I'm glad my medical tests came back with some really useful information on my health confirming my initial diagnosis. Moreover, the treatment I've been prescribed has finally started to help me.
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Feeling better today in every way, both physically and mentally... Yet I'm experiencing intense anxiety about my job, since I've missed many days due to my illness.
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Finally I'm back after a long stay at the hospital... and I'm still sick. I feel so guilty for being do sick, I feel guilty because my doctor has to worry about me, and my family, too

I know what you mean. Sometimes it feels like guilt is the foundation of my being. We should try and be nicer to ourselves, though. Btw, are you Russian, too?

28 Jun 2018

Alicia, yeah, I am Russian. Are you Russian as well? I see there are many of us here )

30 Jun 2018

I understand the guilt, but, it's not your fault at all

30 Jun 2018

Yes, I am :)

01 Jul 2018

Kym, thank you!

01 Jul 2018

Alicia, do you live in Russia? where exactly?

01 Jul 2018

I'm from Moscow, but I live in Germany now. How about you?

02 Jul 2018

I'm from Kineshma, it's a small town in Ivanovo region, but I live in Moscow currently. How did you figure out I was Russian?

02 Jul 2018
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I had to call an ambulance and go to hospital, because my kidney infection got completely out of hand. I don't know what to do with it! I've been staying at the hospital for three days and I still

have fever. I'm on antibiotics, but I feel like they are not helping much. I feel so tired of being sick! I've been sick for over a month already!

20 Jun 2018

I hope you get well soon!

20 Jun 2018

Glad you got somewhere to have it taken care of. I hope you feel better soon!

20 Jun 2018

Hope you finally feel better soon.

21 Jun 2018
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I've met with a friend of mine today. I feel good about it, even though I overspent money in the restaurant we went to and am feeling a little guilty
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Not feeling like specifying anything at all...
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feeling so-so today... still sick, still anxious, still worried... I wish everything were over already: the entrance exams, my work situation, money issues, health issues.... I just want to be happy
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I've been kinda sad lately( pissed off with the weakness of my body and with my inability to accept it even though it's always been like that. I often think, if only I didn't have that disease or this

disease, if only I didn't need as much rest or had more energy, what could I have achieved?

11 Jun 2018
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I'm so upset with myself! Why am I so sick and so weak? I often feel like I'm the weakest person among everyone I know. By weak I mean physically. My mental strength is what still keeps me going

Try a martial art, it'll give you confidence without too much exercise, usually it's more gentle and efficient than you'd imagine.

10 Jun 2018

John T, this sounds like a fantastic idea! I should definitely think about it

10 Jun 2018
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Feeling kinda normal today, although a little sad since I have to leave my current internship and move on to another one
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Feeling a bit better today, even though my heart is still pumping intensely

Try deep breathing. I found yog classes really good to help me learn breathing techniques. It's amazing the difference it makes. At one point hearing my heart racing made me feel even more anxious. A thought I used to calm me down a bit was that your

07 Jun 2018

heartbeat is just a reminder that you are alive and well. . . That only applies if hearing it freaks you out even more! But maybe that will help a bit! x

07 Jun 2018

I get that quite a lot too. Sometimes it's good to just distract yourself if something is making you anxious. I've also found online guided meditation to be relaxing

07 Jun 2018

^^^^ I agree with Janine! Online guided meditation can be very helpful! I used to do the guided meditations by The Honest Guys on Youtube a lot. They have lots. I used to like Summer Meadow and this one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S92hR3YgblU

08 Jun 2018

Most of the ones I use are by Jason Stephenson. I mainly use them for sleeping but I think he does others

08 Jun 2018

Thank you, guys! I'm doing guided meditations with the Headspace app. Yeah, I did have that feeling of fear when I felt my heart beating like this. Although I think it was more of a side effect of the antibiotics, it felt like a constant panic attack

08 Jun 2018

Just played a bit of one of his videos there now Janine! Think I may have listened to one before! His voice sounds relaxing anyways :)

08 Jun 2018

Ivanova, I am glad it sounds like the worst has passed. That sounds horrible! xx

08 Jun 2018

He does have a relaxing voice. 😄 I think he does different types of relaxing music too.

08 Jun 2018
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I've been feeling like hell lately due to these awful side effects of moxifloxacine (maybe I misspell it). I've been feeling intense anxiety (way worse than I used to), it felt like a constant panic

attack. My body was shaking all over, I couldn't sleep, my hand skin lost sensitivity, and my heart was nearly jumping out of my chest. Aftr two days of this hell I got the doctors to change my antibiotic, but now I'm curious whether these side

06 Jun 2018

effects could have something to do with BPD (probably I have a highly excitable central nervous system). So, I have a question for those of you who have BPD: have you ever dealt with side effects like these when taking antibiotics?

06 Jun 2018

Sorry, I can't help you because I don't have BPD. Last time I took anitibiotics, I felt exhausted, though, like I was carrying around a huge boulder. I'm Bipolar. What I mean to say is anitbiotics can have some weird side effects.

07 Jun 2018

Thank you, Alicia! You've made me feel like I'm not the only one reacting unusually and I'm not just making this up

08 Jun 2018
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My kidney infection isn't getting better. I hope the bacteria isn't resistant to the antibiotic I'm taking now, because it is resistant to some other atibiotics... and I have drug allergy to some(
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and again I'm sick... this chronic kidney infection I have is so annoying I'm about to sell both kidneys xD just so I could get rid of the problem! I can't even catch a cold or go swimming, I get sick

R u taking anything to help? Sending big hugs 🤗

02 Jun 2018

Ade W, yeah, I'm taking antibiotics, this should help

03 Jun 2018
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today I'm in love, let's see what tomorrow will bring
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The doctors told me my latest anxiety issues were due to magnesium deficiency in my body. Now I've been prescribed pills that seem to really be helping. I feel so relieved! Hope this helps

Wow! That's great! I don't think any of my doctors ever tested for that even though I had heard of that! That's great they are looking into different avenues and tablets seem to be working :D

31 May 2018
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I feel really good today, probably because I took a day off due to being sick and now I can relax at home

Enjoy your day! So happy you feel good today!

30 May 2018

That's good! Glad you had the day off to recover!

30 May 2018
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I'm sick and it seems like I have some sort of a weird virus... Let's hope it's not Ebola xD Anyway, I went to the doctor on Sunday and she said that was just a cold, but then it got worse

Hope you feel better soon!

30 May 2018

Thanks!

30 May 2018
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nothing much to say... I've slept for 5 hours today and I feel too sleepy... also trying to fix my laptop

hope you get your laptop fixed?

28 May 2018

Keeping Track A, yeah, I managed to make it work

29 May 2018

that's great! How is your sister? x

29 May 2018

I haven't called my family in a few days, but her profile page looks pretty depressive. Now she reposted a picture of a guy saying he wants to die but people don't let him do it

30 May 2018

oh that's tough. I hope she improves xx

30 May 2018

thank you!

01 Jun 2018
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