January
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18(6) Headache came out of nowhere and got better when I went for a walk then worse again on my return home - I had to turn to bed ,lights out , slept from 8pm until 4 am then from 7am until 11.30am,cac day
(5) I thought I was OK until I got the headache,so mood level 6 before because I did errands and stayed busy then 5 from when my head started hurting ,I not logged in a long time, sorry any Panda friends
19(5) Feeling quite flat. Quite low and lonely and neglected,just confirmed I'm single although I love him I cannot stand druggie behaviour as I'm an ex user and I must take care in that way.20To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter21(6) Did cry in the morning but I do that a lot,got over it and got busy walking to town and back and doing a zoom call,had a dip again in the pm but after bible study on zoom I felt calmer,love 2Pandas22(6) I guess I'm feeling OK ,stayed up late so woke late which gets on my nerves a bit but I'm keeping busy and trying to be positive,my mum will be living down to the coast 10 mind from me next week !!23To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter24To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
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February
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1(5) Argues with my mum last night , she moved down near me on thurs and stayed at my place until last night we fell out and she left this morning. Did another zoom councelling session so proud of that!2To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter3To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter4To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter5To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter6To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter7To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
8(5) Mood has been so low I spoke to my doctor and he suggested a change of medication so I'm gona decrease the duloxetine that I'm on and try a new pill,cant remember the name of it . Trying fo be ok9To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter10To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter11To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter12To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter13To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter14To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
15To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter16To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter17To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter18(5) Trying to keep on a even keel after a change in dose of antidepressants made me very unwell,last week was v.tuff,conflict in all relationships,I had to go back to normal dose ,not ready yet ?19(5) I woke up feeling ok about the day ahead , but after a little spat with *ill I felt crap all day , he rang in the afternoon and offered to bring me something from fish n chip shop so I said ok n went20To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter21(6) Feeling alot stronger.the duloxetine I've been on for 8 odd years has a big effect on me when I try to stop it or reduce it as I did 2 weeks ago. Gona move on tho and keep things moving,sping coming?
22(5) Had a councelling session booked at 12 30,my network started to cut out few hours before,spent ages messing with it and couldn't get any network to even phone them ,was looking forward 2 that23To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter24To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter25(6) Mood is ok. Feel but frustrated,got some energy that needs a release coz I feel bored and want some action and to b busy like I used to be. I shud get up and do some housework really!26To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter27To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter28(4) Bad mood 2day, as usual I've put not hurting someone's feeling over my own feelings if happiness and come up with a crap day at home instead of for a long walk in the sun with my mum,let myself down!
March
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1To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter2To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter3To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter4To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter5(6) Mood is fine today,came 2 see my mum,trying to cut down on the pregablin,enjoying not being unwell. Onwards and upwards- I think I'm doing alot better than before ?6To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter7To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter
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15(3) Feel terrible, have no life,sick of the daily struggle ,just going thru the motions and waiting to get old and die. But that'll take soooo long and each day is hell .16To view data older than 6 months, become a Silver Supporter17(1) Still feel terrible daily , cry daily,making efforts to improve things but mood isnt following, mum isnt talking to me yet again so if I want contact with more than my 1 friend then I'll have 2 beg!
(1) Still feel terrible daily , cry daily,making efforts to improve things but mood isnt following, mum isnt talking to me yet again so if I want contact with more than my 1 friend then I'll have 2 beg!
(1) Still feel terrible daily , cry daily,making efforts to improve things but mood isnt following, mum isnt talking to me yet again so if I want contact with more than my 1 friend then I'll have 2 beg!
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April
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19No Reasons20No Reasons21No Reasons22No Reasons23No Reasons24(6) Really trying to get positive and proactive . Been feeling low recently but hoping that I can move on now. Had a couple of slip ups where I've taken some pills which I'm not meant to but moving on !!25(5) Had a tuff day today but I feel hopeful that if I can put more distance between me and him then I've got a better chance of making it or happiness. With him as it has been for the last 2 years I dont.
(5) Had a tuff day today but I feel hopeful that if I can put more distance between me and him then I've got a better chance of making it or happiness. With him as it has been for the last 2 years I dont.
