Yesterday they put cleaning supplies at the house. And now I can't breathe. I can't deal with it that even in my house I have no control
I can't see people disregard at things that hurt me
Aww darling I understand. It all starts with you, show that same love and compassion towards yourself, you do deserve that. As time passes and as you heal, building yourself up, you will find someone who you can trust and who will trust you too <3
I feel like he's hunting me and right now I think it's not important where he is, I want to let go
I feel better. I feel like I don't care anymore.
I have to strive for better and if something does not bring good results then it is not better even if it calms me down
But I hope he doesn't make a mistake. I think this is the day of the month and wait and it will pass. And everything that goes through me. And all together.
That sounds blissful
I guess so nixiblu, If you like summer, and you have winter :)
And because I have no money and no work. And the little money I have left, has to go towards monthly expenses. (Including a country that takes money from people who don't work). The only person I would like to talk to now is H
Thanks Melody xx
They showed me their real them. They blame me. They remind me that I refused to work in school instead of encouraging me to go my own way. Instead of being there for me in bad days. I was ready to give them everything.my life.
At least I now realize they aren't really there for me. And I discovered their real face. My dad was the only one. But they are interfering with us.
I guess being at my mum for a few days didn't make me feel better
They don't believe me I have pains ,I mean it's really ridiculous
They are not the people I want to take an example from, so it's okay
She only sees a negative bad future for me. If I have to live with her,
I hope not
But everything happens for the better. Because I live in a summer place most of the year , even in winter, people don't put heating in public places, which is difficult too
I have rain and +5 C here :D
It sounds too cold :D
and not be in an apartment that I didn't control, then maybe I would like them more
I also feel more uncomfortable when it's weekend or vacation..then i have to deal more with my thoughts and feelings, can't shovel it under work etc.
connected all day, like last time there was a similar situation. I just want my life. And nothing happens in my life right now. And it hurts me the most.
I prefer to work from home. And even though things were difficult, I refused to work in a school. But the old job is better at the moment. And it's only for a month and a half. Apparently I have no choice.
I cried a lot in the last few days so try not to cry, It doesn't help me, it just depresses me more. And it's not healthy either.
I took a break from my studies. They don't lead me anywhere. Until I see results in life, I won't waste my time.
I guess when you have someone so good in your life you just know it.
Worries about the future
I also drank water. I took my vitamins. Really I'm trying.
I did what I needed. I haven't contacted him since. But I really can't alone. I want to move to a new apartment. I want to learn and study.I want to do a lot of things. And I have nothing to start with. And it all pulls me back.
I need someone to tell me that everything will be fine. Someone to lean on during difficult times. Someone I know as long as he is in my life I don't have to worry about anything.
Me...i accidentally posted a smile which I was meaning to post to my name. I am sorry my friend. I hope you are doing better. Xxx
Thanks Shelley! I actually liked your smile:)
I hope you feel better now...
Thanks Anna! I'm better than 1:) I hope you all well Xx