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January
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  1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2(8) I feel silly for allowing what happened the other day get to me. My friends advice was that i should trust myself. I know i haven't done anything wrong. I had no bad or scheming intentions.
(8) Happy new year pandas. I hope this year brings you all peace, love, great health and all the best things you deserve :)
3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4(8) Solid 8 with my mental health :)5(8) Going to really get stuck into some photography took a lil break when i couldnt function well. But its time now and i really enjoy it. The creativity and visuals and the whole process of it.
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13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15(8) Started working on my photography again and i missssed it. Amazing feedback and i just want to keep going and growing with it and and seeing where it can take me. Life feels good and my mind too.
(8) I am working on never giving power to any one to put me down no matter who the person is. I can really see my worth since my mental health has been goood . So i know what i am worth and nothing
(8) Starting a new chapter of my life next week. Wasn't planned but it was part of something i have been praying for and that was given to me so i shall see how it goes. Im excited. :)
16(8) It feels like a second chance because the first time i wasn't excited i was in deep depression and the anxiety was bad and i felt nervous about not knowing anyone. This time around i feel completely17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18(8) Really weary about people who claim to be my friend. My gut instinct feels uncomfortable around some people. I have kept my distance and it feels better that way.19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
20(8) Looking forward to start something new on tuesday but looking forward to everyday of life tbh21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter22(8) Was messaged last minute to work in the morning and i took a an hour to reply because usually i would be up for it but i felt so drained mentally. I ended up saying yes. Then i realised i needed to23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
27(7) Felt a bit triggered on thursday. I was trapped in my head for a bit. I wanted to cry and i felt the sui thoughts which i havent felt since i got out of depression 5 months ago. But i didnt stay
(7) Having a few thoughts about a few people and im doing well not overthinking too much or letting it get to me. Can't give it power. One day things will make sense. For now let me focus on the now .
28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29(8) Need to work ten times harder for a specific goal that i want to achieve. Im trying to not think too much about it or get anxious but i believe that goal is possible if i plan it well.Expensive though30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter31(8) I don't like people that dismiss peoples mental health as though its not a real or serious thing. Especially when they bring religion into it. Really annoys me but ohwells.
February
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17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19(5) Slightly upset and emotional. Something i have always kind of known for years but finally being told makes me want to burst out crying. Why should i cry ? its not terrible. I just don't like the news20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter21(6) Solid 8 still with mental state big achievement. Mood atm is just a 6. Working on self discipline to reach my goals. I'm working hard but atm not enough because of certain emotions and feelin drained22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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March
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2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(8) It's been a very interesting couple of weeks. Met some people i never want to see again lool. But the experience must have been there for a reason with lesson.
(8) Saw a post on my ex's friends story of my ex and his new gf i shouldnt have clicked on it but was curious.Did it hurt? Not really lol.it made me feel weird and think a bit but wow i've healed soo much
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9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13(8) I stopped replying to someone who is friends with my friends. He puts me in a negative feeling mood. He doesn't know me but he tried to get in my personal space , trying to date me
(6) This covid virus thing is giving me some anxiety with the way its popping up on my phone and news every minute every day. I actually hate reading the news. It is well
14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15(6) Felt a bit low in energy today.mood wasn't terrible but it wasn't great either.
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23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter25(6) I keep overthinking things...26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29(8) 5months depression free for first time in my history of depression since around age 12. Proper celebrating this achievement daily. As it usually comes back within a month or 2 of getting better.so yay
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April
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6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7No Reasons8(8) Was working on one of my goals that i have been working on for a while now and i felt defeated with the progress and i know this particular goal takes time. I always feel excited to work on it then9No Reasons10No Reasons11No Reasons12No Reasons
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20No Reasons21No Reasons22No Reasons23No Reasons24No Reasons25(8) Note to self:I need to stop torturing myself by checking things that no longer serve me and that is tied with painful memories that leaves me feeling upset.If i love myself i wouldn't hurt myself :)
(8) Note to self : stop giving alot of your energy to people. Being nice is good but there's a balance. Protecting my energy is a must. Its horrible when you start to attach yourself to some friendships
(8) Note to self : stop giving alot of your energy to people. Being nice is good but there's a balance. Protecting my energy is a must. Its horrible when you start to attach yourself to some friendships
(8) Note to self : stop giving alot of your energy to people. Being nice is good but there's a balance. Protecting my energy is a must. Its horrible when you start to attach yourself to some friendships
(8) Slow progress in what i've been training in and its exciting because i know i will reach that goal soon. Its something that takes time to reach but I'm proud that i've stayed consistent.
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27(8) A couple Eureka moments today :)
(8) A couple Eureka moments today :)
(8) Very exciting to learn and i love that i have no deadlines for it. Ive picked out a few things i want to learn and build skills on and i would have never thought i would be doing anything of these
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May
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    1No Reasons2(8) My room will never be messy again and if it is, it won't be messy for days/weeks etc I will be on top of it. Mind is clearer, Happier. Mental health is so stable that i am able to maintain a tidy room3No Reasons
4No Reasons5(6) Worrying about too many things aswell as what is happening in the world trying not to worry but it triggers some anxiety attacks.trying not to think too much about things and about my craft.
