for it because i start online classes next semester and a half-*ssed clean would NOT have cut it and would probs have worsen my depressive episodes. Cooked 2 banana breads and 4 cans of apple-sauce yesterday and napped to recuperate
from my cleaning marathon. Napped today too while relaxing on my computer. I'll try to go see my grand-ma this weekend to can my HUGE garden beets i harvested 2 weeks ago. This was such an amazing week!!!
Also the chest pains are back. They stopped while my heart was in over-drive bc of pre-exam anxiety, and now that the adrenaline's gone it's hurting so freaking much!
You gone be ok.
Good luck to you Lokinas...xxx You'll do great! We are all rooting for you!!
Best of luck with your midterms!
Y'all are so kind, thank you for the support, reading your comments made me smile!
Homework is positive. Good job. Even if you only did one thing, well done for that one.
Like i'm so done with this life that i'm really feeling like dropping everything and moving to another country. This is crazy but like it seems like the only option that doesn't end in sui from depression and apathy, idk does that make any sense?
A lot of demotivation from being unable to achieve the expectation set for me i think, which is why i'm looking into life paths that may feel more rewarding than the bs i'm doing now.
But i'm also terrified of breaking from the set path my parents expect of me because they are my only source of financial, mental and medical support which i literally can't lose if i don't want to be on the streets,
And i know it's the anxiety making scenarios up but i'm still so ***ing scared! And that's not even conscidering the disapointement they'll feel from me not even getting a uni degree when their convinced i could get a doctorate.
It's just a **lot** on my mind for the past few days and it's really hard to keep up with school and assignements with these thoughts circling in my brain