I have friends, ok. But no family, living alone now for eleven years. I mean I crave people so much. It's called being 'emotional sticky' I think? Those are just feelings I suppose because I am aware of that and I'm trying not get on someone's head.
The truth is, only people with similar experience can understood. I stopped trying to explain that to other kind, because it's not making any difference. I'm glad when I meet someone as I am with this conditions but I really like.. everyone ;).
I accepted that long time ago. Also I know that I have still my work with anxiety, which isolates me a little, but not a lot. I'm happy but I'm always 'hungry' for people inside me. Good night :*
Good night my friend XXX
I think I'm emotional and wrong in judgement about that what I wrote. Thanks for the hugs!
Good night Ann
I would be lost if there would be fight. I'm scared but determined to react, also by my choices in life. My training toward it is very slow. The guy was screaming also that he is from a police or smth like that. Worst kind of bully.
Even if that would be personal (maybe the drunk guy made some problems to him) aggression was to high. I used to be in my life in situation when ppl where hurting each other in front of me and I know I don't want being paralyzed but I'm scared.
I work in open place where all different people comes at night so I train being assertive there towards aggressive clients. At work it's easier. I'm scared. I want to be more knowledgable by digging into martial arts, I did security course already.
I work on my stress, but I'm still scared. Ow. The bad things won't stop happening just because I will try beliving they're not there.