Bfs dad disrespected me and makes me feel worthless, boyfriend creates arguments and now pressuring me into telling him what's wrong as I'm upset and I won't open up because I don't feel safe too :( I've been abused as a child by my parents and he's pressuring me to open up calling me selfish and that he doesn't wanna be around someone miserable and he's shouting at me because I won't tell him

Bless your heart.. I hate to hear this and wish I knew what to say.. being abused as a child does make your position more harder.. I would try to explain to your BF that because of your past, creating an argument and screaming is not helping you.

11 Jul 2021

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11 Jul 2021

guessing the lack of understanding and support hurts.

11 Jul 2021
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I am sick of people using it's just a joke to defend there degrading insults and toxic behaviour and then calling you out as too sensitive and invalidating your feelings, why are people so defensive of critique? It really pisses me off
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Ptsd triggered feeling stressed frustrated and pushing people away. I hate when people try to help but actually make it worse when they don't actually listen to what I want. I sometimes just wanna be alone when I'm triggered not smothered in β€œare u okay” it pisses me off and then I get guilty coz they get angry that I'm not accepting there help
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07 Jun 2021
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Suicidal, depressed, lonely and feeling of no end of suffering
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eating pizza with the boyf everyone telling me it's a toxic relationship but I don't care
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Good time vibing with drinks just tired
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So my bipolar is actually BPD and I've just lost someone in my life because of my stupid behaviour πŸ˜“I can't do anything right I'm so insecure that I lie I'm literally shaking I'm suicidal thoughts
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It's funny I'm really depressed and low but because I have bipolar I'm manic about it so I'm enjoying myself and being al energetic but as soon as I think of anything I have a huge weight in my chest
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Some Irish boy made me smile today so that was fun and I'm so tired and feeling meh but happy and hopeful
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Feeling accomplished gardening was nice to have a mini heat wave but now I'm feeling quite lonely and like something is missing
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I know I'm special and rare :) just wish people would recognise that

Ry you are,and shy)now we know that,you should tell us earlier, thank you πŸ˜„sure people know about that fact.)thank you, you present me a good mood)

30 Mar 2021
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I figured out why I'm so drained it's because it's a full moon and it always negativity impacts me
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In one of those moods where your so tired to do anything but your so bored, I've legit done nothing all day my body feels so weak and I just can't do anything
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I'm such a whore spoke to like a million guys all saying I'm gorgeous massive ego boost, and then my ex comes running back and ofc we get back togther TOXIC ME

Seems like the little self, or ego, and your Higher Self- the one acknowledging the toxicity of the choices ego makes are in conflict here.

29 Mar 2021

Don't be so hard on yourself :(

30 Mar 2021
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Soon as he gets home he wants to be with me again I can't just be played like this
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We broke up and I was sad but we said we would stay friends and now I'm free to be me and I can have my freedom back so I'm happy
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Feeling better after resolving the argument but feeling drained
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