I know that the information I received about H has affected me. But I'm learning to be strong. And trying to bring the balance back and focus on me again.
Hang on! Good luck!!
When everyone around me move forward with what is and is not afraid and in the end divorces even twice. I'm afraid to move forward. even once.
I can try to move forward with someone I know who doesn't cause me any pain. But I'm afraid it'll only make me miss H more. I don't know how to get out of this circle.
And all because every time I ever got out of it, he got in touch. And I don't know if he's still there. I'm not saying he was the best. But at least I had some attraction and communication with him. That it's things I don't have with others.
I feel he has ruined my life. With all his promises. I know I managed to get out in the past. But I can less believe that I will know someone else the way I once believed. Because everyone I know has nothing to
talk about. I'm not trying either. I'd rather refuse. Then I'm left alone. Even though there are suggestions. These suggestions that I have no open communication with and no attraction make me feel more alone.
Don't worry, you'll find someone kind and polite!
Thanks Anna!! 🙏 XX
Thanks for the hugs guys
He's really nice. And if I was attracted to it it would have been excellent. But I didn't feel attracted.I don't remember exactly how long ago it was
On the one hand, I already want to have someone so I don't have to deal with people I'm not sure about.
But on the other hand it's nice too. It helps me to understand that H is not the only one in the world.
But I feel pressure that he's back in touch right now. This guy. Because I didn't see it progressing.Although it's nice. He travels a lot to Europe and suggested I come with him. And I know he's a good person. but I don't know.
Some people call me. And offer to meet me. I just don't feel that's right with them. But it's nice to be distracted sometimes. This usually stresses me out and makes me end the relationship with them.
There is no point in being in contact with someone I don't see making progress with. Even if it's nice. I will also have to end the connection with him again, apparently.
Maybe I shouldn't have answered him in the first place. But I want to be more friendly to people and less closed
There's something new about H, I discovered new information. And I'm proud of myself for the strengths I show. Even if I fall tomorrow, I know I have been strong in recent days
I need to get to where I see people who are interested in me as a compliment. Instead of seeing them as an obstacle to meeting my guy. Because that's how I feel every time someone tries to talk to me. obstacle
Yesterday they put cleaning supplies at the house. And now I can't breathe. I can't deal with it that even in my house I have no control
I can't see people disregard at things that hurt me
Aww darling I understand. It all starts with you, show that same love and compassion towards yourself, you do deserve that. As time passes and as you heal, building yourself up, you will find someone who you can trust and who will trust you too <3
I feel like he's hunting me and right now I think it's not important where he is, I want to let go
I feel better. I feel like I don't care anymore.
I have to strive for better and if something does not bring good results then it is not better even if it calms me down
But I hope he doesn't make a mistake. I think this is the day of the month and wait and it will pass. And everything that goes through me. And all together.
That sounds blissful
I guess so nixiblu, If you like summer, and you have winter :)
And because I have no money and no work. And the little money I have left, has to go towards monthly expenses. (Including a country that takes money from people who don't work). The only person I would like to talk to now is H
Thanks Melody xx
They showed me their real them. They blame me. They remind me that I refused to work in school instead of encouraging me to go my own way. Instead of being there for me in bad days. I was ready to give them everything.my life.
At least I now realize they aren't really there for me. And I discovered their real face. My dad was the only one. But they are interfering with us.
I guess being at my mum for a few days didn't make me feel better
They don't believe me I have pains ,I mean it's really ridiculous
They are not the people I want to take an example from, so it's okay
She only sees a negative bad future for me. If I have to live with her,
I hope not
But everything happens for the better. Because I live in a summer place most of the year , even in winter, people don't put heating in public places, which is difficult too
I have rain and +5 C here :D
It sounds too cold :D
and not be in an apartment that I didn't control, then maybe I would like them more
I also feel more uncomfortable when it's weekend or vacation..then i have to deal more with my thoughts and feelings, can't shovel it under work etc.
connected all day, like last time there was a similar situation. I just want my life. And nothing happens in my life right now. And it hurts me the most.
I prefer to work from home. And even though things were difficult, I refused to work in a school. But the old job is better at the moment. And it's only for a month and a half. Apparently I have no choice.