Rounded it up to 1 from 0.5 Went back to f**king ***
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Neutral I feel better Nver been green before :)

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13 Sep 2021
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Gonna hv to do it again. I tried but i cant recover. I still feel low the hospital didnt do ***. This time im gonna take like a 100 tablets tho so i can properly die. I just need to find a way to get some more. I found one packet with 32 but its out of date (i hv a huge problem with stuff like this) But then again desperate times call for desperate measures.

Oh Hon.. I wish I knew what to do or say that would help.. Panda please reach out when your feeling this way!!

30 Jun 2021

I hope you find the will to keep on living, we are here for you.

30 Jun 2021

Make sure you are not making permanent decisions over temporary feelings.

30 Jun 2021
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So im still stuck here in the hospital and the judge didnt take me off section. Im coming out of covid isolation so im scared to meet the other people here like what if they dont like me and stuff. I hv some big decisions to make for when i get out of here cause clearly i cant stay at home with my parents cause they trigger everything bad. So i hv two options. 1) go to a boarding schl

2) stay at home with my sister and mum while my dad moves out. But i mean thats still bad cause my mums there and I wouldn't want them to seperate because of me but on the other hand boarding schl seems rlly hard and all of that money would be wasted

04 Jun 2021

Cause i might fail and i dont wanna leave my friends. So... i hv no clue. Has anyone got any ideas on which option I should pick?

04 Jun 2021

Probably It's not a good advice, but pick what your heart is for, because there is no right or wrong choice, just stay strong no matter what you end up on

04 Jun 2021
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Anxious and feel uneasy. They're transferring me to a psychiatric hospital!!. I have butterflies in my stomach and scared as ***.
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On the road to recovery. Im glad i got saved. U were all right.

proud of you !! there'll be ups and downs , but we'll always be here to support you when you need it ! <3 you got this

18 May 2021

I'm glad you are safe too

18 May 2021

It's great you see the life a bit better. I hope you'll feel better and better. Stay strong ❤️🍀

18 May 2021
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In hospital puking up bile. Its all green and gross. I overdosed again im so STUPID. I want it to stop now
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4.5 pretty neutral. Just a bit scared for tomorrows assessment at 10:00 am for the camhs thing. Does anyone know something that i should expect and stuff. If you so pls let me know
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*** i just came out of hospital after spending 12 hrs there. Why did i get saved

I agree with Jana ❤️❤️

16 May 2021

I just feel like i appreciate everyone so much and with their kind words its helped me to feel better. Ur all so kind and lovely xx

16 May 2021

❤️

17 May 2021
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Feeling great. I got some more of those iron tablets like 28 so this time i can swallow more

Please don't do that. There always is a way out of pain that doesn't include death. Believe me, I wanted to kill myself some years ago too. So I know what I'm talking about. ❤️❤️

15 May 2021

Agree with Anna.

15 May 2021

❤️❤️

15 May 2021
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I just took an overdose of 5 tablets of ferrous fumarate 332 mg and nothings happened :( shall i overdose on something else as well to ensure i die 100% guranteed

Please don't. I'm not going to pretend to know you but as someone who has done the math & taken over a 100 pills at once that don't interact well with each other and lived, even though I shouldn't have. PLEASE don't

14 May 2021

Life isn't always easy. In fact, more often than not, I've found it to be hard. But there are those special times that kinda randomly come out of nowhere & make it all worth it. I should have died 10 years ago, I did the math, but I didn't & I'm glad

14 May 2021

Please don't overdose yourself. I know it might look like the life has no sense now. I lived it too, I wanted to kill myself. Once I almost killed myself and the last thing I remember before falling unconscious was 'Please I want to live.' There is a

14 May 2021

will to live in everyone. You might have survived because you wanted to live. It's really strong. Keep strong ❤️

14 May 2021

Please call 911, 999 or your local emergency services number immediately. They can help you, and you deserve help. Please do that

14 May 2021

Talk to childline again if it helps. Just talk to someone who can help

14 May 2021

Im sorry but i have to now. Those 'special times' Danny M just arent enough to make it worth it for me. Im sorry everyone.