26No Reasons27(6) Feel ok today,had a good councelking session yesterday which shud help me cope with wots going on in my life.spoke to Amanda to say happy bday and that went well, having some space from W ???
(6) Don't forget to look at the moon tonight !! Its a supermoon which is when the moon is closest to the earth and therefore it looks bright, big and beautiful ?!! Its gorgeous and energising !! ??
28(6) Doing okay today,went to support group that I've been attending weekly for a while,it helps me alot I think. Saw my sis for first time in ages,it went OK but I was weary not to say anything to upset h
(6) Her and I saw how she is with my mum n diffused a bit of ag starting from lack of patience on my sisters part- our parents are human they can't b perfect and the sooner we accept that the less painful
(6) Feel ok today, went to my support group which I been doing weekly,then met my mum and sis which went ok really,I was prepared by talking in group about issues that cud arrise during the time with her
(6) Feel ok today, went to my support group which I been doing weekly,then met my mum and sis which went ok really,I was prepared by talking in group about issues that cud arrise during the time with her
29No Reasons30(6) Today was ok,I've felt rather sad and upset because my relationship has come to an end,hes said some mean things and driven me half mad with his drug filled behaviour,my feelings are so hurt ???
May
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     1No Reasons2(4) Ex threw me out of his flat when I was there getting my stuff ,he thru me out with bi shoes on and all my stuff all over the place he chucked a trainer at my head,I rang the police who agreed he
3No Reasons4No Reasons5(4) Feeling a bit traumatised by the events of recent days. Feeling broken hearted, sad,confused,regretful. My mum is coming over - she now knows everything about the mess I got myself into with Will .6No Reasons7No Reasons8No Reasons9No Reasons
10No Reasons11No Reasons12(5) I stayed at my mums last nite and went to my support group this morning.been v.down since falling out with my ex and best mate last Sunday.but there's no going back now I must stay away altho it hurts13No Reasons14(6) I been thinking alot recently becoz of certain events and there is a change and shift in my life happening and maybe in me - I realised how much I've grown up in the last 5 years,how my views shifted
(6) Omg is there only 1 chiefpanda ?! ?? the reason I'm a 6 today is although I'm thinking alot and do feel anxious it must be natural due to the changes in my life that I'm making.i just need to make
15No Reasons16(6) I dud well today-got up n ready m got my bus to mums,then we both went to salon and I had pedi n man for first ever time,the girl/lady was really nice,my mum helped n supported me bless her ????
17No Reasons18No Reasons19(6) Went to group and then to college careers adviser to chat,been thru lots of moods today including anger and some happiness or comfort. Now I've wound down at home im okay,trying to feel ok.im peaceful20(4) Feelings are v.hurt.my trust has been broken and my kind nature been taken advantage of,why do people treat you soo badly when you are nothing but good 2 them.had enuff but waiting for better times?21No Reasons22(5) Had to deal with a tuff situation with my ex last nite,he gas many issues and after 2 weeks away im finally starting to feel better so must be super careful not to let anyone or anything hold me back from making progress with my mental health23(6) Feeling better this eve ,had a tuff eve tring to relax my physical anxiety sensations such as heart beat going fast,feeling butterflies,worrying about breathing chest feeling tight and so on. I did calm down unsing Headspace app,mum came for lunch,I went shopping b4 she came
24(6) Feeling ok,bit like looking back at an earthquake or tsunami and seeing the destruction from afar-im coming to terms with some unhelpful choices and decisions that I made in the past,had zoom councelling,only 3 sessions left now out of 18 odd sessions,well done me!
