Feeling better today knowing I'm not going to be lonely tonight
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Ohhh the low mood, anxiety and paranoia about my boyfriend returns. Why can't I have just 24 hours of an okay time? Feel physically weighed down suddenly and feel sick and scared of rejection again

Stay strong. I know it's hard not to let emotions rule you. Love yourself and everything else will follow ❤️❤️❤️

22 Nov 2018

Thank you - that is kind. I will try to do that. Just having camomile, music and incense sticks to try and calm down.

22 Nov 2018
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Still up and still happy. Lush eve with boyfriend who cooked and we watched awesome shows. Now just coasting on lush feelings. Mustn't forget this can be possible next time I'm down
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Excellent! So happy to hear that. Things always look up eventually. Keep smiling!! :-) have a great day. S

21 Nov 2018

Thanks all :)

21 Nov 2018
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Day off work from anxiety migraine and palpitations. Argument on sat with boyfriend. Told him everything about my abusive exes. Feel like we're closer now. My jealousy is a genuine threat to love tho
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Lower than I remember. Just seen “boyfriend” liking loads of instagram pictures of women in bikinis. Is it just me or is this just out of order? Maybe I'm the one with the problem.
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Energy low. Need to hide. Voice is completely shot. Got to endure a train ride with colleague and can't talk anymore
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Too many nights out. Was too nervous to deliver a good talk. Need a week off. Completely smashed and tired and have to go away again this week. Just need a break from it all.
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Seems like everything fine in person but I rarely get a text in the day from SO anymore. I guess he's busy. He used to text lots more and it really calmed me down
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Oh no... massive mood drop and insecurity about body shape not being as good as his ex wife's. He's coming over in 10 and I feel so low and like I wanna hide my body. I have been cooking for us

Just because she was thin doesn't mean much. Thin people have faults too. Lol

06 Nov 2018
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Saw bestie. She is pregnant and glowing. I want me some of that one day. So good to see her and recentre.
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He was late but so so tired. Just glad he's safe. Works too hard. I remembered a gross part of a dream last night and it's properly made me queasy. Didn't eat properly today. Will tomorrow
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I can't stand not knowing what is happening and being completely ignored
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Worried. He always texts me, every day. Normally comes to see me. Today he hasn't texted at all, and hasn't even replied to my text asking how his day was. I feel immature but I'm worried

He replied but is texting lots less today as well. In fact no text since last night. I am definitely worried. He sounds like everything is fine but this is out of character

02 Nov 2018
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Quite excited for Halloween 🎃 bit of a typical health issue that is annoying but overall glad I have a few days off tomor to chill.
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OH away tonight but then it's Halloween and I have 2 days off 😁 so as long as I don't get too anxious about him being away. Think I'll start a book, game or project
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Dark evening... no reply to text from oh... no dinner...low ok funds... and he's only gonna call in for a second but he's going away tomor night. Meh. Feeling low again.
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Brill wkend and no arguments with SO, anxiety calmed down, ate well, and now in work, feeling pretty good and trying to avoid worrying about him and other women (my main source of fear/anxiety)
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On a trip with my OH and rly happy
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Always happier after cuddles with boyfriend
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