6 avg
  147 days
  522 hugs
  14 followers
January
MTWTFSS
 1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter31To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
February
MTWTFSS
    1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28(4) Back on here again... i feel so much pain but its not too much that i can't handle it. But why do i need to handle it cant it just heal and leave me for good.. i hate feeling like this...
March
MTWTFSS
    1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6(5) Learning to let things go and stop being hard on my self for different outcomes in situations
(2) I like solitude and i dislike giving people the chance to get close to me because sometimes certain peoples energies have a bad effect on me. I shouldn't feel drained. I choose wisely who to be around
(6) Wanted to cancel work today that involves public speaking infront of school kids. The anxiety made me almost not go but i did it again and im happy im facing my fears. Still scary sometimes though.
7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12(1) Why are my dreams at night reminding me of a painful situation.really hurts and it just shows i haven't healed from it that its still in my subconscious. I pray i heal and use the pain to push me more
(6) I pray i can reach the hardest goals ive found hard to complete in the past. I know this year it is possible, i can feel it.
13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17(5) I've been stable for months now. Little to no depression just random mini episodes but no full blown ones. Im grateful. I just need to get my spark back and full energy because i feel like 60% good
18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter31To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
April
MTWTFSS
1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11(2) I'm so confused on why depression just keeps hitting me. I want it to stop
(0)
12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14(1) I'm tired of this pain. Actively trying to fight depression as usual but i don't think i can fight it as much for now. I need to just rest and do what i can daily. I really need help :(
(1) Its been about 13 years of fighting depression im 22 now. I mean its not as bad as it used to be so im grateful for that but its still depression and its still bad and no one should suffer with it :(
15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17(5) Still feeling this pain but just grateful it hasn't disabled me from doing things this time round. Usually i can't do anything. Im able to do things while feeling the pain. Leave my house, work etc18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
29To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
May
MTWTFSS
  1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter21To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter31To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
June
MTWTFSS
     1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13(3) I have never had a birthday with a peace of mind. Yesterday i cried i felt worthless even though i was shown alot of love. I couldnt take the pain within me it felt too much.14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter21(5) I wish i could find out the core root to my depression so i can eliminate it for good.i'mlooking forward to when i get better again but in the meantime i just have to cope. It shouldn't be like this22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23(5) Finding it hard to concentrate,sleep, and do the things i could easily do before. This feeling is familiar and it hit me 2 weeks ago. Was coping alright till i felt this.I'm tired of feeling like this
(5) I'm kind of worried that i'll have to deal with depression forever.I see it as a blessing and a curse for various reasons.I wonder when ill be fine again this year..looking forward to win this fight..
24(8) Been feeling numb here and there with my emotions. My beautiful friend met up with me and i value her so much for taking time out to be there for me in dark times. I can call in her in a crisis.
(2) I have to take out 2 teeths and im terrified i never thought i would get to this point. Trying not to let it make my mood worse. It's really not the end of the world but it feels like it is sometimes.
(9) Just went for a 3lap jog with my sister.I feel like im about to come out of depression soon. Jogging has been the most effective tool in fighting it for years.im super active but jogging wins
(10) I can't wait for my mind to be clear again and to be able to concentrate better.To feel real emotions again and to be excited to wake up every morning , to love living on this earth.
25(6) Had a chat with my Dad today and it was nice to hear the things he said. Feels like it healed a few things within me. I still feel low but i appreciated the conversation. I pray for the best
(5) I'm Really really really really doing my best to survive these storms. Maybe my best isn't good enough. What lifestyle changes do i need? Hmm I know i lack sleep but i find it hard to fall asleep
26(5) 'If I quit now, I will soon be back to where I started. And when I started I was desperately wishing to be where I am now' this quote spoke to me today
(6) I was venting with my friend about a painful situation as soon as i was done a song came up on the tv that is hundred percent linked to what i spoke of. Its a song that was played 4 years ago that
27(9) At a certain point today i felt like 68% of myself . I could think properly, could speak better and my mind felt clear. Things made sense again. I noticed when i started to slowly go down hill and i
(7) I need to be grateful for everything i have . I forget in bad storms about gratitude.I mean its not my fault,it's quite hard to think positively in the different levels of depression that i experience
(7) First time i could focus at mindfulness class. My mind still wandered as it should. I took in more this time. I would love to know how to understand the mind so well to be able to control it.
