Once again, one seemingly insignificant event causes a crash
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Weekend, want to spend some time with a friend, can't because our genitals are different...... ffs...

How awful that such rumours are preventing you from being a friend/getting support. If people important to you, like your partner, know it's not true, could you meet?

02 Jun 2018

Unfortunately Cindy my partner is the main issue :(

02 Jun 2018
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Strange day - virtually fixed one of my major financial worries but still feel flat not up. Also know I would have crashes if it had gone worse.
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Doing ok(ish) - paranoia lessened but still niggling in the background
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Yay! - crippling and sickness inducing paranoia....
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Excellent - it seems now that everyone seems to think a close friend and I are sleeping together (we're both married) because it is clearly impossible to two people of different genders to be friends!

and so now over thinking everything around them and on the rollercoaster of guilt and paranoia!

29 May 2018

Omg people are so stupid!!!!!! I get really angry in situations like yours I hate gossips. Why don't people just mind their own f***ing business

29 May 2018

You have nothing to be guilty about if your relationship is completely platonic. Do your partners have suspicions? If not, then never mind everybody else. They are not true friends if they cannot trust your fidelity and loyalty to your partner!

29 May 2018
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Bad night and day has been far too hot, wiped out and just feel flat and numb
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Just feel *off* and that nothing is right. Overwhelming guilt and feeling like a fraud because I am not 'really depressed '

don't let anyone ever decide that for you. Dave. you're allowed to feel bad.

27 May 2018

Who sais you are not? The only person who knows what you feel is you. Don't feel like a fraud! Hope you can let the feeling of guilt go. It is not productive and it is not necessary.

27 May 2018

I can relate

27 May 2018

Feeling guilty, too, and sort of a disappointment for everyone. It's important to be good to ourselves in these hard times, though.

27 May 2018

Please never feel guilty! Anyone can get problems at any time in their life. It is not your fault!!!! You are not letting anyone down, it is the illness which is letting you down.

27 May 2018

I can also relate. And since I never even got a diagnosis or someone professional told me in direct terms that I'm suffering I also always feel like a fraud.

27 May 2018

I often think I'm 'not really Schizoaffective' but then it wallops me over the head like a ton of bricks. Acceptance is hard, I know, but when you do accept how you feel and how you are, you have a base to start from and better things happen.

27 May 2018

Like everyone else is saying, you know how you feel, and that's the important bit, there's help out there whether having diagnosis is part of it or not.

27 May 2018

Thank you everyone for the comments and support

29 May 2018
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what should have been a half day to myself got taken over - really need some space for me sometime

Sorry!! Me-time is so important. Is there anytime in the near future you can have some?

26 May 2018
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Meh, could be worse, nothing tremondous gone wrong yet today, this counts as a good day recently
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Feels like everything is collapsing, only positive is I have managed to stay away from blades for a few days

That's a glimmer of positive then. Hope other stuff improves soon.

24 May 2018

The only positive? That is actually a huge thing! Well done!! Especially when things are not going well! You can be proud of yourself!

25 May 2018
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Hard day at work, rather dreading going home and dealing with stuff there
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Little sleep, anxiety, life pretty much falling apart and can barely hold it together
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Bad sleep, feeling ill and run down, even the slightest thing is pushing me over the edge this morning
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Too much pressure, feel flat and merely existing, and not even sure I want to. Know there is a magic wand that could fix most of my problems but there is no-one to do it.

I know that feeling, but the bright side of not having a wand is that you can be so proud of yourself when everything is sorted! And it is a learning curve. Although this info doesn't really help you at the moment, does it..

20 May 2018

Unfortunately Lieteke it feels that it will never be sorted, at least not until I have completely run out of energy and totally given up

20 May 2018

Like the fact that you have not given up!! At some point the solution will come, the problem is, when. Try to stick to it, and if it get too hard, post here, so we can give you lots of hugs!

20 May 2018
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Want to be on my own but don't think I should be

12 day streak gone, knew I shouldn't have been on my own

19 May 2018

Hope you're okay, Dave

19 May 2018

Tomorrow is another day, and it could be day 1 again. Don't know what you are going through, but it can't be easy.

20 May 2018
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Hope it's just because of tired but can feel brain taking a dive
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Low night and bad sleep, out trying to relax and just feel flat
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Week after seeing doctor, seeing waiting for appointment re. depression. Coping ok for now but know it's only a brief respite.
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