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When I went to bed, I had a sense of an unease and I was aware of a discomfort in my chest. That was at 11pm. 5:25am awakened by heavy rainfall. Bit of gas and discomfort in my chest still.
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My feet are aching. I met a friend and went for a walk/jog this evening. The first time I have jogged in a LONG time. I am so unfit. But I got started and braved the self consciousness! My feet are
K T
11h · 6+ MONTHS

aching though. I need to buy proper running shoes. Also, I'm very tired since the last few days that I switched 'modes'. Looking forward to a good rest tonight.

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Went to sleep around 1am, woke just after 6am. Super tired but I accept the fact that I won't get back to sleep now. At least I have been more productive over the last couple of days. πŸ’ͺ🏾
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Went to sleep around 1am, woke just after 6am. Super tired but I accept the fact that I won't get back to sleep now. At least I have been more productive over the last couple of days. πŸ’ͺ🏾
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Went to sleep around 1am, woke just after 6am. Super tired but I accept the fact that I won't get back to sleep now. At least I have been more productive over the last couple of days. πŸ’ͺ🏾
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Finally got stuck in to sorting out all the stuff in my bedroom that had just been lying about since I moved. It has been cathartic. I am feeling hopeful and slightly more optimistic about my future
K T
1d · 6+ MONTHS

I'm trying to temper myself, trying to make sure that I don't get too carried away with the rush of energy, enthusiasm and inspiration because I have learned the hard way that the fall from a peak is much worse than a fall from baseline. . . Anyways

K T
1d · 6+ MONTHS

still also trying to acknowledge when I feel good. And right now I feel good. :) Tired. And my feet are aching but overall, I feel good.

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Hearing celebration. Lots of self-awareness and self-care behind it. Tidiness is also cathartic. Thinking of Marie Kondo @ konmari.com

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1d · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks Love 1! Interesting thoughts! I will check that link if I get a chance! 😊

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Finally got stuck in to sorting out all the stuff in my bedroom that had just been lying about since I moved. It has been cathartic. I am feeling hopeful and slightly more optimistic about my future
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It's nice to be happy but it's also very tiring when I switch to hyperdrive mode and my mind is busy/excited/inspired by ideas. The instinct is to ride out that adrenaline energy rush and to harness
K T
2d · 6+ MONTHS

it for the sake of productivity. I just wish I didn't work in such fits and bursts sometimes! πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ

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I feel happy and (dare I say it!) . . . excited. πŸ™‚ I am going to try and make an effort to notice when I feel good these days. Glimmers of hope. 😊
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On a cloud day:)

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I feel happy and (dare I say it!) . . . excited. πŸ™‚ I am going to try and make an effort to notice when I feel good these days. Glimmers of hope. 😊
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I feel happy and (dare I say it!) . . . excited. πŸ™‚ I am going to try and make an effort to notice when I feel good these days. Glimmers of hope. 😊
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I feel happy and (dare I say it!) . . . excited. πŸ™‚ I am going to try and make an effort to notice when I feel good these days. Glimmers of hope. 😊
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3 K T
30 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
Had a lovely minibreak with my partner. Parents out for the day. Feeling very empty and unmotivated. Also, my face is dry and itchy which is irritating. Was thinking about starting a diet and/or
K T
30 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

exercise plan but I am finding it hard to fully commit and start. :/

K T
30 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Trying to remind myself that if I don't change something, then nothing will change.

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30 Jul 2020 · HERO

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5 K T
26 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
Binged very badly this evening. Over 2,000 calories in one sitting. Determined to stop. Going to try weight loss hynopsis and or replacing binges with exercise. Otherwise, still generally feeling
K T
26 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

defeated career-wise and low self esteem due to weight gain and career challenges. I suppose these are just hurdles. On a positive note, communication with my family has improved a lot over the last year. I really feel like we have come to a point

K T
26 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

where they are more understanding and are better enabled to support me in a productive and effective way and also that I am more aware of setting healthy boundaries and working on my communication and awareness of how my behaviour impacts on others.

K T
26 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

So I guess I have made progress in those areas. AND I have a super boyfriend of over 1 year. It's a very healthy relationship. We communicate very openly and productively with one another and we are both supportive of one another. I feel happier and

K T
26 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

lighter when I am with him. He's the love of my life. So I guess that is progress too. I learnt to let someone good for me in and to accept healthy love, instead of following the pattern of being attracted to guys that weren't really a good fit for

K T
26 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

me. So it's not all bad. And I have a great support network. So that's good. :)

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4 K T
23 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
Finished moving all my stuff back to my family home on Monday. I have been feeling at a loss of what to do since. I have not unpacked my stuff or completed the disability allowance form. Things are OK
K T
23 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

between myself & my parents so far. We have worked out a domestic cleaning rota and I will contribute €40 a week to groceries etc. Seems fair enough to me. . . Still that sense of feeling lost/empty feeling persists. I feel like binging to fill the

K T
23 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

void but I'm really trying not to.