(6) Still feeling ok,trying not to start overthinking again,gotto keep stress levels right down at least for a while until I'm back to full strength then I'll b able to tackle whatever life throws my way ! I didn't go off and buy a handful of pills or anything to take away the uncomfortable feelings i had last week,that would've been too easy and would've cost me more in the long run
25(5) Doing ok today just a bit flat and lazy,not had much get up and go but I'm sure that will come in time,still avoiding any stinking thinking about anything too serious to keep anxiety and stress level down,time alone is good I think,tom ill go to group and see mum after that so busy day tom!26(6) Feel ok today,been to group which went well,then to see my mum,home now trying to relax,gotto keep on an even keel still ! Fancy a joint but can't b bothered to go out and get it,trying to arrange it for tomoro27(5) I'm alrite but its been a bit of a hard day emotionally, been with ex,hes got lots of serious issues in his life,I feel for him so much but after spending 5 years trying to convince him to treat himself well and not carry on this path of destruction hes on to no avail.i can't be responsible for him and his problems which are mostly self inflicted,im here as a trustworthy reliable friend but not a
(5) I'm alrite but its been a bit of a hard day emotionally, been with ex,hes got lots of serious issues in his life,I feel for him so much but after spending 5 years trying to convince him to treat himself well and not carry on this path of destruction hes on to no avail.i can't be responsible for him and his problems which are mostly self inflicted,im here as a trustworthy reliable friend but not a
28No Reasons29(5) Tried my best to get out there and enjoy the weather , got home and couldn't kind my vape or tobacco or the few joints ide savedfor afternoon. Now I'm home alone a long night i cabt fukinfcju:
(6) Feeling ok,just a bit low on motivation today , had a nice afternoon meeting my mum yesterday,sat on the beach n had lunch! Taking it slowly today altho I've got housework to do I'll wait till I feel like it!
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June
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 1(5) Tried my best to get out there and enjoy the weather , got home and couldn't kind my vape or tobacco or the few joints ide savedfor afternoon. Now I'm home alone a long night i cabt fukinfcju:2No Reasons3No Reasons4No Reasons5No Reasons6No Reasons
7No Reasons8No Reasons9No Reasons10(3) Maddest day,he'll with ex who has been beaten up,got arrested in the High stress over a dispute with a manager of a shop,spend from 1 30 -11 pm in a cell .I've got no criminal record and it was scary and hellish.got home to hear that my ex has been knocked down by a car and and has even more broken bones,it's 12.30 midnight and I've only just got home,I told him I'd see him tom-how am I meant to11No Reasons12No Reasons13No Reasons
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28No Reasons29(6) This eve I finally feel bit better about things,lots been going on recently so not been sleeping some nights at all - bought some tablets that I shouldn't have from a mate and now figuring out that they are proper dodgy and not what we thought they were(benzos),not helpful considering all the mishaps that have happened to me and others close to me due 2 them.now feel bit better gona change things!30(6) Slept well. Second night I've slept better n better each night after a week or so of just broken odd hours. When you are v.stressed it's soo detrimental to any progress you're trying to make, im going to avoid stressful situations or people at least for a while, if we all make eachother sick with stress and anxiety where will we be,I need to first look after myself and then I can support others!
July
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   1(6) Defo feeling better ,couldn't sleep well at all for few weeks so grateful for stressful sleep which is getting better each day. If I can sleep and eat well then ill have more chance of fixing the other issues in my life but I must get the fundamentals and essentials down b4 I can go further. Thats what I'm realising. Lots of soul searching and changing perspectives on life,mine and everyone's2(6) Been a calm day really,so grateful for the break and recovery time that sleep affords to me - glad to be sleeping well again fir last few nights,it must've been high cortisol levels or something stopping me-alot to do with W's behaviour. Had 2 good walks today,1 to town and 1 to shopping place other side after I'd been home and had a rest,I must b getting better or I couldn't have done that!! ?3(7) Slept well again,went to town the home ,mum came over and we walked to tesco and had a look around, back home now.feeling satisfied with what I've achieved today-got nice food for the week. Gona try and keep things calm,W has had some issues with his mood today but I hope that will dissappear with some distraction- I can't change things for him it has to be himself - im trying to accept that!
(7) Slept well again,went to town the home ,mum came over and we walked to tesco and had a look around, back home now.feeling satisfied with what I've achieved today-got nice food for the week. Gona try and keep things calm,W has had some issues with his mood today but I hope that will dissappear with some distraction- I can't change things for him it has to be himself - im trying to accept that!