(5) Woke up feeling uninterested in my day. It really should be exciting but I'm not interested. I feel to stop investing in my self for a while and take time out to breathe. That way i can save money too
28(2) Am i bad for not wanting to fake smile and fake being happy in todays moments? Having a family outing and i didn't want to go...i don't want to be the dark clouded person there. I decided to go29To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
July
MTWTFSS
1(10) Almost gave up today, really couldn't see a way to cope. the fight in me came back at 5:30pm hopefully i can get back to my early routines again and healthier mind. Im just glad i didn't give up.
(10) I hope the same energy i have right now doesn't change again tomorrow.Im not at my best but im just grateful i feel better than i did all day.My room needs tidying its really reflecting how my mind is
(9) Im starting to think i need to spend winter seasons in another country because it might be playing a huge part in my mental health but i have important work . Soon as october hits i might need to
2(6) A good start today had enough sleep ,up and ready for my day. Mood is ok but im ready to fight through. Started taking vitamin d tablets again as i know im lacking alot of it cause of this country3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4(6) Was a productive day today. I didn't struggle too much mentally today but i did stress about some work im trying to do. Im not sure if its good enough its slightly making me panic. I'll be fine
(7) My friend said some really kind words to me just now. I really need to digest those words and see those things in myself. Depression will never win and i do have alot to offer to this world for sure.
(7) Thinking about the things i can achieve from now till december. I think this year ive really taken alot of time for myself and ive pushed through alot even though my mind tries to hold me down.
5(5) My day started off well...i ate on time...i exercise and got tasks done. Towards the ending it turned abit and my mood changed. And it really affected the rest of my day there were too many
(5) I am stronger than i think . I can do this. Nothing can stop me. Let me see all of the pain as a challenge that i can overcome. I felt like breaking down today but i came out strong. I told my mum
(8) Shout out to all the pandas on here that are going through their own different walks in life. I pray that you all get through all the difficult challenges you all face and come out on top.?
(9) I didn't want to go somewhere today. I wasn't sure if i could handle it. I was extra early so used that time to breathe and pray. And it went well. I really feel more powerful with my mind now.
6(5) I have alot to figure out. I woke up at a good time then overslept because i didn't want to deal with the things running through my mind. My mood wasn't the best. Im still in bed right now. I sh
(5) My i don't always function well during depression times. Im functioning better now that i can feel myself getting back to myself but one of my friends today made a couple jokes everytime i muddled my
7(5) Lost hope soon as i woke up. That's ok though its part of the process . I've just got to keep going . Its mad how my main struggle is my mind. I wonder what i'd be like if it was all great up there.
8(6) I need to be strict about what times i sleep and wake up. Its hard to sleep and its hard to get up in the morning. Im just going to jump out of bed from now on and force myself with love to be on task
(3) Didn't eat properly today. Too many negative things were swirling through my mind and i gave up in trying today. I really couldn't get out of my head. Just wanted to give up.
9(4) I don't know how to be here anymore. I feel a mixture of negativity and positivity. I don't know how to shake off the negative thoughts because it just feels like whats the point of me even trying10(6) Grateful that im in a better mental state in this moment. I woke up feeling like leaving this world and now im ready to fight again. Its really a journey. Im not happy with the way i keep fluctuating11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12(5) Slightly bummed been waiting for counselling for a while now and finally got the letter to contact them. They now booked an appointment with me that's in 2months and that's only an assessment.13(5) Tidying my room again and thinking of changes i can make in my life to improve. Also thinking of ways to think differently.
