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3 nat !
54m ·
a bit sad . a deeper sad . the kind that settles in your bones . melancholic ? the days don't mean anything . i feel like i'm running out of time and i don't even know for what . i'm still tired
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5 nat !
10h ·
ended up doing some vent art last night . i haven't done that in a long time . it's a good thing , i think . ended up going to bed around 3 tho . feeling it this morning .
nat !
10h ·

sorry for being so doom and gloom lately :/ it's a bit frustrating cause i think i was doing pretty well before . makes my head hurt

sophie X
10h ·

no worries, its an hard time, you're not alone.

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9h ·

thank you sophie <3

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3 nat !
20h ·
change is terrifying . knowing someday that everyone that's surrounding me right now will be gone scares me more than anything . i truly don't think i can function without them .
nat !
20h ·

i'm agnostic , but a part of me does believe there is some reasoning behind life and existence . i just don't think i was meant to be here , and i mean that genuinely . i don't think i can go through the motions of the rest of my life .

nat !
20h ·

when they're gone i won't have anything to live for . “ for myself “ isn't good enough of a reason for me . i'm already burnt out . i have been for half of my life . i just don't see me having a future past them .

nat !
20h ·

to be completely honest , i'm only holding out right now for my mother . if i didn't have her i don't know where i'd be . probably nowhere . i hate even thinking about it . i'm grieving her and she's not even dead .

Mad,Bad&Sad S
19h ·

u know what, past year was awful. i basically lost everything i worked and cared for. and the meaning of word 'temporary' hit me hard. i do believe theres supernatural, we are more than flesh but we have no tools to measure it is why ppl laugh it off

Mad,Bad&Sad S
19h ·

'for yourself' is what they tell u to stay sober for alcoholics. it was the hardest part to believe in. i could stay sober for my man, for family, for myself id only drink. but after years i can tell you, for yourself - its true. and for yourself we

Mad,Bad&Sad S
19h ·

also gotta find the meaning in all this. cause after all when we go, we all leave this world alone.

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5 nat !
23h ·
talked to some friends today . feel okay , i guess . really want to see a psychologist but i can't until next month , unfortunately . still tired . hope you're all well
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5 nat !
1d ·
i was overreacting . also i cleaned the cat's litter box and took out the trash in the bathroom . my pride kinda canceled out when i ordered food tho :|
sophie X
1d ·

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nat !
1d ·

really want my laptop so i can start some projects i've been planning

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I hope you will be able to work on your projects soon :)

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nat !
1d ·

thanks anna !! me too :)

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5 nat !
1d ·
feels like i messed up my two last friendships somehow . i don't have proof and i'm 90% sure i'm overreacting but i still feel that way . sucks . everything sucks .
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5 nat !
1d ·
soooo yesterday was a day . not sure how today will go but it seems to be better so far . hope you're all well .
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1 nat !
2d ·
haven't felt this way in a long time . i hate it . i feel like .. i dont know . i'm truly alone . i feel like i'm just talking into a void
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4 nat !
2d ·
doing a little better . still bad . easily triggered today . just really tired . i hope you're all well
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2 nat !
2d ·
i feel less than worthless . i was doing so good before . i hate being so openly miserable but it's all i can feel right now and i can't tell anyone else . i'm just really tired and alone
Jen B
2d · HERO

You're not worthless, Nat. I hope a better mood finds you soon ❤️

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nat !
2d ·

thank you jen

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4 nat !
2d ·
sorry to update again so soon , i just feel very discouraged right now . my brain has always been fueled by praise or recognition so when i don't have that everything becomes a bit ,, bleak .
nat !
2d ·

i think it can be attributed to rejection sensitive dysphoria . aa it sucks . i can't enjoy what i make or do for what it is , i always need approval .

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Don´t worry, write as often as you wish :)

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5 nat !
2d ·
keep having dreams of my home town getting destroyed . from man made issues to natural disasters . i'm sure that means something 🤔
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5 nat !
3d ·
connected why i feel so anxious home alone at night with a past event i previously didn't put much thought into . i had an experience where i wasn't really in danger , but thought i was and called 911
nat !
3d ·

basically my mom scheduled someone to inspect our house and didn't tell me , the man that came wasn't wearing a uniform , and when i didn't answer the door ( i was home alone ) he started going to the windows and back doors . i even called my dad and

nat !
3d ·

asked if people were supposed to be at our house and he said no and to call the police . i locked myself in the bathroom and called 911 and the cops came . it took them a bit to figure out who he was , but everyone left pretty much immediately after

nat !
3d ·

thank god he didn't get hurt . i just saw a six foot white man i didn't know in all black messing with my windows and doors and thought the worst . he was actually very kind afterwards as well :(

nat !
3d ·

whenever i recounted this experience it was in a humorous tone , but the truth is i thought i was about to die . i remember as soon as everyone left i just sat on my knees and sobbed . now every noise i hear at night i feel that again

nat !
3d ·

knowing this makes it easier for me to calm down . still need to find more techniques to do it quicker , because it's a bit more intense than what i'm used to . still learning

nat !
3d ·

really grateful i have this app so i can just write this down . there's no other place i can really get it out ( till i find a new therapist at least )

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6 nat !
3d ·
a few icky moments but overall good day so far :) having fun being alone
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Good to hear. You had some concerns around that.

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5 nat !
3d ·
finally went to sleep around 2 or 3 :/ trying to keep my energy up for today . hopefully i can sleep earlier tonight
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3d · 6+ MONTHS

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Go to bed at 21:43. Set an alarm for 21:13 and have 30 minutes winding down without food, screens, or bright lights. John T challenge

nat !
3d ·

i'll try it !!

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3 nat !
4d ·
the slightest noise makes me think my house is getting broken into . i just want to go to sleep
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5 nat !
4d ·
things have been good overall today :) the sun set so i'm expecting a bit of night time anxiety but hopefully it won't get too out of control . did a lot of self care . hoping this continues into the
nat !
4d ·

following weeks . hope you're all well !!

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4d · 6+ MONTHS

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4 nat !
4d ·
i was feeling alright but now i'm a bit irritable :/ unfortunately i tend to get upset when people poke fun at things i have an interest in , even if it's not personal . i can't help it ;-;
nat !
4d ·

it always manages to ruin my mood :(

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4d ·

I try and read jokes on my interests (mainly on fb). Once I outjoke them, they usually shut up ;)

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I admire your awareness. You're aware of your state, your triggers... & you own it.

nat !
4d ·

aw thank you love :) and ty lili !

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6 nat !
5d ·
ended up having a really good night :) had dinner and watched a cool movie with my mom . she's taking off tomorrow 😗 so we'll see how my first day alone will go . hopefully well . goodnight !!
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4d ·

You got this!

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4d ·

thank you daniel :) !!

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5 nat !
5d ·
i've been all over the place today :/ i'll be uncharacteristically happy and then the smallest things will plummet my mood so drastically . and then it just cycles . odd
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