it will be worth it! I cried a little when she worked on my elbow which was embarrassing but she was really supportive and reassuring. I've done many sessions with her and the pain wasnt bad but wow this one kicked my butt!
Felt accomplished afterwards for making it through the pain and i Can't wait to get more work done next month!
sometimes a good nights sleep is all we need to correct course. hope the rest helps.
good. Using the positive experiences, we can try to imprint them. OK, body/mind this is what integration feels like. We can keep reinforcing whatever it is that contributes to that.
With the pandemic though im not sure what i'd do. Im just burnt out, understimulated, frustrated. It's making me care less about work expectations.
It's always hard. Sometimes u'll feel like u're a bother to them, but thats isnt tru. Idk if u will belive me (Im just a stranger on the internet), but trust your loveones.
to be around me because I'm freaking useless and moody. I pictured myself being left by my BF and dying alone. That's not the case, but when my mood spirals down all these horrible thoughts hit me and I feel like I can't control them
U are loved because u are u so calm down an show them you got 💯❤️✨
I feel so lost hopeless an alone but I got me an I no I am strong 💯
Hang in there, BB. Bipolar Disorder is a nightmare. I know all those feelings. You are none of them. You are a great person who deserves gentle care. 💞
Thank you so much pandas 💕😭
You are literally so lovely! I've never met you but i feel like i know you! And it makes me happy to see green on your chart when there is some. Hang in there. You're amazing. Never forget that ❤
You guys are amazing 💕 thank you manda, it really helps to know im not the only one! and thank you so much Tayla, that means so much to me!
from me, some relief finally. My chest isn't as tight, my mind is racing less and I'm able to do a bit more problem solving than unusual. I don't feel as much despair and hopelessness the past couple days. It was getting really bad, I felt like I was
spiraling out of control. Dark thoughts were consuming me and it scared me. I really hope i can avoid that rabbit hole in the future and stop hating myself. Working on being kinder to myself, I'm ready for a positive journey to balance myself
and take control
Saying some of those things out loud to friends can be hard, but it can be incredibly helpful. I'm so glad they were supportive!
one. No insurance so I've put off going to docs or dentists. Need to sign up for Medicaid or something. Feeling down on myself. Gonna take a nap but I doubt it will help. Depression is creeping in
going to try and work at being kinder to myself. Going to do my best to not let the world and my own darkness swallow me whole. Going to eat more frequently, need to start exercising, need to make changes for self improvement
I've got lots of positive changes coming my way too! Embrace them!
a jerk in general. Sarcasm, being short with me. I dunno I'm just extra sensitive as well, my mind is trying to go down the rabbit hole and I really don't feel like myself. Thoughts of self harm and s uicidial ideation still cross my mind, but im no
not acting on them
Hang in there, BB. Things'll feel better soon. 💞
Thank you pandas 💙💙
Extremely sad. It started yesterday and its worse today. I feel so disconnected. My mind is foggy. Crying spells. I feel like I'm in a hole that I just don't have the mental strength to pull myself out of. I just want to sleep, I just want to shut
down. I want to crawl under a rock. I'm having so much trouble communicating my feelings verbally and it's scrambling my brain, it's like I don't know how. I can't think straight at all. I'm stuck in a loop of toxic thoughts and behaviors. Emotional
eating, smoking (I'm really trying to cut down though), periodic thoughts of self harm, ***al ideation, hating myself, not feeling good enough, feeling worthless, like a failure, stuck, isolated, incapable, inept. Going to take a depression nap
I can't handle this moment. I'm just so tired, and so very down, defeated.
I know these feelings are so rough to deal with. Remember it's just your brain tricking you. You are none of those things!
Thankfully pandas and thank you so much Manda, it really helps to hear that 💙