(5) Went for a walk and realised there's a couple things i haven't fully let go of because once it crosses my mind it affects how i feel. I don't know how to let go of these things tbh and i can't rush it
14(5) I really prayed last night for something and it literally came true today. Im amazed by it. Im still overthinking alot but i feel some sort of peace from it but not fully at peace. I just need to
(5) Today was a good day. I was struggling internally i had to pinch/squeeze my self a couple times on the sly when i felt the mental tension where i felt i couldn't cope.I'm just glad i got through it
15To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17(8) I actually felt in control today. I woke up and cancelled my plans and spent my day resting and practising some music and just being in the park. Its as though something in my mind was a little more
(8) In a good place mentally today. Feeling inspired too :)
18(7) Had a nice catch up with my friend I've known for years. I feel that we both benefited from it.
(8) Its raining outside and im so excited by it. I feel like i haven't been in a good headspace to feel and appreciate it in a while. I slightly want to stay indoors just so i can watch it from my window.
19(5) I feel bad for not attending an important event today and i didn't feel like explaining my reasons. I won't be attending anyones events this week. I can't force things and i don't want to have to.
(5) Been overthinking way too much..... things will get better and all the bad things I've created in my mind will not happen..Amen
20(5) I have to keep reminding me self that i'll be fine. Even if that feeling of hope strikes me for a couple mins per day.....
(5) Waiting to have that Eureka moment
21(4)
22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23(5)
(5)
24(5) 25(5) 26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27(4) Went for a mini jog and tried to be still for some moments in the park to inhale nature. I didn't feel any better but i must have got some benefit from it.28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
29(10)
(10)
30(10) Saw something i didn't need to see. I'm ok with it but it slightly hurts. I can say i am stronger in this present moment
(9)
31(7) Working on sleep pattern
(8)
August
MTWTFSS
   1(5) Trying not to miss meals2(5) 3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
5(4) My mental state is literally all over the place.Im really enjoying dream land more than reality.my days are just going to waste. I can't struggle internally like this forever.when will i get better :(6(0) 7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9(5) I want to live in my dreams, i can control it better than my mind in reality.10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
12(4) 13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14(4) 15(4) Today was such a struggle i could hardly speak. I was really avoiding communicating with people without looking anti social. I'm trying to understand why im finding it hard to speak.16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter18To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
19(6) Today turned out better than i expected. I was not looking forward to anything but i am grateful i got through it.i still struggled internally but i was in a better mental state.
(5) 'You are capable of handling more than you think. Challenge yourself more often'
20(5) Has anyone ever felt a numb, heavy feeling on one side of their whole face and head as if its tensed up? My anxiety has been high lately so im just thinking its the anxiety that's caused that.21(7) Hope is all i can hold on to22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23(6) I need to make a schedule and stick to it. My days haven't been structured for months now because of my mental health. I need to slowly get my self back up because i want to be here although i've been24To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter25(7) I'm not back to myself yet but i am feeling alot better. My thoughts aren't driving me crazy. I can see a reason to live. I'm hardly in my bed as much. Once i am better, and i know i will be, i need
26To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28(7) Proud of myself for not giving up. I will figure things out soon. I should be having therapy soon.
(7) Worrying too much about different things. Mood is in a decent place. I feel a lost, as though i don't know what to do with my self. I have alot of great things to do but it all involves people and atm
29(7) Going to try a few techniques today while i am out. 478 breathing. My body language more open than closed up. Im going to not think about how bad today might feel for me internally but how great the30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter31To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
September
MTWTFSS
      1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4(5) I hate waking up with no drive anymore. One part of me knows ill be back to myself soon and another part just doesn't care to hold on no more. I find it sad.I'm still here though so there must be hope5(5) This month should be good6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7(6) Stepped out today and i felt good, everything looked clear again. I had a clear mind. I didn't feel on the edge, i looked well and felt well. It lasted for a while but i started to lose control again
(5)
(6) Couldn't get out of bed today. I missed a couple things i needed to attend. It was either attend it or get a cancellation fee i had to just cancel and get charged because i couldn't get myself up.