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5No Reasons6No Reasons7No Reasons8(5) Feeling ok just a but lot on energy but I'm sure if I keep looking after myself then I'll improve,need to do housework but also gotto walk to chemist
(5) Feeling ok just a but lot on energy but I'm sure if I keep looking after myself then I'll improve,need to do housework but also gotto walk to chemist
9(6) Feel ok today,kept it chilled,went to have a coffee with a lady I worked with,rest of day at home doing few bits of housework but not as much as I'd like Lol! Never mind I'm glad I'm thru that last few weeks of not sleeping and having major anxiety relieved not to be like that anymore,practising gratitude,podcast(7good minutes on Google podcasts app ) , going 4 walk each day,trying to eat sensibly10No Reasons11No Reasons
12No Reasons13(7) Feeling quite good this evening, went to appt wit keyworker and got link coming to enrol on new course. Came home mowed the lawn and did gardening, feeling quite positive, training my brain not to let old conditioned limitations make me stop something or not take opportunities when they are good 4 me . W isn't good tho. Mustn't let his choices stop me from having peace of mind I've tried every14No Reasons15No Reasons16No Reasons17No Reasons18(4) Crap day. In a bad mood. Can't get a smoke on top of being angry at messing about last night with W and his jack ass nephew. He's no help at all as per he arranged to meet me and didn't turn up,decided not to go out with me last night after arranging it and it was a crap time. I'm lonely, sick of having no friends,lots of reasons why I'm alone,suppose its better than being with bad people
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August
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2No Reasons3(3) Bad time all weekend, mix up with my prescription so i couldn't get it until just now so been in withdrawal for 4 days. Worst of all my ex who is meant to be my best (actually only) mate was able to collect it yesterday and was told by chemist to come back in q0 mins but he didn't,he left me to suffer like that unnecessarily,I hate the man he's nothing but a selfish self serving pig
(3) Bad time all weekend, mix up with my prescription so i couldn't get it until just now so been in withdrawal for 4 days. Worst of all my ex who is meant to be my best (actually only) mate was able to collect it yesterday and was told by chemist to come back in q0 mins but he didn't,he left me to suffer like that unnecessarily,I hate the man he's nothing but a selfish self serving pig
4(3) Still feel terrible,went to boots for meds,on daily pick up now for methadone.lomg walk there amd back,can't move, muscles tight feel like am 80 year old. Not used class A in over 2.5 years but on Saturday the prescriber messed up my script by not signing it so I had to go 4 days cold turkey all over weekend,if a kind dear person who I bearly know didn't give me a drop it would've been worse.5No Reasons6No Reasons7(2) Very down. Very depressed. Rang samaritans last night. W stayed over and was already drink when I woke up . Fought with him and walked away from him tk come home.his drug dealer swang for me to punch me in the face after punching W in the face due to an argument over his girlfriend's brother driving dangerously and nearly knocking my head off with his van wingmirror. So tired of it all.8(3) Low mood.bad mood.sadness. ex boyfriend making my life he'll. I can't seem to break free. I'm scared to be alone forever.hes taken advantage of my generosity, forgiveness,kindness,and everything else I've got including money.feel very low about myself,cant seem to control my temper,clean criminal record but up in court end of Aug on assault charges coz i pushed a woman out of my personal space
9(7) Doing ok.had few moments today but managed to control it and had a productive day,got doctictirs in the morning so it's my chance to ask for the right help and prove to her that I am genuinely trying to help myself and not expecting a majic pill anymore or for someone to save me from my worries I am willing to help myself but I need support to do that.i want to be better,I want to love myself??10(6) Had v.busy day.but v.relieved at doctors reaction to me and how she understood and didn't judge me fir the honesty I showed her.im.grateful for this chance to stabilise my mood and get into dome consistency with a better mood and frame of mind,I still have a trial ahead at end of month so must keep the momentum and strength from today & yesrday ! Thankyou Jesus if it is your grace showing the way
(6) Had v.busy day.but v.relieved at doctors reaction to me and how she understood and didn't judge me fir the honesty I showed her.im.grateful for this chance to stabilise my mood and get into dome consistency with a better mood and frame of mind,I still have a trial ahead at end of month so must keep the momentum and strength from today & yesrday ! Thankyou Jesus if it is your grace showing the way
11(8) Mood has felt lifted since yesterday GP appt,feel like I'm actually making some progress and improving. I'm seeing the benefits of trying to stay busy,have things to do and see people to socialise,us doing things to help the people I love. I hope I'm gonna be OK,im willing to put the work in and I feel I've suffered enuff and I'm ready to be healed,not overnight but with the right help I'm getting
