Fine and exciteddd. I am ready to work hard and achieveeee. Itl be am amazing 3 years experience than last time. Thank God :)
I don't think i will let any of my friends know. Only my family know and maybe like 3 friends. I don't mind telling people but id rather just have the experience and really work hard on it. Obvs at some point people might know and the people in that
All i pray is that my mental health doesn't fluctuate. Im not scared because ive been beating and winning it since 2008 but i just dont want to get mentally ill again. Like its actually time for it to end cause its terrible. Either way i will be
Supported alot if it was to but i just pray i don't have to deal with it for another year. I have so much i want to accomplish and i don't want to trapped and frozen till i get better. Im just glad i am good now :)
Thank you Anna
Nothing can stop me from achieving all the things i have set my heart on. :)
Great mindset to have, it's something I am hoping to achieve too
Thank you and don't worry you will get there its a hard journey sometimes :)
Might need to upgrade my camera at some point but i think its actually good as it is. Maybe some lights and flash incase im in a dull lighting environment.
So i don't need to explain myself to people that want to put thoughts and words into me. I know myself and thats all that matters. Its still affecting me a bit because it was bitter what was said to me. And pointless but honestly this was needed.
Its another fuel for me to push myself to work even harder to keep winning in my life. Keep fighting the mental health to finally defeat it for good. Keep reaching goals and succeeding and not caring about past associates and past hurt and pain. :)
And left it as that. Chapter closed.
God knows my heart and who i am. I know myself so i won't allow those words affect me because i know who i am. Im dealing with it better now.
Rude to me but the words hit a nerve. I think the person was just insecure and i understand. It didn't change my good views on this person. It didnt affect me as it would have if i wasn't in a good place within. But after the chat my body responded
With tears and now in my head i keep thinking about it. Im seeing my self as a bad person. I did nothing wrong i just came to support .
Im in bed crying and trying to control my mind and i think i need to be by myself for a few weeks.
Im hoping it doesn't trigger depression back. I've only jist recently come out of it for this year and this year took the longest (9months) to recover
I can only blame myself for putting myself in a situation that was only innocent to me to be taken in a different perspective and now im here in some pain
Lesson learnt. Really think things through and understand who makes sense for me to go out of my way to support.
This will not trigger me but i do need time alone to heal
More aware, stand my ground and not let anyone take advanatge of me. A couple things cross my mind but one thing is not wanting to make a situatuon awkward by telling a friend off. But i shouldn't care cause its wrong to me and i feel rubbish after.
So yeah self discipline is a goal i have for myself. Thats with all areas of my life, with people, with controlling my mind, with being organised etc.
Atleast i tried to go back to church after its been ages. Im not interested anymore.