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January
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February
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     1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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10(5) Woke up and don't want to do anything today, just want to sleep the day away, but I know once I get up and go to work I will feel better. But I need to get out of bed first.
(6) Ended up being a good day, the issues with sleeping are coming back, think it is related to my social anxiety.
11To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14(7) Found a card in my mailbox, nothing written on it but my name on the envelope. Don't know how I feel about it. Think I have a secret admirer now.15(5) Alright day mom and I are still bashing heads.16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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March
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2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3(3) Starting to slip, everything feels like it is to far away to reach. Want to as someone out but don't have the balls to, don't even think I could do it in a letter that's not singed.4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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May
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    1No Reasons2No Reasons3No Reasons
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18No Reasons19No Reasons20No Reasons21No Reasons22No Reasons23No Reasons24(5) Its been a while, sorta forgot about this tbh, Alot has happened. Asked a girl out, she said no, slipped back in some ways, docs changed the meds I am on so highly prone to headaches now.
25(4) Was a rough night broke down on the phone to my friend, glad she was there tho she always has a way of making me feel safe.
(6) Although haven't been feeling great the past few days including today I feel content now. Not happy not sad just content.
26(5) Got woken up at 6 from a friend calling, glad I was woken up, but not glad that was needed. They are alright now, we both just lay there and fell asleep.
(5) Got woken up at 6 from a friend calling, glad I was woken up, but not glad that was needed. They are alright now, we both just lay there and fell asleep.
(1) I feel like shit, I feel like I am going to be suck, and I just had an argument with the girl who helps me so much. All because I want to break. It's been 2 weeks since the last time I dont
(0) And I broke
27(2) Caved into my addiction again today, feel like I am not ready to fight it, been trying for the past few months, but I feel like I am not ready yet.28(5) Wanted to have a talk with AB yesterday but she was sleeping, in a way it's good, think I needed that time, but yeh goi to try tomorrow.29No Reasons30No Reasons31(2) Feel like shit, I lost my so every time I moved my head was swearing, felt like I could not stand up straight and was going to pass out, early night tonight
June
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1(5) Made up with AB yesterday, we just had not communicated a lot with us both going back to work/school. But have had a migraine all day. Can't stop thinking bout breaking but I said I would try to get2(1) Haven't been feeling well for a couple days now, today I just want to give up, just not care any more, I feel like I just can't keep fighting it.
(5) Feeling slightly better, calling ab later as she can just make me feel safe from everything. Moved my tools to enable my addiction to a locked drawer, so if I want them I need to go through more steps
3No Reasons4(5) Neither good nor bad today, Been feeling sick all week but today was better. Headaches just getting worse tho. Talking to my doc next week. Might change meds again.5No Reasons6No Reasons7No Reasons
8No Reasons9No Reasons10(5) Urg my mom it's just pissing me off. My headaches are not caused by side effects from my meds, no it's cause by unclean glasses, being on the computer to much, not getting enough sun, and possibly a11(2) Friend tried to kill him self today, never good, been destacted about it all day, not I feel like I'm going to throw up, yay12No Reasons13No Reasons14(3) A friend just triggered me, it been 16 days since I last caved, I can't break now. At least I have AB who is always very supportive.
15(7) Going back to work today, last night I called a friend who can always make me feel safe. Feeling half decent. Will see what the day brings.
(8) Ended up being a good day, felt a bit sick during work but feeling better, Talked to one of AB's friends to try to get something special organized for her as thanks for all her support. Im exited.
16(10) IM FEELING GOOOD!!!!!! I'm smiling because why not, feel happy, I'm excited for surprising AB.17(8) Not perfect but this is a start.
(7) Lost 6kg in 2 weeks, not sure if that's good or bad.
18(5) Broke down to AB tonight19No Reasons20(7) Had a talk with AB brought up some insecurities and fears, she always helps me through them. Even if they are about her, I love how I can be open with her.21(6) Been a nice day, was out all morning, and went into town for lunch with mom, now I am just drained.
22(5) Almost broke today, don't want to go to sleep because I don't want to need to call AB. Need to think about upping my meds, if I want to or not.23(2) Think I'm going to break, and it's my birthday. Yay
(1) And I broke after 24 days, It felt so good but I know it was so bad.
24No Reasons25No Reasons26(2) Broke again, idk what to do, I feel like I'm never going to get over this.
(7) Broke at work today, first time ever. But ended being good, managed to throw away my blades. Today has given me a new light, new hope, new strength, hopefully, it stays.
27(7) Hanged out with friends as a birthday celebration. Was nice28No Reasons
29No Reasons30(6) Hoped to hang out with AB today but she has been sleeping. Otherwise a decent day