Woke up to my phone ringing again n again , it was W . His mum rang and asked my to jump in the car coz he was going with her to town and he sounded drunk so she doesn't I've being alone with him when he's like that. Went to town,he bought ammonia and I asked what for and he told the truth first in front of his mum then backtracked and said it was for the drains.i explained to his mum wot its for

But he's been doing that for about 30 years and his mum isn't from that world so doesn't understand about those substances and the damage or signs of someone using it. It's hard to b happy or in good mood when you're around that sort of dysfunction.

07 Oct 2021

Hoping to study a but this afternoon and do some kitchen cleaning and that shud improve my mood to a 6 or even 7 !

07 Oct 2021

Good for you for controlling whatyou can control!

07 Oct 2021

well dang. even though W might be in need of help make sure you feel comftorable and safe mentally and physically first. It might be better to cut W out of your life for your sake if he is making you feel this way.

07 Oct 2021
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Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .
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Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .
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Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .
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Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .
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Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .
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Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .

So sorry I somehow posted this multiple times , how embarrassing Lol πŸ˜†

06 Oct 2021

that does that to me sometimes too!

07 Oct 2021

Lol Itch it's annoying !

07 Oct 2021

you're not kidding!

07 Oct 2021
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Altho W is not doing well die 2 the same as usual issues I managed to get out and see my mum so I'm feeling proud that I got over the mood dip I felt in the morning after seeing him. Feeling better for connecting with people and getting things done,phone calls to southdown and ezra,got appts set up 2 devise a an for winter months when I start struggling in the lack of sun.

Thanks Marylin and Jen B , Panda hugs to you too !

07 Oct 2021
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23.00 Much better day towards the middle to end part , ended up spending time with 3 people I like and had a laugh with w . He's made me feel better coz he's trying hard to make a mense for how he treated me this year . Mum wanted to meet and talk after I let her know I was upset and it must have helped me to get it off my chest and to have a possible resolution on the way. Weight off my shoulders

Thanks Dan d and Love! , Love! I hope you're keeping well 😎

30 Sep 2021
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Yesterday was hard with my mood. Upset about my mum not staying in touch when she kept disappearing off with Sandra. Mood is bit better this morning but I'm not back up to where I was last week yet. I'll have to keep trying and hang in there

Thanks Jonathan c !

30 Sep 2021
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Very down . Lost hope. Very tired of all this. Very down going to sleep now. Bought matt haig book today . Going to read and hopefully sleep. πŸ™

Thankyou Tory E . That's a lovely message, connecting with people makes me feel bit better so cheers 4 the message πŸŽ€

21 Sep 2021

Yes Pandas🐼 gave me great support this year , it's good to track your moods and reflect on your progress . Good luck to you Tory E ,im glad you're a Panda now x

21 Sep 2021

Yes it is a message of hope - made me see that there's people who do understand and go thru what I do. Your message was recieved well !

21 Sep 2021

I'm 'following ' you now Tory E otherwise I see the world updates and there's names I don't recognise ! Its nice to see updates from people who've left Panda hugs on my messages Lol , spk soon hopefully πŸͺ†πŸ§ΈπŸŽ€πŸ€“

21 Sep 2021

Thankyou Eli Z and Jen B , im feeling more positive about things now ✨

24 Sep 2021
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Not feeling v.good had bad sleep for days ,mind racing sometimes unless I consciously stop it ,feeling bad about myself for some reason even tho I'm trying so hard to learn how to move on and create the life I want to live!

Thankyou for the Panda hugs Anna D & Im S πŸ€—

11 Sep 2021

Thanks Ann L 😊

21 Sep 2021
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Doing okay,the storm must've passed and I'm able to pick up and keep going forward in a positive and more knowledgeable place when it come to my own mind,im going to try and build on this,well done me πŸŒˆπŸπŸ‘‘πŸŽ€
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
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you got this i believe in you <3

31 Aug 2021

Getting out is important. Especially for meds. I'm with you. Keep going.x

03 Sep 2021

Thankyou all for beautiful Panda hugs and styler L thanks for the back up , nixiblu thankyou darling- you are right and I'm feeling much better now 😊 , ive actually just got home from having coffee n wonder with my friend,thank God for better days🌈

09 Sep 2021
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.

Thanks Spacekitten Vv, hope all is well with you 😊

21 Sep 2021
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
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Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
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I'm magistrates court yesterday',today my friends mums funeral and I arranged to go to the wake,got up n ready but couldn't find where they were. Had to leave it but never mind they wil
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I'm magistrates court yesterday',today my friends mums funeral and I arranged to go to the wake,got up n ready but couldn't find where they were. Had to leave it but never mind they wil

Thankyou for hugs on this one,sorry its a bit late to reply but I didn't see it till now! Thanks Anna and AnnπŸ˜‡

21 Sep 2021
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