I will be celebrating a year in november by God's grace and many more years free
Well-done, Daisy! This is fantastic!!! 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Tried to kiss me after i said don't try any of that. I told him off but i feel rude to not reply to simple messages like ' hope you have a good day, stay blessed etc' i had to ignore his messages because he makes my spirit feel low.
I was contemplating on blocking him but i thought its best not to its not that bad. So i didnt block him. But based on my depression history when im very low i believe im a bad person its pattern that o experience. I keep thinking and saying im bad
And that i deserve to have depression etc but obvs im not bad and i don't deserve depression and no one does. From me not simply replying to this guy it triggers those thoughts again. Im fighting myself to not reply because im not trying to be rude.
But im left with thoughts that i would have when I'm in the depressive states. Its not that bad because its just weaker than it usually would be. So the thoughts arent bad. Im in a good place
But now i saw his whatsapp picture was gone so i assumed he blocked me for not replying. And his status is also gone too. He has no reason to block me as he is the one that disrespected me by touching me and all of that. But for some reason im now
Feeling just a tiny bit low as though i am a bad person. Its so dumb to even feel that and i dont fully understand how it triggers those thoughts
He disturbs my spirits and im doing so well depression free for the longest period of time. So why should i entertain/ reply to someone that makes my spirit low
Im surely not bad for that. I already spoke to him about his behaviour and he apologised but from how he has been. He drains my energy and hes someone my friend introduced me to and he assumed all of us hanging out was a date when it defo wasnt.
He came across as desperate to be in a relationship. And i was very confused by his actions. Anyways his aura is very off. He makes me angry and i don't like feeling angry towards anyone. Makes me uncomfortable and low. So i really had to ignore him
Even though me ignoring people isn't in my character. I just don't get why i feel bad because he blocked me. Not bothered about being blocked as i know its not me but something about it triggers my mental state to feel a bit low and believe i am bad.
I feel a lot better typing it out. Its not even something that should affect my mental state. *sigh*
As you go through life you'll find that you can ignore people, ditch them or even be downright rude to them and it doesn't make you a bad person. You can't love everyone and everyone won't love you, sometimes you just have to put your own needs first
I've ignored many people through life and tbh if they don't like it then it's their problem. Your life shouldn't revolve around pleasing everybody else. It's for you to enjoy and fill with people you really love. Wishing you the best x
Thank you so much, i agree with that. I need to stop thinking about others all the time and put my self first :)
It's really good to hear that it didn't hurt you, ur doing great
Thank you, i appreciate this :)
Its not great news but half of it is cool but the other half is painful to imagine what she has had to deal with for years and it affects me finding it out. It affected me years ago but i dealt with it but now having it confirmed is a whole new pain.
I just have to be strong for her because she has been strong all her life. I wish i knew it all completely before so i could have been there but i wasn't mentally ok for years so i couldn't do much. I just hope she is ok
I know it hurts her but she is dealing with it so well so i am proud and i love her even more for knowing her strength. I found it kind of weird i have no problem at all but it was a bit weird with a few things that was said.
I pray that no one ever makes her feel like that ever again even though you can't control how humans behave but she deserves the world, everything and happiness and i'll just keep praying for that for continous great health, love, to reach her goals
And to have pure happiness and whatever else she desires.
Everything is alright though i shouldn't feel sad but i can't help it. It wasn't nice to hear or to see her cry and to know she's grown up with so much to deal with. I just know that everything will be great and it has been so far despite the pain x
Sounds like your going to stronger now
In that place luckily my friend spoke on the phone to me. I felt alot of anxiety because of a situation thats important to me but its not something thats a big deal
My family helped me decide to take time and really plan for it. So that it doesn't trigger my depression or give me stress. I finally saw that its the best plan but i started obssessing the next day that maybe i should just do it because i believed i
Could get through it even though itll be stress. But now im sure its the best decision so that way my health is put first.
Make sure i take care of myself and i changed my mind. I would be ptobably walking there right now but i am in bed resting. And my head feels less tight so i can go to my other work later today and feel well for the rest of the week too
Fine and exciteddd. I am ready to work hard and achieveeee. Itl be am amazing 3 years experience than last time. Thank God :)
I don't think i will let any of my friends know. Only my family know and maybe like 3 friends. I don't mind telling people but id rather just have the experience and really work hard on it. Obvs at some point people might know and the people in that
All i pray is that my mental health doesn't fluctuate. Im not scared because ive been beating and winning it since 2008 but i just dont want to get mentally ill again. Like its actually time for it to end cause its terrible. Either way i will be
Supported alot if it was to but i just pray i don't have to deal with it for another year. I have so much i want to accomplish and i don't want to trapped and frozen till i get better. Im just glad i am good now :)
Thank you Anna