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March
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4(4) Everybody is allowed to do anything anytime except for me! I always get punished for EVERYTHING I DO ???????
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5(1) Slept less than 4,5h because of my awesome neighbours.
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7(2) The pills do not work for me. At all.
(6) Not sad but very demotivated and lack of inspiration and discipline.
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(2) Living with other people is hard when you have mental issues. Now i locked myself up in the bedroom so no one has to deal with my demons. Im very angry and i dont know why
(0) I hate myself
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(8) Today was nice. Did a lot around the house. Inner peace.
12(4) Anxiety for whats to come.13(8)
(2) I always wonder why I clean... nobody seems to respect that
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14(4) I have everything what i need to be happy but i dont feel happy. I dont trust myself. I dont trust my feelings. Dont know how to deal with myself or other people. I hate people including me.
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(1) I want it to stop :'(
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(1) just cut myself tho i promised myself i wouldnt do it anymore :”( just want every1 to leave me alone for some time so i can grow and work on myself in peace. Everything and every1 is pushing my limits
(4) Have come to realise that i overreacted. Again. But at those panickmoments, it does feel like an apocalyps.
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(1) Its my birthday and i am cancelling everything because, of course, i slept less than 4 hours because i had plans for the day.
(0) FUCK MY LIFE
21(2) Very annoyed and irritated. Lack of self confidence.
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(1) I do everything wrong, all the time, in everyones eyes
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(5) I want to go outside but i have no money, no transport and no friends lol
(6) Listening to Gorillaz while doing creative stuff
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28(6) No meds: but busy, good mood and good music in the background29(5) 30(6) 31(4)
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April
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1(5) Due to the meds i have a constant feeling of hunger and foodcravings. Already gained 2,5 kgs in two weeks... ugh
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(8) I love spring!!
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3(6) 4(6) 5(5) 6(8) Goodmorning x7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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(4) Will i ever be functional? Or “normal” enough to join the world?
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16(2) Took a Dominal at 5:00 . Its now 6.30 and still not sleeping
(7) I love my mom, she always knows how and when to cheer me up
(7) Nighty night
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(3) My boyfriend is home from work dor three days now and my dog suddenly decided not to listen to me anymore.
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(8) Feeling peaceful
23(2) :”( sometimes when im feeling better i get this thought of all my mental problems being solved. But then it hits me. Im still not okay. Im still weird and i still have mental issues. What a mo(u)rning
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(4) At first i was sceptic, then i started to believe the pills were working but now i just had a nervous breakdown and im doubting that the pills work. I think i made lyself believe that they worked...
24(8) I went groceryshopping all by myself and i survived. Yesss!
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25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter26(5) Ive always been told im an angry girl. How can i be less angry? I just dont know. I hate everything. Got hurt too much. 27 years old now and still angry about everything. I cant forgive. I cant forget
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(5) My mood is okay but my body says “bleghhhrh”
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(6) Having an off day but i'm not feeling depressed. Im just not motivated to do anything and crave for sweet foods and chocolate.
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June
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3(3) Im not happy
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5(5) 6(2) I have a lot of pain in my hip and ive been awake for 24 hours now due to the combination of pain and noisy neighbours. Every time i start falling asleep they make a loud noise
(2) Aaaaaand we're back with depression again.
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7(1) Cant sleep again.
(0) I cant
(3) Finally slept a little.
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(7) Feeling energetic Also very hungry :-D
(8) Icecream
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(5) I cant stop eating
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(5) I feel heartbroken for no reasons
(5) I cant tell my depressions, manias (and, or) hypomanias apart. Does someone have any advice for me?
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14(4) Binge eating
(4) Cant sleep
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15(3) Stupid noisy loud ass neighbours
(6) I just harvested my first and only strawberry :-)
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16(1) Im so angry with people, i could kill one or two.
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(5) Calmed down
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17(2) I guess im in depression mode rn. Cant seem to be happy about anything and feeling overall sadness and anger. I wonder when hypomania shows up again.
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19(1) Im such a bitch :”(
(5) The bullied became the bully. I get into fights and discussions with all the people i live with and every where I go i get into trouble.
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(3) Bored, demotivated
21(2) Goodmorning again. Woke up at 05.30 thanks to the asshole neighbours!!22(4)
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(7) I dont know why or how but I feel really good ? aint complaining
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(5) Bad sleep and nightmares.
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July
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6(7) Had a good nights sleep and dreamt a lot
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7(5) Facebook is such a toxic platform.I always think ppl dont like me in real life bcause they dont add me as a friend on facebook. I know its pathetic but cant help it. It makes me feel unsure about myse
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8(5) I always sleep very bad when i have an appointment the next day. These are the moments i need sleep the most so i can reload. I guess i cant even have that
(3) Out of bed for only half an hour and im already pissed and depressed
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13(1) I always sleep bad and too short when its weekend14(6)
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15(4) Everybody i once knew hates me now
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(6) Sweet dreams, nighty night
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(4) Feeling friendless
(4) I cant find a pattern in my moodswings. It makes me so unsure about everything. I can never plan stuff.
