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So many things break down and stop working at the house. I got a cold from someone and though I was very careful not to come close. I've been stuck in my life for a long time.
me M
19h · 6+ MONTHS

(Although I'm trying) So..maybe there is a curse on me, or something negative that is broadcast to me from someone else. So how do you remove it? Apart from prayers

me M
18h · 6+ MONTHS

I feel hopeful from time to time. And I love people most of them, I think I'm a nice person. So I don't know why this will happen to me.

Tayla O
17h ·

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Cat F
14h · NEW

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Cat F
14h · NEW

Bad things happen to good people, just remember you are due some goodness back! Hang in there!

me M
8h · 6+ MONTHS

Thank you Tayla O and Cat f, thanks for your support, I appreciate it

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The sms with H does not go well. From a brief correspondence I realized how much he's not serious and was just playing with me and continuing to waste my time in false hope.
Melody L
5d · 6+ MONTHS

At least now you know that next time you dont have to feel bad when you dont respond

Anna D
3d · 1+ YEAR

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me M
19h · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks Melody and Anna

me M
19h · 6+ MONTHS

This is true Melody. but the truth that since he returned to talk I feel the opposite, that I must answer..But he had been quiet since then. So we'll see

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I feel there are things I can't ignore. This invitation is one of them. And that I have to answer. Sometimes a mistake is in the way of overcoming something.
me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

Sometimes you have to step back to look forward.

me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

I know at the moment for sure he's not my one(the pms here also helps me to understand this) but not answering at all feels offensive to me. If he hurt me it's his. I don't want to hurt back. So I'll probably answer it

nixiblu .
6d · HERO

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Anna D
5d · 1+ YEAR

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I move between complete hope and no hope at all.
me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

When I miss him I think of answering the invitation. I'm a bit think he'll block me because I didn't answer it(I blocked him long ago.) But then I read old messages I kept

me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

(the messages when he was bad at me and made me cry) and then I don't miss him anymore and think it's best that he can block and get out of my life. But then I forget the messages again and have to remind myself

me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

to read them again. (For a couple trying to live together it is not advisable to keep such messages from past struggles.But it is the thing that helps me realize that it was neither perfect nor healthy and thus helps me look forward.

me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

Maybe if I didn't read these messages I would try with him. And maybe I could have been good with him. If I didn't repeat things he did and apologize for them.

Jeff M
7d · LEGEND

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me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

But as I read these messages, I realize that the situation is much better now. as it is.

Natasha P
7d · NEW

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Melody L
7d · 6+ MONTHS

I have also stored messages, pictures etc which would remind me why i have to let go. I admire you. You give me hope that it is possible to survive this, even if it takes time.

me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

Thank you Melody Xx, I hope we both survive this

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4 me M
11 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I miss him. He is the only one who understand me.
me M
11 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

My family is far away from understanding me.Every time I think I start to get along, it comes from them. This time from my mom.

me M
11 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I feel like my mom is the reason I'm stuck. Whenever I decide to do something, she criticizes it and tries to show everyone how wrong I am. Instead of encouraging me and telling me she is proud of me. She didn't like H either, so I left him.

me M
11 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

But I know it's not in my favor. Her judgment and advice are not pure motives of love.

Max T
11 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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Penelope P
11 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Alicia B
7d · LEGEND

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Alicia B
7d · LEGEND

Sounds a lot like my mother. It's a tough thing to realise... I guess we have to encourage ourselves.

me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks Alicia, Thank you for understanding

me M
7d · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks for the hugs

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5 me M
11 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I made some phone calls that I needed to make.
Jen B
11 Sep 2019 · HERO

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5 me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
H wrote to me. He invited me to his private event. I didn't answer. But it seems to me that he will be angry with me for not answering and wishing him goodluck.
me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I hope to be strong this time and not let it hurt me in such a way that I will go back. I don't know if I should answer the invitation.

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I feel that if I don't answer the invitation (even a 'no' answer) he will not write to me anymore. And he will not want to talk to me anymore. And I don't know if it's good or bad. And if he won't write anymore.

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

He was good to me during difficult times. He was my best friend So far. He was the person who told me everything would be ok and calmed me down. I always wanted to talk to him. But I also had and still have a fear of him.

