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Was so strong. So good. So happy. So healed. Then my mother on family WhatsApp group subtely accused me of making things up - again. So low now. What to do. Too little support to come off group. Down.
Chloe M
5m · NEW

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Fresher today. I feel loved somehow
JVAN X
4d · GUARDIAN

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Jen B
4d · HERO

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1 Bipolar Pandy J
18 Nov 2019 ·
Feel like s--t and terrified he's going to hurt himself or worse as in the past. I needed to end it he was abusive in every way. Emotional blackmail but self-knowledge not helping. 5 yrs a long time.
me M
18 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

This is the pattern of abuse. Threatening to hurt himself. And if he abused you. So let him hurt himself as much as he wants. Just make sure he doesn't hurt you. Hugs

me M
18 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Shelley H
18 Nov 2019 · HERO

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18 Nov 2019 ·

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JVAN X
4d · GUARDIAN

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3 Bipolar Pandy J
07 Nov 2019 ·
Feeling ***ty. Don't really know why. Exhausted and can't stop crying until eyes are sore. Unavoidable to feel emotional after ending a 5 yr relationship. Even if he was abusive.
Tayla O
07 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Bipolar Bear .
07 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Spacekitten V
07 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Max T
07 Nov 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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Robert H
07 Nov 2019 · GUARDIAN

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Kimberley C
07 Nov 2019 ·

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Kimberley C
07 Nov 2019 ·

Its a big thing getting out of an abusive relationship, the worst is over, the healing is hard but needed, if you ever need the pandas, we're here

me M
07 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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2 Bipolar Pandy J
06 Nov 2019 ·
My ex threatened to come round anyway 2 nights ago when I stated I WOULD call police. And meant it. He didn't. I feel so sorry for him he has so little. Just praying doesn't damage himself. Praying.
Shelley H
06 Nov 2019 · HERO

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Spacekitten V
06 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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3 Bipolar Pandy J
06 Nov 2019 ·
So very very exhausted with feels like I'm fighting all the time.Then Adrenalin prevents me sleeping and I spiral upwards into a mainly manic mixed state. So bored of it.Family won't accept my Bipolar
Shelley H
06 Nov 2019 · HERO

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Spacekitten V
06 Nov 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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3 Bipolar Pandy J
05 Nov 2019 ·
Head still a bit gone after ending abusive relationship- eg:thought I was in love again -with someoneelse! this am -! maybe I was wrong. Not sure requited!!? Mixed signals!Calmer headspace soon please
Jen B
05 Nov 2019 · HERO

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7 Bipolar Pandy J
04 Nov 2019 ·
He's been gone 2 weeks. I feel normal alive again. I can relax. I'm not terrified confused disorientated +stressed. So good. I can focus on me. +spend my money on me +my 29 yr! daughter. Not just him.
Kimberley C
04 Nov 2019 ·

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04 Nov 2019 ·

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04 Nov 2019 · HERO

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Clare W
04 Nov 2019 ·

Good on you! Getting rid of a toxic relationship - the best thing you can do! Onwards and upwards to what you deserve xxx

Jen B
04 Nov 2019 · HERO

Echoing what Clare said... Good for you for making a change for the better! ❤️

Bipolar Pandy J
05 Nov 2019 ·

Thank you. Your support means so much. Head still a bit gone - thought I was in love again - with someone else! this morning - maybe I was wrong.

Elisabeth O
05 Nov 2019 ·

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5 Bipolar Pandy J
31 Oct 2019 ·
It's been 5 days since he left now. [he] Cried screamed+ threatened. I didn't think I could do it.Prouder than think family believe I'm intrinsically weak. He's still texting. Just keeping door locked
Bipolar Pandy J
31 Oct 2019 ·

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Bipolar Pandy J
31 Oct 2019 ·

He's telling me he's selling all his stuff. He has v little and I normally support him. But can't my daughter too. My heart is no longer so vulnerable to being wrung. Tho I did cry to the darkness first days. Silence and trees so peaceful seem now.

