, especially when it comes to relationships. I'm a horrible person

You're not a horrible person! We all over-embellish our perceived failures. You have to be ok with yourself and know you can't change your past but you can change in the future.

05 Jan 2018

Some people can't even reach the point of realization of messing their relationships up because they aren't any close to starting them. Since you're able to start them you're inevitably going to succeed with one of them. Sooner or later.

06 Jan 2018

Thank you Michail, I appreciate it x

06 Jan 2018
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Doubt is creeping in. I'm making the wrong choices, doing the wrong things. I don't know if he genuinely likes me for me, and I can't face my parents yet. I feel alone. I cant face the new year yet

He asked me out last night and I said yes so I guess technically he is my boyfriend but I don't know if he wants me or just wants someone. Maybe it's just an ego boost. It's probably just my insecurities but I don't know if he really likes me or not

31 Dec 2017

I'm probably only stressing about this as a distraction from my home life, but at the moment I can't find sense in anything. I'm really trying to, and I've made 7 positive and achievable resolutions. I want to be okay, I just don't know how

31 Dec 2017

I don't know how to fix things with my parents and I don't know who my friends are. I have one great friend who I love more than anything, but other than her I don't trust anyone. Everyone else abandons me

31 Dec 2017

I hope everything makes sense to you very soon love ... wish u a happy new year !!!

31 Dec 2017
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I think my mum kicked me out? I'm falling apart, I don't know what to do about anything rn, everything feels wrong and I don't know what I feel. Chin up Buttercup, but sometimes your life implodes
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My social worker said I have to go home by tomorrow, which sucks. I haven't spoken to her yet but she seems mean, she had a go at my auntie and mum for some reason. I can't deal
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I''m staying with my aunt atm, not at home. I have been assigned a social worker, and been referred to mental health services. Could be a step in the right direction but it feels too much. Too messy

It can seem a lot, but hopefully you'll find the help useful, and the people caring and lovely. I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for the mental health teams in Sheffield and in Pembrokeshire. Forever grateful for their help and kindness..

29 Dec 2017
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I feel broken. I think I really love him and I don't understand why he doesn't see that I can make him happy. He won't make me sadder, if anything he makes me better. It hurts me x

It's just my belief, but a guy who truly loves you would never let you doubt his feelings for you

26 Dec 2017

You both seem to have different meanings for happiness. Haven't you thought it just satisfies his ego? Knowing that there's someone who really cares about him and having no need to give anything back

26 Dec 2017
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I did something last night that I probably shouldn't have done but at the moment I feel great about it
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Lonely, suicidal, I know I can't expect people to be there all the time but I hate when I have no one, I hate being alone. So much anger and pain and I don't know why

Whenever I feel myself alone and abandoned I listen to some music with depressive lyrics. It makes me realize I'm not the first and not the last who feels it. I'd dare you to try it. It's going to bring some different kind of pain as well though.

20 Dec 2017
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I made a mistake. I let a boy drive me home and invited him in to see my house and meet my parents. I didn't think of it as a huge deal but I think when he left he wanted me to kiss him and I didn't..

Doesn't sound like that's YOUR mistake. You can't control his assumptions. As long as you make it clear to him (of course in a positive and productive way), it's on him. Don't feel guilty for another person's assumptions!

20 Dec 2017

Thank you Jeff. I'll speak to him about it tomorrow xx

20 Dec 2017
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Silly reason to be sad but I feel really alone right now. I don't really have anyone I can turn to or rely on. I mean, I do. I know I do. But I don't want to be a burden to anyone

Is it loneliness or is it solitude?

18 Dec 2017

Maybe a bit of both. I'm pushing people away but also trying to hold them really close. I don't like being alone

18 Dec 2017

I know that feeling of being afraid of sharing their worries with their closest ones because it has already been done too many times and it's rather going to push them away than to get some understanding

18 Dec 2017

I don't want to lose any of my friends by being too needy and insecure. It hurts me when they're hurting and I don't want to add to their worries

18 Dec 2017

Chloe, we are here for you.

19 Dec 2017
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I'm drunk and a bit high and I cut very deep I hate it, I'm a mess I'm sorry, I don't know what to do

Want to give you a hug. Is there anything you can do to put your mind off? Music, stupid program on tv, silly movie?

17 Dec 2017

I kind of just want to die but I know I can't, I have no idea what to do. I'm messaging my friends stupid things and they're going to hate me

17 Dec 2017

Chloe do you need medical attention for your cut? Are you safe dear Panda. If not can you call for help?

17 Dec 2017

I'll be okay. I'm just lonely. Everyone hates me

17 Dec 2017

I don't hate you Chloe. I am concerned you may hate yourself. Is it time for professional help?

17 Dec 2017

I've tried getting help, they don't care. I'm sorry xx

17 Dec 2017

We care Chloe. How can you get out of this void? Professional help? Tell good friends? Tell a familymember how you feel? Heck, a stranger maybe? *HUG*

17 Dec 2017

I'll be okay. I'm sorry. I don't really have anyone right now xx

17 Dec 2017

Do you have a Helpline like Samaritans? You can talk to them in confidence

17 Dec 2017
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Today has been amazing!!! I've so happy all day!! It's almost definitely mania from the bipolar but wow I just want to jump and bounce and love everyone. I haven't felt this good in so long!!!
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Today has been amazing!!! I've so happy all day!! It's almost definitely mania from the bipolar but wow I just want to jump and bounce and love everyone. I haven't felt this good in so long!!!
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