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

And I don't feel it right for me to go back. And it feels like I look back and not look forward.

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

But he can calmed down anyone. And he knows how to talk and listen. So I don't know if other people got that kind of treatment just because he had an interest. And not because we had anything special.

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I guess time will tell if he's really a good friend. And if he gives up because of me not answering. Or get upset. So he's not a good friend.

Jeff M
10 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Melody L
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Gabrielle H
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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nixiblu .
10 Sep 2019 · HERO

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5 me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I need to get some phone calls back. And I don't find the strength to do that.
Bipolar Pandy J
10 Sep 2019 ·

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Melody L
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Melody L
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Sending you strength!

nixiblu .
10 Sep 2019 · HERO

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me M
11 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks Melody!

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3 me M
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I have been in full tension since the argument. I know now everything is fine. But that's really not. I am constantly hurt by them, and the problem it affects me. I feel exhausted,
me M
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I feel that whenever I have hope and I am a little happy then they feel it and suddenly find a reason to argue and blame and do everything for bringing me back to my old state. Which is without energy and without joy.

me M
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

After that, they ok. But the energies are gone already. And it takes time to get back to myself and forget about it.

me M
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I need to recharge energy. And I also live in constant fear that H will write or call me. Fear is for both sides. Or he'll tell me he found someone. Or he'll not but he'll not let me heal.

Bipolar Pandy J
09 Sep 2019 ·

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Tayla O
09 Sep 2019 ·

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Ian D
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Jen B
09 Sep 2019 · HERO

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nixiblu .
09 Sep 2019 · HERO

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Alicia B
09 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Sounds like quite a toxic environment. I've been on those for the most of my life, I'm in one right now. It's horrible and no-one should be forced to live this way.

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks all,I feel like the argument is behind us and I try to focus on the positive. They also helped me in difficult times and I don't forget it to them. Maybe I don't feel deserving. That parents should help the child

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Dear Alicia, It took me a long time to reach a healthy relationship with my dad. I used to see it all negative. When I realized where he was coming from. And how difficult his childhood was I could

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

forgive him. Because despite all this, he was a good father who gives and cares. And I'm sure it's different experience for you. But we deserve better. And I try to get it through self-education and through approach to people I can learn from who

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

are all I lacked .. open and loving smiles.

me M
10 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I'm also really sorry that you've been there too, big hugs

Alicia B
10 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

Thank you, me

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4 me M
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
Less sleep. Pms on the way. Reminds myself to focus on the positive. And in my goals.
Jimbob W
09 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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nixiblu .
09 Sep 2019 · HERO

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tEnT S
09 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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Ian D
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Melody L
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Alicia B
09 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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3 me M
08 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
No Reason Given
me M
08 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I have to remind myself to focus on myself. Despite the interruptions

me M
08 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

And believe in myself.

Ian D
08 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Anna D
08 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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Jen B
09 Sep 2019 · HERO

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Melody L
09 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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4 me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I have just washed my face twice. Because I applied the ointment I once applied. And it was forbidden to go out in the sun. And I was burned out of the sun because of it.But how funny. I haven't been
me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

in the sun since I stopped using the ointment. So I thought if there was no sun then it could be used. So I applied.Then I remembered that in the early days it made me redden in the face. Then I thought I couldn't go out until it passed. So I

me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

washed my face and took off all the ointment. Because I am afraid that if I start with it again then suddenly there will be sun and again I will burn from the sun.

me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Maybe I just applied it once a week

Jen B
06 Sep 2019 · HERO

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07 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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2 me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I guess it's 'good' for me that he writes to me. It gives me some confidence that if I don't find someone then he'll wait there. It's not good for me. And there are no guarantees in life. I need to
me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

get stronger. It's good for me that he's releasing. And not obsessed.

me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

The fact that he keeps writing to me maybe stop me from trying to know others. And there's always the fear of him going back to being obsessed.