8(6)
9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10(6)
(6) I'm blessed to have a friend that wants to help eachother grow.
(5) I keep reliving past negative experiences in my mind. I'm not sure how to fully let go :(
11(6) 12(4) Today's the day i've been dreading. I hope i can see the light of today and that it doesn't cause me any after effect problems. This is one of the things that made me more low. I hope i recover fast.13(6) Today's the actual day i've been dreading ,yesterday was just the consultation. It turned out ok just in pain now. Its bearable pain but for some reason my mental state seems better than it was before
(4)
14(4) All i do is try to fight my self to a better mental health. I keep thinking negatively and panicking to a point where i think i'll be like this for life. I really can't see my future in these moments15(6) It took me till the night time to feel motivated. I learnt some new things and i am excited to carry on learning tomorrow. I am trying to teach myself a few things and seeing progress excites me.
16(7) Just finished learning some more things. I am satisfed :) . I can sleep now knowing that i have accomplished alot today. Also did some tidying up in my room. I hope i wake up feeling good.
(6) I woke up feeling fine today Amen. I believe i have also healed better so will rest today so when i have work tomorrow i will be fully rested for a busy week
(6) Today wasn't bad at all , i learnt more things. Slightly worrying about how tomorrow and the whole week will go but it'll be fine.
17(6) Today wasn't too bad the first half was fine the second half wasn't that great but it was more me than anything. Everything on the outside was running smooth but internally i didn't feel great.18(6) Had a meaningful dream. I feel good about today :)19(8) I feel fine right now. Yesterday i felt defeated internally and i didn't know who to call in that time when i felt like i couldn't be here. Today i missed a few things at the start of the day but20(5) Not being able to speak sometimes is very frustrating. I don't fully understand what it is. Is it social anxiety or something else?21No Reasons22No Reasons
23No Reasons24(6) Moods in a stable place. Feeling a little bit lost though. Anxiety levels are not too bad. It was a busy week and the only thing holding me back was my mind. Work could have been fun for me but25(6) Today wasn't bad at all. Feeling optimistic and trying to figure things out aswell as letting things flow.26No Reasons27No Reasons28No Reasons29No Reasons
30(6) I've been alright...
October
MTWTFSS
 1(6) Feeling frustrated with myself.2No Reasons3No Reasons4(6) I've been in a better mental state for a while now. I'm not 100 percent there yet but I'm not going crazy anymore. Less thoughts of sui and overall less negative thoughts. Those thoughts were not mine
(6) Did some clothes shopping today. Been putting my money towards only my goals and dreams for a while now . Today's the first time in a year and a bit that i have treated myself to updating my wardrobe
(7) I felt good at work today. I'm starting to feel my energy coming back . Im going to go for a walk in the park to take in this feeling in. I also feel comfortable being outside. Theres little to no
5No Reasons6No Reasons
7No Reasons8(6) Its crazy how i'm fluctuating back and fourth but i just have to fight it. Not in the mood to fight it atm. It's draining! Came back home yesterday and cried, i found it hard to be ok within.9No Reasons10No Reasons11(7) Won't give up no matter what. Unstoppable12(7) I've stepped out more and accepted more work regardless of how i feel. Its only easier to do so now because there's stability within myself. Its still a struggle but im moving in the right direction.13No Reasons
14No Reasons15(6) Feeling a little bit of pressure to put myself out there again with my craft but i don't feel ready. Im literally feeling better than i did a few weeks /months ago but i personally feel like there's16No Reasons17(7) Feeling optimistic. Also finally having the therapy session I've waited months for next week. It's just the assessment appointment. I needed them more weeks/months ago, i survived it all without18(7) I pray that all the investments I'm making for myself/goals and dreams pays off. ?19No Reasons20(7) Been a refreshing day so far. I think from end of september till now i have been in a decent place mentally. Its only just getting better. Glad to be alive.
