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January
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7(7) 8(5) Doggo is stressed out because we are moving away. Poor thing. Going to comfort him as much as I can. He'll get his own little nook in the new house where he can go whenever he feels stressed.
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9(0) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHRCGHRCRRRGGHCCRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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(9) I got the best mom in the world.
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10(5) Hopefully in a month or so everything will turn back to normal again.11(5) 12(5)
13(5) Complaining.
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14(5) Im kind of “ok” bot not ok enough to go to work15(4)
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(3) Overstressed. Lost my mind.
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(3) When im mad and people tell me to calm down i get even more mad. Just let me be please and peace will return quickly.
(4) Acted stupid and impulsive today.
(4) Regretting the house we are moving in to.
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(6) Cleaning the apartment
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(3) I always feel so cringy after meeting up with people. Did i say too much? Did i do something wrong? Did I this, did I that?
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(4) I always act so weird around people. And hugs and stuff really take a lot of energy. I dont like when people come too close. I like a hug from my mom for example,but when she gives 1, i act all weird
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(5) Our last day in the apartment
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31(7) Strange feeling. Yesterday was the last day in the apartment. Gotta wait to get the key of the new house till 10 oclock. At this moment im homeless :-D
March
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      1(3) Bad sleep, had the weirdest dream, woke up like a hot mess
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(5) Guilt
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(4) Found out today that my mother in law has cancer :(
4(6) Lenormand cards :)
(7) Mom came by to say hi :-)
(7) After almost six years I finally had the courage to visit my grandpa and im so happy I got to see him ??
(5) I just hope I didnt ruin someones day today. At this moment feeling happy, but also worrying, and a bit distressed at once.
5(4) I live in the past because Im too scared of the future. Realising im already turning 28 makes me want to stop everything. I need to breathe for a second, but I cant
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6(10) So funny how my ex wished the worst for me :-D and now karma is doing her job on my ex. Im sorry this is evil but I really enjoy it as he was a true ***hole to everybody.
(7) Singing and dancing in my kitchen ?
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(4) Nevermind
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(2) No one takes me serious, they tell me its my own fault Im feeling the things I feel, but I have no control over it whatsoever
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(5) I love my mom but I dont know if she sees me as her daughter or just a friend
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(3) People only come to me to talk about their problems. I have no one to talk to, no one was ever there for me. And when Im no longer needed, they dump me aside, until they need a peptalk again
(4) Someone blocked me on facebook and I dont know what I did wrong
(5) Making myself a lifechart
(4) My paperwork has been delayed so much that people are even coming at my frontdoor for it
(5) Mheh
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(5) I finally picked up my meds :)
12(4) Im turning 28 this month and I havent accomplished anything in my life yet
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(5) Little by little Im losing all of my friends
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(5) Wish I could reset myself
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17(7) Not complaining :)18(7) 19(6) 20(5)
(4) Its my bday today and it hurts that so many friends and family forgot about me or dont want to remember me at all
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(5) So frustrating when ppl dont put back stuff where they belong. I searched everywhere and I still cant find it.
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25(4) Just one of those days
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27(5) Its difficult to go groceryshopping these days, everything is so weird now
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30(5) Everyone saying they understand me but acting like they dont
(4) Dontknow if Ill make it to 30.
(3) I dislike unannounced visits
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April
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6(7) I just met my neighbours with a 1,5m distance between us but it was very chill and they are very sweet , they even got us beautiful flowers ?7(5)
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(3) Im in desperate need of just 1 month without visits, social interaction, social obligations,......
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(3) I wish I was superspontaneous but I am the complete opposite
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8(5) 9(5) 10(4) Too scared to do anything
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13(6) Kinda bored14(7)
(7) Productive day :)
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(5) I was in a very bad mood and the neighbour said 'hi' and I replied with a silent hello and a weak little handwave as I walked back inside. I feel like a djerk
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(5) Im too impulsive
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(6) The consult went fine and apparently this was the last one and next week ill know the results... wish me luck ?