15 May 2021

Please don't. Your life is worth living. Call any number Jake mentioned. Please do ❤️❤️

15 May 2021
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This girl at schl was talking abt how she doesnt talk to her dad cause he abused her as a child and if she changes her schedule or goes to her room straight from schl then she would still get proper

Hit (like a black eye or worse) and i asked her why she wont tell anyone and she said she cant do anything abt it but shes fine with it and just doesnt talk to him. Like so it makes me feel like i made a big deal abt what my parents did to me cause

11 May 2021

They also abused me a lot but i told someone abt it and she hasnt. Like then im a burden and i couldve kept it to myself. Im so stupid im always saying stuff i shouldnt like i just basically told my counsellor today that i do self harm

11 May 2021

And have suicidal thoughts for this assessment when she asked me. Like why didnt i just keep it to myself. It just ruined everything. I wasnt going to but when she asked me i was SMILING cause i was nervous and that just told everything. Like wtf

11 May 2021

I just spent hours trying to convince my parents and sister not to tell anyone abt it but then i go blurt it out myself. How stupid can i get. Its f***ing embarrassing

11 May 2021
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Had an introduction to one of the counsellors. Told me I can decide whether I wanna continue or not. But I feel like I have no choice.

I just endured 10 mins of my sister and mum shouting in my ear about that I have to do it or they will put me in a nhs program which is stupid. The school won't do that but they will like I don't need it. My sister says I'm 'high priority' and unsafe

07 May 2021

Like what that's bs. I have full control of my self harm. I haven't done it since 2 days ago and that was just a small bite not even a cut or burn so Yh I do have control. So annoying.

07 May 2021

I don't know what to do cause ur all also probably gonna say do the counselling but like what if talking doesn't help me.

07 May 2021
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Don't have the motivation to do anything. My dad sexually abused me on Friday and my mum said I'm lying. They expect me to go back to 'normal'.

The flashbacks are all coming back again. Dk what to do. Nearly stabbed myself yesterday so they could realise what they've done but the knife didn't go deep enough. I still have it in my room Dk whether I should try again

03 May 2021

Please don't stab yourself :(

03 May 2021

Live,you will leave this house one day,don't hurt yourself, don't.

03 May 2021

Please ask someone you trust for help. That's a terrible mother for not believing in you, she should be someone u should rely on. Please don't stab yourself and if it comes to it, call 911.

03 May 2021
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Please don't!

01 May 2021

It's the only way out now. I'm rlly scared but I have to.

01 May 2021
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OMG. I'm on my periods. Like why. I have a science gcse higher physics paper today and a geography test. Also,tomorrow is and NO feminax to help me. !!!! :( :( how can I even concentrate on my tests

*tomorrow is pe.

29 Apr 2021

Paracetamol is rubbish. WTH am I supposed to do. It's like 1:10 I'm freaking out!!!. HATE LIFE.

29 Apr 2021

Just realised I overreacted by like 95% lol

30 Apr 2021
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My mum just spoilt my whole mood said I was shouting at her when I wasn't. SHE WAS. Then my dad said there's something wrong in my head and the schl thinks it as well. Apparently I need to 'grow up'.

F**k this sh*t. They all keep on telling me not to self harm but literally I cant fight the urges if they keep on triggering me. I'm so f**king done with this. I don't care what they think anymore. I'll do what I want

28 Apr 2021

Keep surviving. When you are a bit older you'll indepence and I promise that is very good

28 Apr 2021
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Have to go to that classroom in schl today. Time to face the music. I'm hella scared and have a migraine. So great 😒
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Spoke to someone on childline today! Felt oddly good and she was different from everyone else. Didn't judge me and understood my worries abt everything. She didn't mind I self harm.

She helped me and told me I could stop whenever I felt ready to and didn't brainwash me into going to a doctor abt it. We spoke for 40 mins. Time went fast I liked speaking with her a lot.

24 Apr 2021
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