(6) Feeling a little bit low and i can see what changed my mood. I understand it and I'm not going to let it ruin my progress but i won't suppress how i feel either. I need to get stronger so that
(7) 'Nobody needs to prove to anybody what they're worthy of, just the person that they look at in the mirror. That's the only person you need to answer to.' --Picabo Street
21(7) Good day today. I am getting back into the flow of things but taking my time aswell so its all at a good pace.22(7) Optimistic23No Reasons24(8) Good day today. :) tomorrow is my therapy assessment finally. Been such a long wait. I pray they can help me i don't want to keep going through this all the time. Im alot better now though25(7) Had my mental health assessment today it went well. I didn't feel rushed to explain what happens to me mentally. I left feeling good. However i now have to wait months again for the therapy to start.26(7) Self disciplining myself. One thing I've done is kept my room tidy its usually so messy and just proves how my room has been a reflection of my mind. Everytime i tidy it it never stays tidy.27No Reasons
28(7) It was a good day today, had enough meals. Sleep pattern is still bad but still getting enough hours. Understanding my mental health better. In a better state so i have the power to control my self
(8) Good day today. Great improvement in a skill im learning. No negative thoughts :)
29(7) I feel a little bit off with my energy/mood. I know whats made me feel a bit sad so i can deal with it. Its nothing even major but i understand why it makes me feel like that.30(5) When i had my mental health assessment the other day. I was told to try and notice my triggers that it could be the smallest things that builds up and then takes me to that dark place. I agree but i
(6) Woke up feeling different not bad and not great. I think im just nervous about where im going today and tomorrow too. There's actually nothing to be nervous about but i understand my thought process
(8) Today went well. I had nothing to worry about. I was almost late but things turned around in my favour and ending up being right on time. I met amazing people who had great energies. My brain didnt
31(5) Started my day early then after things went well at first i felt sick because i missed lunch because i had to rush so i won't be late. Got there and they were very late because a few things went wrong
November
MTWTFSS
    1(5) Feeling less sick from yesterday. Training got cancelled in the morning which is good because i was still feeling really sick. Now its not too bad so i can eat something now and get ready for work.
(5) I think i have food poisoning that's why ive been feeling sick. Its not a really bad case of it so im blessed. I just need to be extra careful where i buy food from. Hope im ok by tomorrow morning
2(4) Feeling worthless, i know i am not but i just feel that way right now. I don't know what to do about this feeling right now. I understand why i am feeling like this which is helpful for me. Im feeling3(6) Feeling a bit better today. It's going to be a long day today so i hope things go smooth and my energy levels stay stable. I am happy today is the last day that im going because i don't have the
(5) I started my day in a decent mood but towards the end its in a place where i feel a bit fragile. Had a few thoughts of sui but im in control still so im grateful im not in those thoughts. I haven't
4(5) Not too bad today. Started my day off with negative thoughts. Slightly tired i hope for a better day tomorrow.5(4) Not feeling the best right now. Just gotta get through work and after i can go for a walk and chat to myself.
(4) Very irritable. I just want to drown right now. I felt like i couldn't breathe. I didn't feel comfortable infront of my friend shes amazing but whatever is going on in my head just made me feel like i
6No Reasons7(5) Making a step to solving one of the things that hinders me in my life. I don't want to allow me to hinder me but i hardly have control over it so hope i get some answers and help soon.8(5) Today was not too bad. I felt low a couple times today but i felt better around the evening. In the morning i was thinking about traumatic events and i was very paranoid about it all but i have hope
(6) Made a step towards an investment within myself that will benefit me so muchhh. It's going to be a big achievement for me from taking this step.
9No Reasons10(6) Completed a good amountof things today. I need to stop being hard on myself. And i need to becareful of negative and unhealthy thoughts.
