Very down today, have a pest problem in kitchen, so All the pantry had to be emptied, to deal with it, so more chores to see to on top of te hundreds of others, couldn't cope with it today, Just want respite..
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This week has been heavy going, started therapy yesterday, very upset, but positive that the outcome of therapy will turn my life around, today started ok, went downhill, by mid afternoon, retreated to bed, blaclcloud had descended, it had lifted somewhat by the evening, and I had a good belly laugh at a TV comedy, that happy feeling, felt so good in that moment, hope for more of it to come.
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Just when I think I'm doing better, a wave of panic hits me over the head, how can we manage on such a meagre amount of money, I miss buying my darling little grand daughters things taking them out for trips , it's all so very sad howee have ended up here...
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Had a nice time by coast yesterday, it was slightly marred though by headache, thought it would give me a 'reset' to cope with what's coming in the future, I've just been very pensive and worried about what's to come, struggling financially, sad that not even a nice day out has quelled my fears...
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Huge row, going around in circles with rob, just need it to stop...
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Did not have the 'Will to leave bed today hubby coaxed me, so glad he did, felt a bit better by afternoon. We give each other strength, and feel we are finally pulling together on everything, it feels good when we talk in the 'future' tense, a glimmer of light which means hope to me x
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I feel so burnt out, from all te stress I don't feel hopeful anymore😪
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I feel so burnt out, from all te stress I don't feel hopeful anymore😪
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Non productive day, nights are drawing in, so not much sitting in the garden anymore to while away the time.. Going to see girls tomorrow, they are a real mood lifter, and enjoying new series of Bake off, laughter is 'my best medicine'..
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The whole morning, was non productive, I'm very upset at feeling I'm 'stuck' at this level, it feels so horrid and despairing. My lovely husband takes me away from the chaos , into lively woodlands, feeling calmer, I'm very tired in the afternoon, and sleep, a lovely meal cooked in evening, , by rob., he's my true rock...
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Working through stuff with 'other half' feeling more positive.
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The 'void' has become to much to contain, at my lowest ebb again...

It will pass...deep breaths...you are stronger than you think

25 Sep 2021

*reading Alain Badiou and being reminded by this post that we are never without void(s) . . . existence is contingent on void(s) . . . we are here supporting You through their gnarlinesses*

26 Sep 2021
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Feeling indifferent today, just praying for some incentive and motivation, to start engaging again, getting down about over eating, using it as an escape, going to try so hard to morrow, hppefuly with robs input, I can break through this wall thats 'blocking' me did get some ironing done at least 'pat on my back.'
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Floundering and can't get my focus , miss seeing my girls this week ,😒 Went to visit a friend today, that cheered me up, hope to do better tomorrow and try tackle some projects.
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Could not 'get' today started, not even engaging with, things outside of housework, I am feeling like this is where i am stuck permanently...I just want to 'feel' something again😪 Hope to sleep better, thats a start.
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Such a difficult day, had to pay back a loan to universal credit, that i had no knowledge of! Very distressed and angry over it, theese are the times when I can't bear anymore, such anguish ifeel, had to get out the house fir a but got a few things in supermarket in bed now, lhoping for a better day tomorrow.
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Here's hoping tomorrow is better for you x

21 Sep 2021

Sounds like we are feeling similar things . I'm sorry about your stresses ,dont know why life has to be like this! Hope 4 better days ahead ..... 🌈🌤

21 Sep 2021
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Fitful sleep, had to wake early to have therapy session, it was hard work with woman on the other end sigh... I started to tune her out though, so I'm being treated for stress/ depression management, quite upset by it all, more social hassle, about a 'payback' which has already been paid back, glad when the end of day came, managed 2 lots of washing up though.

Even though you are in so much anguish and pain, being in someone's thoughts , gives such a mood lift, thankyou to whom has thought of me, even though you don't know me x

21 Sep 2021
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Started of ok, got dishes done early, slept on, start to look at therapy questions, start to look at my whole life and doubt my purpose, rob is wonderful and reassures me of my value in this life, . Most of day I'm quite low, anxious about therapy, but I know its objective is to help me cope with lifes struggles.
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