23.00 Much better day towards the middle to end part , ended up spending time with 3 people I like and had a laugh with w . He's made me feel better coz he's trying hard to make a mense for how he treated me this year . Mum wanted to meet and talk after I let her know I was upset and it must have helped me to get it off my chest and to have a possible resolution on the way. Weight off my shoulders
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Yesterday was hard with my mood. Upset about my mum not staying in touch when she kept disappearing off with Sandra. Mood is bit better this morning but I'm not back up to where I was last week yet. I'll have to keep trying and hang in there
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Very down . Lost hope. Very tired of all this. Very down going to sleep now. Bought matt haig book today . Going to read and hopefully sleep. πŸ™

Thankyou Tory E . That's a lovely message, connecting with people makes me feel bit better so cheers 4 the message πŸŽ€

5 days ago

Yes Pandas🐼 gave me great support this year , it's good to track your moods and reflect on your progress . Good luck to you Tory E ,im glad you're a Panda now x

5 days ago

Yes it is a message of hope - made me see that there's people who do understand and go thru what I do. Your message was recieved well !

5 days ago

I'm 'following ' you now Tory E otherwise I see the world updates and there's names I don't recognise ! Its nice to see updates from people who've left Panda hugs on my messages Lol , spk soon hopefully πŸͺ†πŸ§ΈπŸŽ€πŸ€“

5 days ago

Thankyou Eli Z and Jen B , im feeling more positive about things now ✨

3 days ago
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Not feeling v.good had bad sleep for days ,mind racing sometimes unless I consciously stop it ,feeling bad about myself for some reason even tho I'm trying so hard to learn how to move on and create the life I want to live!

Thankyou for the Panda hugs Anna D & Im S πŸ€—

11 Sep 2021

Thanks Ann L 😊

5 days ago
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Doing okay,the storm must've passed and I'm able to pick up and keep going forward in a positive and more knowledgeable place when it come to my own mind,im going to try and build on this,well done me πŸŒˆπŸπŸ‘‘πŸŽ€
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
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you got this i believe in you <3

31 Aug 2021

Getting out is important. Especially for meds. I'm with you. Keep going.x

03 Sep 2021

Thankyou all for beautiful Panda hugs and styler L thanks for the back up , nixiblu thankyou darling- you are right and I'm feeling much better now 😊 , ive actually just got home from having coffee n wonder with my friend,thank God for better days🌈

09 Sep 2021
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.

Thanks Spacekitten Vv, hope all is well with you 😊

5 days ago
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
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I'm magistrates court yesterday',today my friends mums funeral and I arranged to go to the wake,got up n ready but couldn't find where they were. Had to leave it but never mind they wil
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I'm magistrates court yesterday',today my friends mums funeral and I arranged to go to the wake,got up n ready but couldn't find where they were. Had to leave it but never mind they wil

Thankyou for hugs on this one,sorry its a bit late to reply but I didn't see it till now! Thanks Anna and AnnπŸ˜‡

5 days ago
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Feel alright, angry because ex got life from his mum which we all planned yesterday and I was meant to jump in to save me an hours walk but they gave me no notice and turned up at only 12 when i wasn't ready to drop everything and run ,plus wasn't dressed properly . So I'm waiting for taxi now , gonna cost around 10 pounds. Hate selfish people,as long as they're alrite ! πŸ‘ŽπŸΎπŸ‘ŽπŸΎπŸ‘ŽπŸΎ
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Feeling positive still.things aren't always easy but I'm staying in the rite frame of mind and trying not to react to outside influences or anything, been alot more social in these days I've felt better-talked to GP which helped,visited ex work mate for 2nd time and that was kool,talked to aquantances in the street as I've gone to boots and think maybe the human contact is helping in some way
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Mood has felt lifted since yesterday GP appt,feel like I'm actually making some progress and improving. I'm seeing the benefits of trying to stay busy,have things to do and see people to socialise,us doing things to help the people I love. I hope I'm gonna be OK,im willing to put the work in and I feel I've suffered enuff and I'm ready to be healed,not overnight but with the right help I'm getting

Realised this is the first 8 I've recorded, I just feel some of the fog has lifted

11 Aug 2021
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Mood has felt lifted since yesterday GP appt,feel like I'm actually making some progress and improving. I'm seeing the benefits of trying to stay busy,have things to do and see people to socialise,us doing things to help the people I love. I hope I'm gonna be OK,im willing to put the work in and I feel I've suffered enuff and I'm ready to be healed,not overnight but with the right help I'm getting
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Had v.busy day.but v.relieved at doctors reaction to me and how she understood and didn't judge me fir the honesty I showed her.im.grateful for this chance to stabilise my mood and get into dome consistency with a better mood and frame of mind,I still have a trial ahead at end of month so must keep the momentum and strength from today & yesrday ! Thankyou Jesus if it is your grace showing the way
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Had v.busy day.but v.relieved at doctors reaction to me and how she understood and didn't judge me fir the honesty I showed her.im.grateful for this chance to stabilise my mood and get into dome consistency with a better mood and frame of mind,I still have a trial ahead at end of month so must keep the momentum and strength from today & yesrday ! Thankyou Jesus if it is your grace showing the way

Thanks Pandas for your support πŸ™

11 Aug 2021
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Doing ok.had few moments today but managed to control it and had a productive day,got doctictirs in the morning so it's my chance to ask for the right help and prove to her that I am genuinely trying to help myself and not expecting a majic pill anymore or for someone to save me from my worries I am willing to help myself but I need support to do that.i want to be better,I want to love myself🌈🌻

Cheers Bekah T πŸ˜‡

09 Aug 2021

That's it. What you're doing is self love. That voice is urging it. Sometimes there will be parts that sound harsh and critical. Behind the harshness and self criticism is often a need for love, too.

09 Aug 2021

Thqnkyou all for P.hugs , very much. Love! You're right looking after myself is a way of loving myself and I guess the better I treat myself the more I'll get the message that I deserve to b happy and fulfilled and live the life I'd love to live ✨

10 Aug 2021
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Low mood.bad mood.sadness. ex boyfriend making my life he'll. I can't seem to break free. I'm scared to be alone forever.hes taken advantage of my generosity, forgiveness,kindness,and everything else I've got including money.feel very low about myself,cant seem to control my temper,clean criminal record but up in court end of Aug on assault charges coz i pushed a woman out of my personal space

As she was shouting at me and wagging her finger in my face.got arrested and left to sit in a cell for 10 hours,all v.out of character for me ,feel I'm loosing touch with myself. Even lost faith in God. Will keep trying again from tomorow,fresh week!

08 Aug 2021

Hope all of it will be well and fresh week will help to strengthen the link with yourself. At now you are alone too. With ex boyfriend it just is an illusion. That you are not alone. You should find pluses in loneliness and use them for you.

08 Aug 2021

It's a hard work, but you can do it. I believe that you can.

08 Aug 2021

'In the midst of winter, I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer' (с)

08 Aug 2021

I hope everything will turn in well soon πŸ€πŸ€ž Meanwhile be strong! 🌷🌸❀️

08 Aug 2021

Thankypi Lilot V for your wise words and Anna D for your support too , it is a fresh week and I've made sure that today was a brighter one,I feel much better than last night thanks girls πŸ’―πŸŒ€

09 Aug 2021
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