Bad sleep, felt like no sleep at all even tho I went to bed early. Woke up fine but leaving the house felt anxious. On the bus home
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Mood swings, not feeling myself but doing ok. Still off work
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In bed most of the day. Got groceries hard to focus. Msged ppl and felt shaky. Cleaned the house. Low appetite and bed late. Off work still

Slight headache

31 Jul 2019
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Feeling anxiety most of day, short of breath and cant concentrate and make decisions. Hard time driving. Called bf was avoiding call afraid she would judge but she gave support.
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Head hurts, depressed and worried waking up.
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Swam and watched a movie. Worked on mood workbooks. Bit anxious tonight, maybe wanted to go home and sleep but stayed to watch movie instead. Ignored friends call. Last night cried and talked with fam
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Brain hurt a little this morn, played guitar and felt better. Made an action plan and taking first steps
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Feeling jealous that other ppl are happy, dont want to see friends worried wont feel ok, sometimes feel ignored and not cared about. Headache started last night and brain hurts

Hard to stay present and enjoy moment w friends.

28 Jul 2019
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Off work sick, went home to family. Feeling uncomfortable and insecure of actions thinking I'm upsetting ppl. Weed intensifies it but manageable and provides insight.
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Short of breath, heart racing, unable to make decisions. Poor performance at work. Very anxious to make call. Anxiety is on and off
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Racing thoughts of I'm not doing ok, no sense of self, low self esteem, thinking of other possible job and what to say, what will I do with my life how will I cope with this illness, head hurts a lil
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Sense of anxiety and insecurity. Rethinking actions as if I should be embarrassed but really no one cares. Dont want to go to work
MCD D
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We all do that. The issue is we care more about our actions than others do in reality. What seems big to us is small to others. If we can learn to realise that something's are not worth worrying about it will help us massively.

23 Jul 2019
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Feeling depressed and irritable, thinking friends dont care about me. I know it's just a thought. Thoughts aren't always true and its okay to have these thoughts
Max W
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You're not the only one that gets such thoughts, and you won't be the last...I've been there myself. There are most certainly many many people in your life that really care about you, so please don't ever think otherwise!

21 Jul 2019
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Ok now headache is gone. Felt shy at work today but went out for lunch with ppl and it was fine and nice to be around others. Trying not to stress over things that aren't in my control like emotions
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Feel really low
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Sometimes I feel bad or ashamed about depression. That ppl view me negatively and I should have to explain my behaviour or who I am. I want to learn that all ppl sometimes think this way and its okay
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A bit tense this morn but not bad. Told my neighbours I needed something, proud I was finally able to do that. Rode bike, sewed and played music. Overcame resistance to sew something I didnt know.

Thoughts of wanting to tell ppl that I'm not okay or that I am like this because of my past... hurts my head

17 Jul 2019
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Back hurts from sitting. Dont know what to do as a career. Overwhelmed by hobbies and not improving skills. Feeling stuck. Thoughts that others are happy and not me. Thought record helped

Low back probs here too.

16 Jul 2019
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Not waking up as tense but it's still there. Bf surprised with lunch it was nice. Started sewing again. Planning to get new shoes and not worry over price
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Speech is slow but pain in head is better. Dont feel anxious or scared as much. Friends asked how I was feeling
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