Tayla O
06 Sep 2019 ·

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Ian D
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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07 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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1 me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
No Reason Given
sonny S
06 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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06 Sep 2019 · NEW

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06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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5 me M
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I think he forgot about me (the last time he wrote me was six days ago and it was short and I didn't answer) but I remind myself that I actually felt bad with him most of the time.
Metron A
06 Sep 2019 · SUPPORTER

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Melody L
06 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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07 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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5 me M
03 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
I had an argument with my dad. And I started to cry. But what he doesn't know is that I didn't cry because of him. I cried because nothing happening in my life. Everything is stuck. I also cried
me M
03 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

for H,for telling me he loves me and wants to marry me and have children with me but I feel he can disappoint and possibly hurt me. I cried for the fact that even though I had suggestions I only wanted someone who would really love me.

me M
03 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

To give me confidence in him. Be kind to me. To want to make me smile.

me M
03 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

But also because of him, it all started from the argument with him

Jeff M
03 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Penelope P
03 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Melody L
03 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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05 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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05 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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4 me M
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
After a few days I felt good and positive. I feel really bad. And I remember all the negative thoughts. That I'm not progressing in my project and that I'm alone.
me M
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Someone else got a marriage proposal. Someone else got married. And someone else is pregnant. And with me is nothing. And nothing

me M
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

And I could already be married to H and two kids but that didn't feel right to me. And I also have suggestions from guys and nobody feels right to me.

Ian D
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Melody L
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Melody L
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I'm proud of you that you are not settling just because of the fear of being alone like so many people. I've seen people who have the marriage and kids...but are still not happy.

Anna D
02 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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nixiblu .
02 Sep 2019 · HERO

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03 Sep 2019 · NEW

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me M
03 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks Melody

me M
03 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks all

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5 me M
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
Feeling bad because of yesterday's call. I am so confident in myself and my decision.But feel that I was not assertive enough to convey it directly. And maybe I left the other side in doubt
me M
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I know that sometimes I left H with doubt but that's because I had doubts about him. When in this case I had no doubt.

me M
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Now I miss H :/, but I'm not allowed to talk to him, I'm need to get over him

Gabrielle H
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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tEnT S
02 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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02 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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02 Sep 2019 · HERO

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4 me M
01 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
The neighbor called and told me if I wanted to meet. So I told him 'no'. I only see him as a friend and that's it. So he tried to convince me. But you know how much I want someone.
me M
01 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

But if it doesn't feel right to me, it doesn't feel right to me.

me M
01 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I'm glad I've been true to myself lately. Although I don't see any results yet.

me M
01 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Maybe I could be more assertive and tell him I'm not interested and not continue the conversation and explain to him why I don't know like I did. But I'm really glad I refused and stood up

me M
01 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

He told me, it's just one date, why not, maybe you'll suddenly look at him different. well no. I won't do anything that doesn't feel right to me just because it's just an hour to go back.

Penelope P
01 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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me M
02 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Thanks P

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02 Sep 2019 · HERO

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5 me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS
H didn't write to me today as always, but would be fine. I have projects. I have a neighbor who told me yesterday that he has feelings for me🤔, but this is an opportunity to let go.
me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

And anyway, in two weeks The Pms will come. I'll be glad I didn't answer and didn't write. So just wait two weeks and breathe.

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

It probably means he has someone. And when he has a connection he is loyal. So he won't write if that's the case. On the one hand it sucks on the other hand is the proof that it was a false with me.

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I don't want to stay stuck anymore. But it sucks right now. just two more weeks to hold on

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

It's just who he is. Gives me false hopes that he won't give up and fight fo me and that he really sorry. Then let me down. And as soon as I think it's over and ready to let go, he makes contact again. And it just shows what kind of man he is.

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

That he can give me false hopes waste my time. And as soon as someone finds out he goes on with his life.

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

If you decide not to give up don't give up. And if you can find someone else within a week, you just wasted my time.

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I deserve better

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I just hope that I stay strong to keep myself from writing to him about everything I think about.

me M
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

If he hadn't been writing to me all this time (even though I didn't answer) then I would have gotten over it long ago. So he had to think about it before he wrote, That he would eventually give up

Jen B
30 Aug 2019 · HERO

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Melody L
30 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Nice to hear about that neighbour :D

nixiblu .
31 Aug 2019 · HERO

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me M
31 Aug 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

Thank you all. I guss that's nice:). This neighbor gave me so much wisdom for so many things in my life without him knowing. He's a good friend. (And I think it should stay that way.)

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