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23 Jul 2020 · LEGEND

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23 Jul 2020 · LEGEND

You can get through this, KT. We pandas are here to listen

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24 Jul 2020 · LEGEND

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K T
26 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Thank you Johnya and Manda! :) xxx

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5 K T
20 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
So tired after all the packing and moving and cleaning. I imagine I will sleep well tonight!!!
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4 K T
18 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
Doing a first batch of moving my stuff today. Need to pack the car and then 3 hour drive. Have been procrastinating a lot and binging the past week . . . Going to try and get some done before bf comes
K T
18 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Bit of pain today which is causing some discomfort

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18 Jul 2020 · LEGEND

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K T
19 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks guys! πŸ€—πŸ˜˜

Emma M
20 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

Do you mind if I ask what you binge on ? Just incase we have similar issues πŸ’

K T
20 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Mostly chocolate, Emma ! Though can be sweets, takeaway food, crisps! Foodstuffs! Not alcohol or drugs or anything!

K T
20 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks for hugs all! :)

Emma M
21 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

anything we put in our bodies that changes how you feel can end up being addictive can't it KT ! I am an 'emotional eater' and put on 3 stone since I stopped using illicit substances so I'm now beginning to drink water and cook proper meals again and

Emma M
21 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

Get my body healthy again and shed the extra weight I've put on over the last 12-18 months. I've always been chubby ,UK size 16 but I've gone up to 18 now and my normal clothes don't fit! So I'm gonna take action and fix it!

Emma M
21 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

Take care KT ,maybe you can update us on your progress in trying to control binge eating urges ! 🌺🌀️🌻

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4 K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
Stayed up late last night. Got confused and thought it was Wednesday today so I was preparing for my first session with a new therapist over Zoom when it will actually be tomorrow. I have lots of
K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

things to do but I don't really feel like starting yet. Binged last night. Quite badly. Trying to respond with kindness and awareness. Acknowledge the physical discomfort today and reinforce the idea that binging does NOT make me feel good. At the

K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

same time, telling myself it

K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

it's

K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

whoops, sorry! . . . At the same time, telling myself that it is OK to have a little relapse. In fact I guess it is to be expected. So just trying to be kind and self aware today now.

K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Lost most of my phone contacts but I don't know how or how to retrieve them. I thought they had been saved to my SIM?! Anyways, something else to think about/investigate maybe.

Emma M
14 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

Im sorry your having a hard time KT. I am too! I stopped taking class a drugs 12 months ago and im still trying to learn and improve. You will feel better once its out your system. Good luck , i hope you'll find a way !

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14 Jul 2020 · HERO

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14 Jul 2020 · LEGEND

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K T
19 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks, Emma and thanks for hugs all! πŸ€—

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5 K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
Moving back in with parents within a week. I will not be able to afford my rent as my sick leave pay runs out soon. I am applying for disability allowance. Can't quite believe it has come to this.
K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

At least I am still fighting and trying to access help. Coronavirus has not been easy for anyone. Just happened to overlap with my own (premature!) mid-life crisis! Trying to just focus on basic self care and the things that are in my control while I

K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

await DBT and other treatment from my community mental health team.

K T
14 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Hope all of my panda friends have been doing OK. Sorry I have not been very active over the past while. Xxx

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14 Jul 2020 · NEW

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L S
14 Jul 2020 · NEW

I'm so sorry :( I hope things get better for you, we are all on your side! Best of luck <3

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Emma M
14 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

It sounds like you are doing your best to acces and use whatever help is available, and in the meantime exercising self care and kindness like you said. It's difficult sometimes just doing the basics ! . Well done for hanging in there!

Emma M
14 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

You'll be alright it sounds like you've got a plan to deal with the changes , you never know something good night come from moving back to parents. Keep us updated on how you're doing xx 🌈

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14 Jul 2020 · 1+ YEAR

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K T
19 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks so much pandas!! β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️

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20 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

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4 K T
29 Jun 2020 · 6+ MONTHS
Had another crisis. The occupational health physician re-assessed me as still being unfit to work. That meant that I could not apply for jobs for the next school term as most of the application
K T
29 Jun 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

deadlines have passed. Meanwhile, I have decided to step out of teaching for a while but my self esteem is so low that I don't feel ready to throw myself into another job. I reflected on, 'what I need' from a job but I don't think I can afford to be

K T
29 Jun 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

so picky given the current global pandemic and the economic crisis that is surely on it's way. It's overwhelming and scary and it's hard to face it head-on. I have sought more support from a crisis intervention service and from psych. outpatients who

K T
29 Jun 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

are going to link me in with a social worker to discuss financial situation, occupational health possibly to discuss my problems at work and an assessment with a psychologist to discuss my eating habits and body image issues. . . So at least more

K T
29 Jun 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

help is on the way.

K T
29 Jun 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

Hope everyone else is doing alright and that all family and friends are safe and well during this time xx

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K T
04 Jul 2020 · 6+ MONTHS

thanks for hugs :)

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05 Jul 2020 · SUPPORTER

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