He's older than me and yet is acting like a child. Treated our other coworker poor last night-- because of me?? What is wrong with him? I don't understand petty behaviour.... I'm dissociating today, so I am hoping that I can keep my mouth shut and
refrain from speaking my (venomous) mind tonight. I'm too tired- physically and emotionally. Fingers crossed I don't walk home mid-shift..because I very well may do it.
I mean.. I apologized. The event is in the past- time to move forward from it. If he doesn't want to move forward, then that's on him. I'm going to wear my hematite tonight..I need something to rely on.
I let a coworker down yesterday -- horrendous guilt still today. More so angry at them. I never confirmed taking half of their shift, but they assumed&made plans. I didn't go in (bad mental health day/nausea) and they confronted me about it.
I had high anxiety for the remainder of the day. Came home and decided that I'm quitting my job. Awoke this morning feeling very drained. Perceiving someone as being rude-- my 'nose it out of joint' so I'm trying to stay mindful.
I am definitely finding another job ASAP though... my coworkers have zero concept of bipolar depression, let alone mental health days. I have limits and 2 of them never respect that. I'm tired of being loyal/caring too much for people/a workplace
(..) that has no care for me. I'm loyal to a fault, and as worried as I am about a new job (my wrists are still flared up) I'm going to devote myself to a place that respects/cares for me in return.
Thank you xo
Bipolar crash so
nds like a cool mame for a band :)
Jokes aside, I hope you're feeling better now.
I've been waking up before noon (I work evenings & last week's goal was to wake prior to noon.) I think the actions of trying to be mindful (by using MoodPanda and journalling again) - as well as the sun/pleasant weather- are helping lift my spirit
I feel as though my body is 'low,' yet my mind is 'high' - I'm too tired to try to understand it. -- No more thinking, Spence! Time for that tea. I hope you are presently well!
Yikes I did not think that through-- I meant 'I hope you are well,' as in to you, the reader, ah. I don't often talk to myself via writing :p
I'm feeling a little sad, but I plan to have a hot shower in an hour or so. Took my omegas and ate a healthy lunch. Going to make a comfort-tea and work (gently) on my arthritis journal hah. Hoping everyone is feeling okay today x
Enjoy your long weekend - hopefully the shift went quickly
Thank you Albertine! The shift took it's time but coworkers and I gradually made it haha!
I'm still painful, but an ice-bath has me feel a little better. I see a good friend at work tonight, so I look forward to her company; apprehensive about work because other coworkers are ignorant to arthritis.
That is really tough, Spencer - sorry you have some colleagues who are unaware. My partner was just diagnosed (his mother also has it). Glad to hear you're looking after yourself
Thank you for your kindness, Albertine. I hope that your partner can be gentle with them self! I find the stigma behind age to be more difficult than the pain-- I'm finding that folks still believe it is 'a disease for old people.'
Thank you c: