From these feelings that i haven't fully developed yet and just enjoy being in a stable and free head space. I don't want to be thinking about a guy. I have better things to priortise. I can already see how much energy and time ive wasted for 2 days
Having someone on my mind and im also almost healed from the heart break from my ex which is amazing so i'd rather be fulled healed from that first before anything. :)
It was a good day today. Still need to structure my day better but its all good.
And everything is just falling into place. So again i am sooo glad i didnt allow my the madness in my head to alike me to take my life. The hope that was deeply instilled in me never gave up.
Its so good to not be scared to be outside or to be around people. Its so good to have a clearer headspace again.
This was so nice to read! Glad things are getting better. Keep going! X
Thank youu Tayla xox
Well done - great to see your hard work pay off! x
Thank you Albertine xox
caused you pain. But it took me by suprise the random encounter so i was a bit shakey. However i was really good. It was good vibes and i felt happy to see this person. I mean i always do but it was more peaceful for me. I can say with my chest now
That i have definitely grown from the painful experience and it was for a reason. I feel more free from it. I really wish this person the best and i feel it more from an almost healed place that it coming from a painful place within.
The bond and vibe can never be broken but i feel more free from it.
I am enough and i know my worth. 🙏🏾
Like a mixture of anxiety and stomach upset. But i didnt feel anxious on the train but i defo felt the feeling in my chest. It went away when i got to work. After work my evening went well. I felt really good and my mind was stable. It was refreshing
To feel like myself
Very grateful 😭😇🙏🏾
I hardly ate today though timings got a bit delayed so didn't eat as much. I can imagine how much greater i would have felt if i ate enough
I really need to sort my sleep pattern :s i've been saying this for ages 😅 . I'll start from tomorrow to work on it. Then next month i'll start waking up around 5 or 6 am. I need to utilise every hour that i have in the day. I'm feeling ready again
To do things. Still taking my time with things but wow i am proud of myself for not giving up when my mental health was at its worst that i couldn't carry on. I am very grateful. I still get bad days i am not even fully healed yet but its a process
people i bumped into today that i have nothing against but the vibes have had me thinking of things that i really shouldn't care/worry about because everything really will be fine with myself.
I am learning so much more about myself and what things bother me. I have noticed the pattern of thoughts i have. I always believe that i am a bad person when i am really not but i blame myself for many things and even things that are my fault but
are not big deals i still really start thinking i am a bad person. Its crazy that when i think that i really see myself like that and i get deeper into depression and i start thinking i deserve bad things and even depression.
When im in a better state things become clear and those thoughts fade away and i realise im not what i've been thinking. I have learnt that i care way too much about things and people that i feel things really deep. The littlest things can affect me
if i am not careful with my perspective on things. I think its formed from negative situations from the past that has built the false ideas in my head and has put me in fragile states where i can't seem to always handle the littlest things.
So yeah, i shall work on this and then work on other things that i am yet to discover.
Its expensive but it will be worth it. Its really been the year of investments from the work ive put in on my mental health and other things.
I emailed the right people so i feel that i am on the right track.
That everything will be great and i have nothing to worry about. Completed a few tasks today. Really need to sort out my sleep schedule asap.
Once i can resolve it i will be able to achieve more things that i have found hard to. I won't have to avoid things anymore, things will just be amazing. It will defo have a positive impact on my mental health.
needed to escape
I actually don't know what to do anymore, i don't want to learn how to cope or carry on coping. These mental problems need to just go away forever. I've really had enough.
I've actually progressed recently even though im not at the best of places its better than before. I don't want to give up 🙏🏾
And you shouldn't, progress is positive x
You've made progress and that is great. You should be proud of yourself. Keep going xx
Thank you guys :) i won't i will keep going 🙏🏾
Thoughts started to get better towards the evening. I've always found going for walks and talking to myself very useful. That helped today on my way home.
That's great, Daisy!!
Thanks K T :)
You're welcome, Daisy! 👍🏾
had sui thoughts in 2 months now just the odd random thought so its nothing worrying. Good improvement. I do feel low right now though but everything will be alright. My mind will one day be balanced.🙏🏾
energy for anymore of this. Im glad i am giving myself what i can handle. I can probably handle more but i need enough rest in between things.
Don't handle more things, its fantastic that you feel better but only take on what you feel comfortable with. Well done!
Thank you Kimberley. Yeah i feel drained now so i defo need to recharge myself.
More things and its all heavy.
It is my time of month so it makes sense why ive been feeling off recently so maybe i can just blame my mood on that and look forward to feeling at ease in a couple days 🙏🏾
because i need to be able to eat properly. I don't want to be out feeling even worse.