Back from Croatia. Was the best holiday I have ever had. Been off my meds for a week as well and honestly feel so free.
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Well...I made a big decision...I quit my job on Friday to try and get myself back to good mental health and am currently abroad in Croatia. Escaped everything and it feels great.

Congratulations! Hard decision, but sounds like you made the right choice!

16 Jul 2018
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Argument the other day, silent treatment from parents for days, they didn't make me breakfasts or dinner, and this morning my mum hid my meds and left the house before I woke up. Wtaf
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Mum doesn't care about my emotions. Job has clearly got me low but will never have the courage to leave. Scared myself coz i zoned out with a knife. Doctor tomorrow but what's the point, I'm dead...

Just hang in there. Things will get better 🤗

02 Jul 2018
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Okay it's been a few days. Birthday yesterday went really well. First time properly clubbing too and it was good. Doctors appointment tomorrow tho. Still completely lost with job situation. Arghhhhhh.
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I feel like I can be fully honest here without judgement...I woke up this morning to someone I know making suicide threats and saying how they 'love bleeding' and it's been that way for days now...

I have BPD and if you didn't know it makes thoughts like that quite hard to shift, plus makes me feel more vulnerable than the next person...I have been unable to control my negative emotions at work and feel I'm gonna lose my job soon...

27 Jun 2018

If that happens and these thoughts don't go I don't wanna know what I will do to myself. I can't find any therapy and not on medication for it, and it's 6 days til I have a hospital appointment regarding my ADHD. What do I do...?

27 Jun 2018

Wow, this has to be really tough right now. My thoughts are to find someone to talk to. Your condition makes you more empathetic to your friends, which is not really healthy for your own state of mind. Call a help line or something...

27 Jun 2018

...perhaps? They may be able to help you compartmentalize your friends' issues. And help you cope until you get to your appt. Also, if you need to talk to your boss or human resources about how your job may be affected, do that!...

27 Jun 2018

...If they know that you're trying and just going through a hard time, they may be able to cut you some slack right now. I hope you get through this difficult time!

27 Jun 2018

I don't think they will cut me slack, I'm the only designer so I can't slow down or have an 'easy day' so to speak. Plus my bosses wife is a bully and always puts me down, which makes me feel so depressed at work and doesn't help my mental health...

27 Jun 2018

I know I can't keep this up in this environment anymore because this job has caused so much stress and affected my mental health to the worst it's ever been and don't actually rely on money for a car or bills, just would hate to let my family down...

27 Jun 2018

Keep in mind that they might have no choice but to cut you slack. That's why talking to HR might be a good option. Sometimes there are leave options too... just a suggestion. You can also look for something new perhaps!

27 Jun 2018

I have started setting up something myself, as everything I do at work I can do at home, (I work as a designer for a small printing company). But since I came back from my lunch break after having a bit of an episode with the bosses wife earlier...

27 Jun 2018

...she has been nothing but nice when I came back, asking how my lunch was and what I did, and when I did the work she said 'that's perfectly done, thank you' and more 'thank yous'. She NEVER shows respect or tells me when I've done right

27 Jun 2018

My head is honestly so confused, it's like everything I think one minute is changed the next, this is too confusing. And how do you talk to human resources??

27 Jun 2018

In the US anyway, ask your boss how to get in touch with HR. They have laws to protect your privacy and make sure you are treated properly. Glad you're getting some respect, though! That's always nice!

27 Jun 2018
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So, something the other day that happened which was innocent turned into an overreaction leading to losing multiple friends all through misunderstanding. And so the spiral of BPD rejection continues.
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Last day of the week, no work to do (again) and office alone. Did somebody say procrastination?
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At work on my own for the first hour with not a lot to do so boooooored

Perhaps there are some tasks you could get ahead on?

21 Jun 2018

All the forms have been attended to, most of them is a case of waiting for an email response, so dunno what to tackle atm

21 Jun 2018
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Today is dragging so much, just wanna go homeeeeeeee
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Not even been here for two hours and already want to go home
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Day off work to sort out my passport yesterday, still generally in a decent mood and there is not much in the way of work to do today but I'm tired from yesterday, hopefully this doesn't hinder me
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Haven't switched off once today and just had a customer come in and I managed to socialise with a smile for once! Honestly this high right now feels great
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Normally at this time on a work day I feel demotivated and down, but for once I'm gonna go back into work and do as much as I can as I have never felt so upbeat about life 😊
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After the roughest months of my life so far, things are finally looking up for me and my mood has never been so consistently high. So many people have helped me and I can't thank them enough. <3

Good to hear!

18 Jun 2018

Glad to hear it! Keep an eye on your high moods as carefully as you would low mood, high moods can be just as bad for some people. That said, keep going!

18 Jun 2018

Thank you so much, so good to see that I have additional support on top of the friends that have helped me too :)

18 Jun 2018
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Certain my bosses wife is a straight up bully. When the boss is in the office we have random conversations which boosts the mood, with her it's dead silence and only talks to me when I make a mistake.

All she does is make sly comments and when I just tried having a conversation with her she just straight up blanked me! What do I even do when I'm at a job where the work I like doing but the environment completely demotivates me?

15 Jun 2018

I can relate but unfortunately have no answers :/

15 Jun 2018
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Bored at work, have work to do but too focused on going out in the nice weather and pursuing a hobby tonight. In a good mood but hopefully no more arguments happen today.
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Somehow got into a small argument with my boss within the first 15 minutes, always seem to start because of a misunderstanding. This job makes me feel so down, but it's a career I've always wanted...

Meant to be a '4' for the mood. But honestly this job his affected my mental health so much and I HATE the environment, but what's the alternative, leave and have no income???

15 Jun 2018
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Bit tired, but Friday means last day at work for the week, hopefully it goes quick...
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