(6) Noticing some unhealthy thought patterns that I've had since young. I think stressful situations whether its literally not a big deal to it being a big deal. It leads my thoughts to harmful things.
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11(8) Couple habits I've been sticking to. Now i have implemented new habits to add to them and so far so good. And whenever i feel a slight feeling of low i go for a walk to not allow this lockdown to
(8) Spoke to my best friend today and we both got excited with the plans we have made. Plans we spoke about for so many years that we never did and now its time and its happening soon as we can meet up.:)
(8) Spoke to my best friend today and we both got excited with the plans we have made. Plans we spoke about for so many years that we never did and now its time and its happening soon as we can meet up.:)
12No Reasons13No Reasons14No Reasons15(7) Woke up feeling off today did less today cause of it but I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
(7) The main thing that crosses my mind daily without fail needs to actually go away. These same thoughts/memories haven't failed to miss a day. The day it reduces and even stops i will be more at peace.
(8) Today i realised that those thoughts and memories that occupies my mind daily has had a little change,more in the way it appears. I wouldn't feel any type of way if i hear news that would have hurt
(8) 'Sometimes the fear won't go away so you'll have to do it afraid' I have anxiety towards certain plans i have and would love to do. I am slowly working on those things and the anxiety is
16No Reasons17(8) Practised some things today. Was a bit frustrating at times but was patient with it. By the end of this year i should be very advanced in it.
18(8) My friend wanted to meet up today, we aren't friends like that just someone i know. I don't feel peaceful around this person. I go to the park to keep my mental state well and just to enjoy nature but19(8) I did my hair by myself today i find it hard to cornrow but the cornrow doesnt matter as itl be covered up. the hair came out nice. At first wasn't sure i liked it then i realised i needed to do more
(8) I have been consistent for 2 months with my flexibility routine. Finally! Last year i was consistent weekly some times daily some times a couple times a week but this year its been everyday yaay.
20(6) My energy level was so low today. I went for a walk the day before and it drained me so didnt even feel like going out today. I ended up going for my walk around 9pm when it was cooler. Defo needed it21(6) My energy levels spiritually,mentally and physically felt a bit low today. And tonight ive been having little anxiety pains in my chests.22No Reasons23No Reasons24(6) I wish i had a place i could go to like the library or something atleast cause i feel the worst energy around my sister for weeks now. Im finding her energy quite negative. She hasnt done anything
25No Reasons26No Reasons27(6) Mood isn't bad but i noticed myself feeling a bit down today.I need to gain more confidence within myself. Defo seen improvements throughout the years. I believe in myself i just need to tackle things28No Reasons29(6) It felt like i was about to have a relapse. I messaged my friend but i didnt want to type it because i didnt want it to be real. After i typed it all out i deleted it before he could read it.30No Reasons31(6) Today was good but I noticed someone kept asking me questions/watching me and it felt uncomfortable. Not trying to think too deep into it but energy doesn't lie. Whatever it was i was feeling from her
June
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1No Reasons2No Reasons3No Reasons4(6) Working on the many thoughts that are occupying my mind randomly daily.Slowly releasing traumatic events/memories.I see growth in myself.Felt upset today about a few thoughts but its not taken over me
(7) Went through my old backed up files on my phone. Saw screenshots from messages from people having a go at me i deleted it because i don't need to see that. I read one about me telling a group chat
5(7) Going with the flow instead of searching for certain things. Still have alot of healing to do...already know this but i just deeped it even more.6(6) I feel good but I can also feel a deep pain inside me that I'm dealing with. Trying to be patient and to not be too hard on myself. Its like a few things I'm working on is making me feel disheartened.7(5)
8No Reasons9No Reasons10(6) Not angry but not in the mood. I need time by myself.
(5) Really need to work on overthinking. Its not healthy. I don't want to give power to things that are not even worth being sad or having anxiety over.
11No Reasons12No Reasons13(8) 12th june :Happy to say that I had the best birthday ever for the first time ever. I read what i wrote last year and it was horrible. I cried last year i felt suicidal and for the previous years too.14No Reasons
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22(5) Was worrying last night too much about something. Googled it and made it worse. I hate Google sometimes. I slept late worrying and searching. Woke up feeling worried still. But wasnt as bad as last23No Reasons24No Reasons25(6) I feel a little bit overwhelmed. And i also want to distance myself from a friend that i have realised is very sly and also doesn't know how to treat people that are important.26(5) Can't explain what i am feeling but i really need to work on my anxiety and believe in myself. Its time to really love every aspect of my self. Fully love it not just at random times then doubt things27(6) Doubting myself and worrying
(5) Still worrying.
28(5) I felt so uncomfortable today. She was really nice but my energy doesn't feel comfy around her my mental state felt off. Then when i met the other people my soul felt free and even though i was
(3) Never want to feel like that again. A room full of people who are not welcoming. I could hear some girls talking about other girls behind their back. People they don't even know.
29No Reasons30(5) My head feels a bit tight and usually when it feels like this im losing my self mentally. I feel really off and unbalanced but i still have control so thats better than nothing. Doing yoga before bed.
(5) Working with my long time favourite artist tomorrow. Not that excited cause how i feel mentally but i do feel very grateful cause i never expected years ago to see this day.
(5) Had a mini depressive episode last night :( and felt mini anxiety attacks when i tried to sleep