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5 Spencer D
05 Jul 2019 ·
Apprehensive about going in to work tonight. My coworker (friend) informed me that our coworker is going to 'be mean' to me tonight, because of Wednesday. All I can think is 'grow up.'
Spencer D
05 Jul 2019 ·

He's older than me and yet is acting like a child. Treated our other coworker poor last night-- because of me?? What is wrong with him? I don't understand petty behaviour.... I'm dissociating today, so I am hoping that I can keep my mouth shut and

Spencer D
05 Jul 2019 ·

refrain from speaking my (venomous) mind tonight. I'm too tired- physically and emotionally. Fingers crossed I don't walk home mid-shift..because I very well may do it.

Spencer D
05 Jul 2019 ·

I mean.. I apologized. The event is in the past- time to move forward from it. If he doesn't want to move forward, then that's on him. I'm going to wear my hematite tonight..I need something to rely on.

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05 Jul 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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4 Spencer D
04 Jul 2019 ·
Going through MoodPanda and sending virtual hugs feels nice.. I feel less alone. I hope you all are having a fine day.
Zoe D
04 Jul 2019 · 2+ YEAR

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04 Jul 2019 · LEGEND

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04 Jul 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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05 Jul 2019 · HERO

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06 Jul 2019 ·

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2 Spencer D
04 Jul 2019 ·
Bipolar crash yesterday..Still recovering and feeling very bad. Yesterday I had a panic attack in the bank lineup. Anxiety attack at another store- too many people at once. People stared/watched.
Spencer D
04 Jul 2019 ·

I let a coworker down yesterday -- horrendous guilt still today. More so angry at them. I never confirmed taking half of their shift, but they assumed&made plans. I didn't go in (bad mental health day/nausea) and they confronted me about it.

Spencer D
04 Jul 2019 ·

I had high anxiety for the remainder of the day. Came home and decided that I'm quitting my job. Awoke this morning feeling very drained. Perceiving someone as being rude-- my 'nose it out of joint' so I'm trying to stay mindful.

Spencer D
04 Jul 2019 ·

I am definitely finding another job ASAP though... my coworkers have zero concept of bipolar depression, let alone mental health days. I have limits and 2 of them never respect that. I'm tired of being loyal/caring too much for people/a workplace

Spencer D
04 Jul 2019 ·

(..) that has no care for me. I'm loyal to a fault, and as worried as I am about a new job (my wrists are still flared up) I'm going to devote myself to a place that respects/cares for me in return.

Zoe D
04 Jul 2019 · 2+ YEAR

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04 Jul 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Spencer D
05 Jul 2019 ·

Thank you xo

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05 Jul 2019 · HERO

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Anna B
06 Jul 2019 ·

Bipolar crash so

Anna B
06 Jul 2019 ·

nds like a cool mame for a band :)

Anna B
06 Jul 2019 ·

Jokes aside, I hope you're feeling better now.

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9 Spencer D
02 Jul 2019 ·
Productive day - learned some Canadian history, enjoyed the weather, and gardened all afternoon with family. Super sleepy..so I'm turning in early tonight xo
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02 Jul 2019 · HERO

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6 Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·
Welp, today seems to be an 'up day' mentally..? (I live with Bipolar2/BPD co-morbid.) I'm slightly confused, but pleasantly content. I think it's a placebo effect of trying to be 'good' to my body.
Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·

I've been waking up before noon (I work evenings & last week's goal was to wake prior to noon.) I think the actions of trying to be mindful (by using MoodPanda and journalling again) - as well as the sun/pleasant weather- are helping lift my spirit

Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·

I feel as though my body is 'low,' yet my mind is 'high' - I'm too tired to try to understand it. -- No more thinking, Spence! Time for that tea. I hope you are presently well!

Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·

Yikes I did not think that through-- I meant 'I hope you are well,' as in to you, the reader, ah. I don't often talk to myself via writing :p

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30 Jun 2019 · NEW

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5 Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·
Very sore day today.. I struggled to open two windows - applied emulgel and now I notice the body pains&aches. Very fatigued and I have done minimal today.
Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·

I'm feeling a little sad, but I plan to have a hot shower in an hour or so. Took my omegas and ate a healthy lunch. Going to make a comfort-tea and work (gently) on my arthritis journal hah. Hoping everyone is feeling okay today x

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30 Jun 2019 · NEW

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9 Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·
Yay long weekend!! 🍁 Looong shift tonight, but my wrists feel okay. I'm hoping to give Tai (my water dragon) some lovin' and sprays, before his lights go out. 🐲
Albertine M
30 Jun 2019 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
30 Jun 2019 · LEGEND

Enjoy your long weekend - hopefully the shift went quickly

Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·

Thank you Albertine! The shift took it's time but coworkers and I gradually made it haha!

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05 Jul 2019 · HERO

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05 Jul 2019 · HERO

Water dragon?

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7 Spencer D
29 Jun 2019 ·
I've done some stretches for the day. I'm off to work- hoping for an easy shift. 3-day 'holiday' because of Canada Day, woohoo!
Albertine M
30 Jun 2019 · LEGEND

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7 Spencer D
28 Jun 2019 ·
Feeling motivated to 'Plan' after work (using Arthritis.ca learning modules.) I have rheumatoid arthritis - as of mid-April my wrists became target. I'm in pain and swollen every day.
Spencer D
28 Jun 2019 ·

I'm still painful, but an ice-bath has me feel a little better. I see a good friend at work tonight, so I look forward to her company; apprehensive about work because other coworkers are ignorant to arthritis.

Zoe D
28 Jun 2019 · 2+ YEAR

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29 Jun 2019 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
30 Jun 2019 · LEGEND

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Albertine M
30 Jun 2019 · LEGEND

That is really tough, Spencer - sorry you have some colleagues who are unaware. My partner was just diagnosed (his mother also has it). Glad to hear you're looking after yourself

Spencer D
30 Jun 2019 ·

Thank you for your kindness, Albertine. I hope that your partner can be gentle with them self! I find the stigma behind age to be more difficult than the pain-- I'm finding that folks still believe it is 'a disease for old people.'

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5 Spencer D
28 Jun 2019 ·
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28 Jun 2019 ·

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27 Jun 2019 ·
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3 Spencer D
21 Jun 2019 ·
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30 Jun 2019 · LEGEND

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