11(6) Today was a good day. I can't sleep yet cause i just keep thinking about different things,mainly of the things i believe i can achieve, so i am excited. Also having unhealthy thoughts because of the
(6) I'm doing fine but the thoughts of being a bad person is in my head again. I can't shake the feeling away its affected my mood a lil bit but im fine. I just need to remind myself that i am not bad.
12No Reasons13(6) Feeling optimistic. Slightly tired cause i keep sleeping late. I really believe in timing and i am not in a rush. I sometimes want to rush things but on due time things will fall into place.14(7) There's a huge rush of excitement in me today. I've visualised alot of things that i can see myself doing, i just have to start. Well i've already started but just gotta push through it all.15(7) Today was a reallu good day. Work was good. My mind felt clearer. My speech wasn't bad i had a few problems getting words out but it wasn't a problem. I felt a bit sick on the train though it felt16(6) Had a great day today. Bumped into someone from the past. I wish this person the best. I'll never wish bad upon anyone but its hard to genuinely feel happy or be able to be at peace with someone that17No Reasons
18(7) I can almost say i am healed mentally from all the mental torments. The depression, the paranoia, the anxiety etc. Im doing more things again now that i can function. Im really going at the right pace19No Reasons20(7) Things don't really bug me anymore. Im starting to like someone after a long time not allowing my self to because of my mental health being in the red zone. Thats a good sign but i feel to stay clear21(7) Life is looking different ? the colours are really popping now the greys from depression have subsided. Thank God22No Reasons23(7) I haven't been to church for a whole till recently and i carried on believing in God even without going to church. If i feel off in this new church im out. I don't like the one sided debates and24No Reasons
25(7) Slightly triggered by someone saying my mental illness is gone when i know where i am at with it. Im literally so much better now again like it gets every years. But im tracking myself and maintaining26No Reasons27(8) Good days but alot tired recently. Its definitely the cold weather.28No Reasons29(8) I feel great.
(8) Im getting closer to a goal that i have that has been tied to fear but i've been working slowly towards it.
30No Reasons
December
MTWTFSS
      1(8) Feeling grateful :)
(8) Really protecting my energy. Staying away from people that my soul doesn't feel right around. Things are really working out.
(8) I am more than enough!?
2No Reasons3(8) I feel great?
(8) Someone said to me that the last time i suffered with depression and anxiety this year. Will be the last time! I hope so cause i cannot go through it again yearly. I can't !!!!! Anyways i am grateful
4(10) Todayyy was an amazing dayyyyyy. It felt like a stepping stone to greater things.5No Reasons6(8) I've been on a quest to sort out my speech difficulties for years. Finally started speech therapy and i just cancelled. Its alot of money which i am willing to invest in ive already paid alot but i
(8) Feeling exhausted. Hope to wake up recharged.
7No Reasons8(9) Great day today. Inspired and met some cool people. Had real discussions. Such a vibe
(8) Need alone time from people. I don't think ill be going back to church. Im not even allowed to eat a banana during service. Bearing in mind its about 5 -6 hours of service. Im already lacking iron
(8) Need alone time from people. I don't think ill be going back to church. Im not even allowed to eat a banana during service. Bearing in mind its about 5 -6 hours of service. Im already lacking iron
9No Reasons10No Reasons11(9) Everything is good. I was able to control how i felt about a situation without it bringing me down. Or having unnecessary thoughts that i am bad or something when thats not the case. I just need to be
(9) Everything is good. I was able to control how i felt about a situation without it bringing me down. Or having unnecessary thoughts that i am bad or something when thats not the case. I just need to be
12No Reasons13No Reasons14No Reasons15No Reasons
16No Reasons17No Reasons18No Reasons19No Reasons20No Reasons21No Reasons22No Reasons
23No Reasons24No Reasons25No Reasons26No Reasons27No Reasons28No Reasons29No Reasons
30No Reasons31No Reasons