aching though. I need to buy proper running shoes. Also, I'm very tired since the last few days that I switched 'modes'. Looking forward to a good rest tonight.
I'm trying to temper myself, trying to make sure that I don't get too carried away with the rush of energy, enthusiasm and inspiration because I have learned the hard way that the fall from a peak is much worse than a fall from baseline. . . Anyways
still also trying to acknowledge when I feel good. And right now I feel good. :) Tired. And my feet are aching but overall, I feel good.
Hearing celebration. Lots of self-awareness and self-care behind it. Tidiness is also cathartic. Thinking of Marie Kondo @ konmari.com
Thanks Love 1! Interesting thoughts! I will check that link if I get a chance! 😊
it for the sake of productivity. I just wish I didn't work in such fits and bursts sometimes! 🤦🏾♀️
On a cloud day:)
Thanks wonderful Panda friends!
exercise plan but I am finding it hard to fully commit and start. :/
Trying to remind myself that if I don't change something, then nothing will change.
defeated career-wise and low self esteem due to weight gain and career challenges. I suppose these are just hurdles. On a positive note, communication with my family has improved a lot over the last year. I really feel like we have come to a point
where they are more understanding and are better enabled to support me in a productive and effective way and also that I am more aware of setting healthy boundaries and working on my communication and awareness of how my behaviour impacts on others.
So I guess I have made progress in those areas. AND I have a super boyfriend of over 1 year. It's a very healthy relationship. We communicate very openly and productively with one another and we are both supportive of one another. I feel happier and
lighter when I am with him. He's the love of my life. So I guess that is progress too. I learnt to let someone good for me in and to accept healthy love, instead of following the pattern of being attracted to guys that weren't really a good fit for
me. So it's not all bad. And I have a great support network. So that's good. :)
between myself & my parents so far. We have worked out a domestic cleaning rota and I will contribute €40 a week to groceries etc. Seems fair enough to me. . . Still that sense of feeling lost/empty feeling persists. I feel like binging to fill the
void but I'm really trying not to.
You can get through this, KT. We pandas are here to listen
Thank you Johnya and Manda! :) xxx
Bit of pain today which is causing some discomfort
Thanks guys! 🤗😘
Do you mind if I ask what you binge on ? Just incase we have similar issues 💐
Mostly chocolate, Emma ! Though can be sweets, takeaway food, crisps! Foodstuffs! Not alcohol or drugs or anything!
Thanks for hugs all! :)
anything we put in our bodies that changes how you feel can end up being addictive can't it KT ! I am an 'emotional eater' and put on 3 stone since I stopped using illicit substances so I'm now beginning to drink water and cook proper meals again and
Get my body healthy again and shed the extra weight I've put on over the last 12-18 months. I've always been chubby ,UK size 16 but I've gone up to 18 now and my normal clothes don't fit! So I'm gonna take action and fix it!
Take care KT ,maybe you can update us on your progress in trying to control binge eating urges ! 🌺🌤️🌻
things to do but I don't really feel like starting yet. Binged last night. Quite badly. Trying to respond with kindness and awareness. Acknowledge the physical discomfort today and reinforce the idea that binging does NOT make me feel good. At the
same time, telling myself it
whoops, sorry! . . . At the same time, telling myself that it is OK to have a little relapse. In fact I guess it is to be expected. So just trying to be kind and self aware today now.
Lost most of my phone contacts but I don't know how or how to retrieve them. I thought they had been saved to my SIM?! Anyways, something else to think about/investigate maybe.
Im sorry your having a hard time KT. I am too! I stopped taking class a drugs 12 months ago and im still trying to learn and improve. You will feel better once its out your system. Good luck , i hope you'll find a way !
Thanks, Emma and thanks for hugs all! 🤗
At least I am still fighting and trying to access help. Coronavirus has not been easy for anyone. Just happened to overlap with my own (premature!) mid-life crisis! Trying to just focus on basic self care and the things that are in my control while I
await DBT and other treatment from my community mental health team.
Hope all of my panda friends have been doing OK. Sorry I have not been very active over the past while. Xxx
I'm so sorry :( I hope things get better for you, we are all on your side! Best of luck <3
It sounds like you are doing your best to acces and use whatever help is available, and in the meantime exercising self care and kindness like you said. It's difficult sometimes just doing the basics ! . Well done for hanging in there!
You'll be alright it sounds like you've got a plan to deal with the changes , you never know something good night come from moving back to parents. Keep us updated on how you're doing xx 🌈
Thanks so much pandas!! ♥️♥️♥️
deadlines have passed. Meanwhile, I have decided to step out of teaching for a while but my self esteem is so low that I don't feel ready to throw myself into another job. I reflected on, 'what I need' from a job but I don't think I can afford to be
so picky given the current global pandemic and the economic crisis that is surely on it's way. It's overwhelming and scary and it's hard to face it head-on. I have sought more support from a crisis intervention service and from psych. outpatients who
are going to link me in with a social worker to discuss financial situation, occupational health possibly to discuss my problems at work and an assessment with a psychologist to discuss my eating habits and body image issues. . . So at least more
help is on the way.
Hope everyone else is doing alright and that all family and friends are safe and well during this time xx
thanks for hugs :)