(8) Mood has felt lifted since yesterday GP appt,feel like I'm actually making some progress and improving. I'm seeing the benefits of trying to stay busy,have things to do and see people to socialise,us doing things to help the people I love. I hope I'm gonna be OK,im willing to put the work in and I feel I've suffered enuff and I'm ready to be healed,not overnight but with the right help I'm getting
12No Reasons13(7) Feeling positive still.things aren't always easy but I'm staying in the rite frame of mind and trying not to react to outside influences or anything, been alot more social in these days I've felt better-talked to GP which helped,visited ex work mate for 2nd time and that was kool,talked to aquantances in the street as I've gone to boots and think maybe the human contact is helping in some way14No Reasons15No Reasons
16(5) Feel alright, angry because ex got life from his mum which we all planned yesterday and I was meant to jump in to save me an hours walk but they gave me no notice and turned up at only 12 when i wasn't ready to drop everything and run ,plus wasn't dressed properly . So I'm waiting for taxi now , gonna cost around 10 pounds. Hate selfish people,as long as they're alrite ! ??????17No Reasons18No Reasons19No Reasons20No Reasons21No Reasons22(6)
23No Reasons24No Reasons25No Reasons26No Reasons27(4) I'm magistrates court yesterday',today my friends mums funeral and I arranged to go to the wake,got up n ready but couldn't find where they were. Had to leave it but never mind they wil
(4) I'm magistrates court yesterday',today my friends mums funeral and I arranged to go to the wake,got up n ready but couldn't find where they were. Had to leave it but never mind they wil
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30No Reasons31(3) Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
(3) Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my methadone so my whole day is based around that and I'm so sick of it I don't even want to leave my home.testerday got taxi there and back, 10pounds of precious benefit money.
(3) Feel fat and ugly dont want to go out but have appt with keyworker from drug place , started feeling I don't want to go out last week. I'm tired. I've had enuff.theyre making me walk to boots 7 days a week to take my m
September
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6No Reasons7No Reasons8No Reasons9(7) Doing okay,the storm must've passed and I'm able to pick up and keep going forward in a positive and more knowledgeable place when it come to my own mind,im going to try and build on this,well done me ????10No Reasons11(4) Not feeling v.good had bad sleep for days ,mind racing sometimes unless I consciously stop it ,feeling bad about myself for some reason even tho I'm trying so hard to learn how to move on and create the life I want to live!12No Reasons
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20No Reasons21(1) Very down . Lost hope. Very tired of all this. Very down going to sleep now. Bought matt haig book today . Going to read and hopefully sleep. ?22No Reasons23(5) Yesterday was hard with my mood. Upset about my mum not staying in touch when she kept disappearing off with Sandra. Mood is bit better this morning but I'm not back up to where I was last week yet. I'll have to keep trying and hang in there24(6) 23.00 Much better day towards the middle to end part , ended up spending time with 3 people I like and had a laugh with w . He's made me feel better coz he's trying hard to make a mense for how he treated me this year . Mum wanted to meet and talk after I let her know I was upset and it must have helped me to get it off my chest and to have a possible resolution on the way. Weight off my shoulders25No Reasons26No Reasons
27No Reasons28No Reasons29No Reasons30(6) Altho W is not doing well die 2 the same as usual issues I managed to get out and see my mum so I'm feeling proud that I got over the mood dip I felt in the morning after seeing him. Feeling better for connecting with people and getting things done,phone calls to southdown and ezra,got appts set up 2 devise a an for winter months when I start struggling in the lack of sun.
October
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4No Reasons5No Reasons6(7) Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .
(7) Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him rest at mine until I got back,he left less than an hour after.i was worn out n needed to chill alone for the night .
(7) Did well today,went to appt with Alli and she said I'm welcome back to groups so I'm eased bout that , saw few friends from group and that was nice,then had lunch with mum and spent afternoon together,W wasn't well again due to substance abuse so I let him
7(5) Woke up to my phone ringing again n again , it was W . His mum rang and asked my to jump in the car coz he was going with her to town and he sounded drunk so she doesn't I've being alone with him when he's like that. Went to town,he bought ammonia and I asked what for and he told the truth first in front of his mum then backtracked and said it was for the drains.i explained to his mum wot its for8No Reasons9No Reasons10No Reasons
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