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somehow I have kinda weird mood swings, feeling great in the morning, feeling bad by night, interesting, maybe I just get tired by night
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I am kinda feeling suicidal I feel very sad
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It's weird, I am.in so much pain and at the same time feeling good. That is just so weird. I feel both happiness and anxiety
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I feel so much pain. I think I feel sorrow and sadness, and a anger towards my therapist. Yeah those are the feelings

I don't think so. It is probably the best thing to do, but I do not have it in me to bring up such conversations. I am too scared he would be angry with me in return

18 Mar 2021
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Finally feeling better after so long in therapy. I have a new challenge for myself, though I am not sure how long my impulsive self is going to keep it up. Starting from today, I am naming my feelings

So, now I feel happiness and I feel relaxed

16 Mar 2021
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I have been reading the books of Marsha Linehan, and I have come to the realization that 'BPD survivor' is no less than 'cancer survivor' or even 'concentration camp survivor'. People forget that.

for me, a bpd survivor is one who survived having borderline personality disorder and, more importantly, its successful treatment, as treating bpd may be extremely painful for an individual

24 Feb 2021

speaking from the experience of someone who has been through therapy (me), the therapy is very painful. I read about it in Linehan's books as well. After being stable for 6 years, I come back to therapy and I break down again, that's the idea

24 Feb 2021

unfortunately. But it is worth it. It really is, so find the courage in yourself and go for it

24 Feb 2021

I guess the therapy in general is painful, like when a therapist notes something you do which you didn't know you did, it might hurt a lot. Or a therapist might deliberately be a bit rough on you to motivate you

27 Feb 2021

The idea of DBT is to teach a borderline personality to better tolerate painful feelings. And to tolerate them better, you have to face them and feel them fully

27 Feb 2021

MadBadSad, sorry for the late response, yeah, but those worst tasks are to tolerate various emotions and to regulate them using dbt skills, it's pretty exhausting

16 Mar 2021

I feel for you so much! Please do not read the DBT work book until you are ready. Instead, just try to practice doing one thing at a time and adding to it a bit of concentration, as if you were living the thing you are doing. That's it, only from

17 Mar 2021

time to time when you feel like it. And do not touch the DBT Workbook, it almost drove me to s***e once before

17 Mar 2021

It is if you can handle it. Maybe you are not ready yet. Anyway, you gotta take it really slow, and maybe just start with mindfully doing one thing at a time (the core dbt skill). Eventually it will get easier for you to confront painful stuff

18 Mar 2021
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Guys, who is here with BPD history (me as well)? Do you believe that BPD can be completely cured? How long have been your stable periods, and how effective was DBT?

It's just that I have been stable for 6 years after 2 years of therapy: a year of CBT and a year of DBT.

22 Feb 2021

But now I feel spiraling down, and had extreme suicidal ideation last week. I went back to therapy and already have to call my therapist to stabilize myself. I feel like my brain is broken... does anyone relate to a story like that?

22 Feb 2021

Hi, Marina, I've only gotten my BPD diagnosis last fall, and due to language barrier I've had very little therapy. I've never been stable yet, and I find your story quite inspiring , actually! If I can have six years of stability! Omg that would be

22 Feb 2021

fantastic. As far as I know it's never completely cured, but I'm sure you can have even longer periods of stability. Keep working, you are doing so well, I am very very impressed by you!

22 Feb 2021

Alicia, thank you so much! It's the dialectical behavioral therapy that helped me so, so maybe you can look for it when you can

22 Feb 2021
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currently happy, but intensely anxious
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too disassociated to function well... my brain feels scattered
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some pain inside my heart, but I am working through it
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Acceptance is the only way out of hell. Never forget that.
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Feeling kinda too good, hope this will not turn into nightly depression
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Having problems at work so not feeling very well at the moment. Looking forward to the end of the workday
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I went to the gym yesterday, worked out a little and feeling so much better today! Also, I found a way to accept some of the things in my life at the moment. I am in pain but healing slowly
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I have become somewhat disassociated, I am constantly feeling some kind of brain fog with difficulty to concentrate
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