Bipolar Pandy J
31 Oct 2019 ·

Little walk after post. My daughter's love and insistence kept me going daily on that. Only think I enjoy so freely right now. Thank you.

me M
31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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me M
31 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

I've been there for six years (and still haven't really gotten out and can go back). Take care of yourself.❤️

Clare W
31 Oct 2019 ·

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2 Bipolar Pandy J
20 Oct 2019 ·
*** just ***. Told him to go. Unfortunately left door unlocked. Still here second night later. Too dangerous to tell him to go while he's drinking. Need to wait until he goes back home again ...
Bipolar Pandy J
20 Oct 2019 ·

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Bipolar Pandy J
20 Oct 2019 ·

... and just hope a locked door keeps him out without his threat at being asked to leave of 7 months ago of 'im going to burn this house down.' Not prayed for a while. Praying for it to be over now.

Tayla O
20 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Tebby B
20 Oct 2019 ·

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2 Bipolar Pandy J
20 Oct 2019 ·
*** just ***. Told him to go. Unfortunately left door unlocked. Still here second night later. Too dangerous to tell him to go while he's drinking. Need to wait until he goes back home again ...
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5 Bipolar Pandy J
11 Oct 2019 ·
I'm OK today. Not sure why. He's here watching footie downstairs.Just meditating so much could be anywhere. 'Compounding' is term for repetition of session? It works.don't think I'd be here without it
Tebby B
11 Oct 2019 ·

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me M
12 Oct 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Molly S
13 Oct 2019 ·

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3 Bipolar Pandy J
09 Oct 2019 ·
Managed to get to dentist after a decade! 10 this am. Teeth in terrible state many having to come out. Dates back to a period some years ago when I'd stopped looking after myself. Bit depressed about
John T
09 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

I had 5 out at once under sedation. It's horrible for a few days but then so much better after that

John T
09 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
09 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

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Jeff M
09 Oct 2019 · LEGEND

Good luck to you!

Adrian W
10 Oct 2019 · NEW

The longer something gets left, the harder it is, so big congrats for going to that dentist. I've been meaning to go myself for ages!

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3 Bipolar Pandy J
08 Oct 2019 ·
I think he's suddenly realised that if he's in any manner abusive he'll be here less because I need more time to recover from stress and the way mind closes up.He seems scared.Don't think he'll change
Robert H
09 Oct 2019 · GUARDIAN

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5 Bipolar Pandy J
30 Sep 2019 ·
I am no longer in denial re extent to which my family have bullied2abandoned me throughout adulthood2. Suddenly now I'm stronger in life -they accept me all4big hugs.No.Where were they then. Soulless.
Tayla O
30 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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5 Bipolar Pandy J
27 Sep 2019 ·
The carehome where he is now insisted he be there 4 nights a week or eviction. I'm so relieved. I couldn't do it with the threats glaring and arguments. Now can buy food for me. Scared but confident
Jen B
27 Sep 2019 · HERO

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me M
28 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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2 Bipolar Pandy J
26 Sep 2019 ·
Just feel *** when he's here.Knew that thro mood graph charts but in denial. Fear of loneliness, abandonment for him too -having only v abusive family.5 yrs of worry will do something stupid if I try
Jeff M
26 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Jake G
26 Sep 2019 · CHIEFPANDA

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Spacekitten V
26 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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26 Sep 2019 · HERO

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Jimbob W
27 Sep 2019 · 1+ YEAR

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4 Bipolar Pandy J
20 Sep 2019 ·
Anxious as big family stay over at brother's house tomorrow. Meditated /self-hypnosis literally all day yest. Stuff comes up more quickly but cathartic. Imagine light washing out mind too. Relaxing
me M
20 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Jen B
20 Sep 2019 · HERO

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Tebby B
20 Sep 2019 ·

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3 Bipolar Pandy J
17 Sep 2019 ·
Care-coordinator home appt. Feel v lacklustre. ***ty even. Talked about past current events major circs/events as new one. Exhausted wearied. Not in fulfilled creative way. Brought stuff up? Trying.
Spacekitten V
17 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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Jen B
18 Sep 2019 · HERO

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Tebby B
21 Sep 2019 ·

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4 Bipolar Pandy J
16 Sep 2019 ·
My mother attacking@accusing me of stealing all her old fami photos.I've not seen them 20 yrs.she just doesn't stop.Sometimes wonder if pure Evil exists!? Still steady tho do tend to delayed reaction
Jeff M
16 Sep 2019 · LEGEND

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Ian D
16 Sep 2019 · 6+ MONTHS

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