It hurts like hell. I'd thought this feeling was gone but it came back. Stronger. Overwhelming. Real.

Sitting here with you. In the same boat, you're not alone xx

23 Aug 2018
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I hate every single piece of me. I feel trapped in my awful body and horrible mind. I can't bring love or help. I always have to screw something up. I've had enough. I've made my decision. It's over.

I know it is probably wrong, but what happened, buddy?

24 Jun 2018

You're better than you think 🤗

24 Jun 2018

Hold on

24 Jun 2018

Sometimes you can't bring love or help, but you need to receive it. And that is ok! What would all the people do who are able to give love and help without people like you? Now it is your turn to take, in a while, you can give again!

24 Jun 2018
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I got new hairstyle. It felt like cutting off bad memories. Feeling better now.
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I seriously think of leaving this all. Disappearing. Floating. Drowning. Dying.
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Why I always have to bring destruction everywhere I go? I'm a failure that can't take care of anything. I don't want to be myself anymore. I don't wanna have to feel anymore. I don't want to be here.

You're not alone in these feelings. I feel like this a lot. I don't really have a fix other than just try to get to the next day, and hope that something positive, no matter how small, will come your way.

16 Jun 2018
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My heart is broken into millions of pieces and I don't know what to do. It hurts as hell. I knew it would end like this. It always has to end like this.
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What if he will hurt me? I don't wan to be broken once again. I'm afraid he will just play a little and then leave me all alone in the dark. Shall I stay in this situation or run away? Lost and scared

Trust the gut, and not the heart. That's my experience anyway

05 Jun 2018
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Peaceful now. New people are great. Feeling more calm. Hoping I will get through this.
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Tired, stressed and anxious. About to meet new people. Feeling confused and lost. Scared. I need some help.
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I did it. I said it. I can't believe it. I feel like I'm drunk. I felt like I was watching it all from the distance. Like I wasn't a part of it. I'm scared that I lied to him. I don't know if I did.
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Why would he do that? He said this very big words and made me confused and lost and anxious. I don't think I can handle it. I don't think I'm ready. Wha if I never will be?
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Please somebody help me. Everything has ***ed up. I feel so helpless. I want it to end. I want everything to end.

It's good that you want someone to help you. Reach out to a friend or family member. It's ok to ask for help! Or call a professional / help line. People are there...don't deal with these super low points in life all alone!

30 May 2018
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It's back. Overwhelming and devastating feeling of loneliness. Why is it so hard for me to just talk to others? I built the huge wall between me and the world and I complain I can't see through.

I know that feeling and frustration well. ::(

30 May 2018
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3 hours of sleep. Haven't finished my work yet. Tired but peaceful.
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I don't understand my feelings. I've got so much work to do, so little time and I still feel great. It's so unusual. No anxiety, no fear. Just peace. Love this state. Wondering how long it will last.

Lucky you 😁😁😁

28 May 2018

Enjoy it!! You deserve to feel this good!

28 May 2018
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I haven't felt so good in a long time. Wonderful day. The sound of their voice. The sight of their eyes. The smell of their skin. These things made me so incredibly happy. It's definitely euphoria.
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It's getting better. More peaceful. Still a bit impatient and anxious. Waiting for tomorrow.
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Insecure. Anxious. Worried. Lost. Waiting for better days. Waiting for this beautiful human that makes my heart melt. Hope to see them soon.
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Such a lovely day. I'm proud of myself. I did such a great job. I got through all of this madness.
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