(5) My finch is in a really bad shape :(
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20(6) 21(8) ??? I WENT GROCERYSHOPPING AND I SURVIVED IT ????22(5) 23(5)
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24(7) Im going to try to accept the feelings of joy and happiness instead of pushing it away as if I dont deserve it. When I accept positivity in my life, I can share it with others
(2) Byebye feelings of joy
(6) Got myself back together. Im planting flowers in my garden. I love to watch them grow
25(7) Sweet dreams everyone26(6) A clean house now some pizza ?
27(5) I cant stop eating
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28(6) :) where are you all from? Im from Belgium
(7) In about an hour I will know the results of the diagnose. Quite nervous, I hope its something I dont already know and something I recognise myself in so I can get the right help :-)
(5) Disappointed about the results ?
(6) Getting to peace with the results of the diagnose. I can now finally let go of the past and I already did a social exercise today :-)
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30(5) Weird day.
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May
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    1(7) Everything is ok :) .2(6) 3(6)
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(7) Painting my bicycle fire red :-)
5(8) I have a good feeling about this day, its gonna be great!
(8) I once had a 91' red ford fiesta. I painted my bike the same red and now it reminds me of my sweet old car ? it turned out great, by the way :D
6(5) 7(5) I feel like a failure.I try and I try but everything I do goes wrong. I cant even getup at 6.30 in morning to go to my mom. Illprobably neverhave a job again either, if everythng keeps going like this
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8(6) 9(7) Nighty night Pandas ?
(7) Rise and shine
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(6) Todays challenge; Going to the petstore to get some food for my bunny :)
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(5) My tailbone hurts, cant sit or lay down. Gotta keep on moving :p
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18(6) 19(7) 20(5) My tailbone still hurts like hell and its swollen and so red. Still cant sit or lay down. Physically exhausted. Too afraid to call the doctors. Cant get there anyway because driving hurts too much
(5) Ok so I found the courage to call the doctor but I cant go until Monday :'(
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(8) Socializing gave me energy instead of draining it away so thats cool ?
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25(4) I have a doctorsappointment but my taxi has canceled
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26(5) 27(2) Always doomed because of another one's mistakes!!!!
(4) And thanks to my impulsive behavior I now ruined someone else's day too
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28(5) No motivation nor discipline to do the house chores or doing my health and skincare routine. Maybe tomorrow29(6)
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(2) I hate that I need to get descriptions for my antidepressiva. Im always stressed to go to the doctor and also the pharmacist. And it always leaves me without my pills for at least on month or longer
30(5) Im out of tune with my inner asshole31(6)
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June
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(7) Fresh and clean ?
3(6) 4(5) So frustrated5(7) 6(5)
(5) I cant stop eating, this is ridiculous
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(3) I cant stop thinking about the past, the bad moments I've been through and the good ones I've missed. It feels so surreal 15 years have past. It feels like a blink of an eye
(5) Andrew Kirby on youtube :)
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(7) I ?? having a vegetablegarden, I enjoy walking around in it, the smell , watching how everything grows, the bees, the flowers... and then I get to eat it all! ? (but not the bees, I dont eat bees)
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(5) Hormonal imbalance
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(5) Ive been eating too much these past four months and gained a lot of weight
17(8) The first one of my sunflowers popped open this morning. Its so beautiful ?18(5) I just can't do paperwork for two people, my own paperwork is already hard enough. I need help with this kind of stuff, but no one seems to care until I make a mistake.
(6) I tried
(4) Bad day today :(
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(4) My childhood dog who is 16 yrs old isnt doing so well these past few weeks. She still loves life and has her good moments. But I think we have to say goodbye soon and Im not ready for that yet
(6) Nice day with mom. Talked about a lot of stuff
26(5) Mhm :)
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(4) I feel weird and sad and feel like Ive said weird things and rambled about stuff, I couldnt form any logic sentences. My mind and body feel disconnected. Past and future seem so close yet so far away
28(5) It is so hard to let go of someone you love, but when their time has come the last way to show them your love is to set them free
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(2) Its hurts to see my mom hurt ? our sweet Kayla, our childhood dog, is going to Heaven this evening... Im not ready for it, neither is my mom. We have had her for 16years. Im grateful but also sad ??