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October
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 1(5) Cant stop bingeing
(7) My dog is in a very good mood so that makes me happy too ?
2(7) Slept for 10hrs straight :-)
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(7) It was a nice Autumn day :-)
3(6) Nervous
(8) My therapist accidentally put two sessions for two different people at the same time ? so i moved my appointment to next week. but thats ok, I had a very productive day today and im feeling happy
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4(8) I dont think Ive ever been happy for such a “long” period. Im grateful for it, but there is this little anxiety for whats to come next5(6) 6(5) 2 friends are ignoring my messenges for over a week now. I dont know why or what i did wrong and im afraid to ask because maybe its nothing and im overreacting again
(5) Sometimes i feel like everyone is allowed to critique me and I have to just deal with it but when I have some critique, I feel like Im not allowed to say it.
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(9) Ive found a house with a little garden for rent, for less money than we pay for our small apartment right now. And i have an appointment this Thursday with the owner to come and take a look ? yay!
9(6) Nervous, I ate to much today, Can t sleep. But feeling ok10(6) 11(8) 12(7) 13(7) One whole month without feeling depressed or having extreme anxiety :-) :-) !
(7) Its a very productive day today i love it
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14(5) 15(5) I can be such a weird douchebag sometimes
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16(4) Been sleeping bad for 7 days in a row and its starting to take its toll
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(5) I got called lazy while Im the only one doing chores around the house.
17(3) Angry but as always I gotta keep it to myself and act like everything is ok.
(4) Not in the mood for today
(6) Talked things out a bit
18(7) Had a much better day than yesterday. :)
(7) Listening to good music. I randomly made a mini-sofa that would be awesome for a guineapig or sth i dunno. Feeling funky
19(5) With me its always to much or nothing at all. I , again, overreacted this morning
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22(6) Was feeling sad earlier but ok now :-)23(6) 24(6) 25(1)
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(5) Cancelled all my appointments for today. Stomache still hurts but feeling calm in my head.
(2) Calmth is gone. One of those appointments I canceled was very important and today was the deadline
November
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(3) I miss my pet bunny so much, its been 1,5 yrs but it still hurts. He was a true friend for almost 8yrs.. he always gave me fistbumps with his cute little nose... i love him still. My sweet Sam ??
5(2) Cant sleep. Yet again when I have an appointment the next day. Great! ?
(5) Stress
(4) Everytime when I have these obligations and appointments I need to get to, my body refuses in all ways possible, pain, anxiety, cramps, stress, hyperventilation, bad or no sleep at all, depression, ..
(0) I canceled the new important appointments today :”( now i have risk having to pay a debt and what more... :”( i already canceled before and passed the deadline last Thursday... i hate myself so much
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6(2) I made a new appointment for tomorrow and today apparently someone canceled that appointment, i dont know who, i dont know why, all i know is that Im stressed even more now
(5) Apparently everything is fixed now. Ok then. Thank you.. i did not suspect this at all. Sometimes i think the whole world s against me but apparently there are some good people too. Thank you ?
(6) Happy :)
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(6) Cant sleep
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(7) Though I unwillingly skipped a night of sleep, im feeling better than the days before ????
(6) I read a very serious message from a Panda yesterday but I cant find it anymore and I dont know the name. Im worried. I really hope everything is ok x
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(8) Im baking speculoos and the house smells amazing!
9(7) 10(1) Very bad sleep, very bad mood, been hitting myself, hating everyone. Out of pills.
(1) I dont think I can ever go to work again
(4) Have been watching an Emma Watson interview and my faith in humanity has restored. Still feeling a little numb though
(7) Yay :)
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(5) I wish I never made enemies with my neighbours in this apartment building. the biggest part of the problem here is me
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(7) Bulletjournaling :)
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14(0) Why do I never sleep when Ihave planned something the other day!!! I'm so sick of it!!!!!!!!
(1) I absolutely dont want to go but i dont want to disappoint her either :”( so stressed :( :(
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(4) Contact with my boss ?
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(6) Rollercoaster day
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(7) Lazy but happy :p
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17(6) Im having a lot of flashbacks lately
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(6) I'm finally accepting that my therapist and my psychiatrist are there to help me
19(1) 1min awake and already in a very bad mood
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(3) Suddenly feeling angry and depressed for no reason ????
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(4) When the food is not ready in time everyone is complaining but everytime I start early with cooking, they come home late and the food gets cold. So what do ye want me to do ????
(5) I want to jump out of my skin, I feel so claustrophobic just being “present” in this world. Whenever you think you do sth good, theres always someone to point out the bad stuff about it.
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(7) Redecorating/organizing the apartment :)
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(6) Music is the answer
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(6) After a long time of growing out my hair ive cut it again. Mixed feelings, but overall it looks better, and even my curls are starting to show again :-)
25(5) Sometimes I dont have the appropriate reaction for (for example) bad news or when someone is telling something serious. Today my mom told me her friend is going to do euthanasia and all I could do is
(5) I wish I was more caring for others
26(6) 27(1) ITS ALWAYS THE SAME !!!!!!!!!!.!!!!.!.!.!.!.!!..!.!.
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(9) Dinner was amazing!