January
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February
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March
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(0) I just feel like I was never wanted in life and no one would care if I was gone. The flashbacks of being abused of a child won't stop and I can't help but just wanna burn myself.
28(1) I saw a spider on a screen at school and I can't stop thinking abt it cause of how bad my arachnophobia is. It just keeps on doubling. I feel like I'm being punished in a way and I should feel bad.
29(0) I just want it all to stop. I feel nothing but pain and I just want life to stop. Meaningless in me being here
(4) Feel better after listening to Lana Del Rey and Billie Eilish- they express so much through their music and the words they say are deep and hold so much meaning that I can relate to.
30(3) I cut myself and burnt myself don't know why just felt like it It feels good ...31(0) Can't sleep I just feel alone...
(2) Woke up from a nightmare about spiders!!! Great I thought I recovered from the incident at schl but clearly not ?? I hate arachnophobia I'm shaking just writing the word ?
April
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(3) I haven't been eating properly for the past couple of days cause I don't feel hungry. I feel better this way. If I eat I won't stop cause of stress and will feel like sh**t after
(0) Flashbacks of sexual abuse... and emotional abuse right now
2(1) Finally got out of bed and decided to eat. Couldn't stop... feel like I'm gonna throw up. Having bad thoughts abt going back to schl. Haven't done any work this week. Just been in bed. I'm gonna fail3(2) Woke up after crying myself to sleep after fight with parents. Don't wanna get out of bed :( feel empty like emotionless now. Just tired and can't move4(2) Mind is a prison by Alec Benjamin these lyrics literally summarise how I feel everyday. I'm always stuck alone with my thoughts...
5(1) It's Easter holidays and a week has passed so my friend just asked how my weeks been cause she knows abt all the sh**t I've been thru. I don't know how to reply. What shall I say6(0) Had a panick attack after thinking abt going to school again. F**k can't stop shaking7(2) PROCRASTINATING FROM WORK AGAIN! What is wrong with me?!8(4) Can't sleep. Don't know what to do. Bit myself and I feel pretty calm now.9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter10(0) I wanna die... and you know what maybe I should kill myself cause whenever I said that I will and someone says don't do that they don't even give me a good enough reason as to why I shouldn't. So..11(1) Calmed down a bit and haven't ended up killing myself but just hurt instead. Also SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW like wtf I still haven't done work. Yay so fun can't wait for tomorrow. ?
12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13(0) I made a huge mistake of telling my friend that I'm rlly struggling and might have hinted that I've been sexually abused and now she's saying she might go tell the teachers. ?? great.14To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter15(1) I said no to counselling to my support teacher like 5 times. Then I said yes and yesterday I said no again after he got the form and everything and now I wanna say yes again. What is wrong with me!!!16To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter17(4) 3.5. I felt rlly angry about everything and now I feel so calm after hurting myself. Did it twice today but it rlly helps and I'm happy now so great. I'm getting better. Shows I don't need counselling
(0) My mum is just so f**king annoying. She's always saying that I'm treating her badly and stuff when I don't even say anything. If I talk it's a problem if I don't talk it's a problem.
18(5) 4.5. Feel calm. Had a long chat with one of my cousins with my sister. Opened me to a lot of things that I've never thought abt both of them. They understand..
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(0) My mum and sister saw the cut on my wrist that I made couple of days before and now they're taking me to the doctors and telling the schl. They just don't understand.
22(1) No one understand my f**king phobia. They all say that I need to get over it and get 'cured' so f**king annoying
(4) Feel calm. I've decided to go ahead with counselling. The form is signed and now all I have to do is try not to chicken out and hand it in. I hope this works.
23(1) I had a spider on my leg in the car and so I ran out and hasssive a massive breakdown. My parents are making me go school now cause I need to 'grow
(0) Even though the whole day I have lessons in a classroom where I've been traumatised by spiders but they don't care. I just can't stop seeing it everywhere. My parents are torturing me
24(3) Spoke to someone on childline today! Felt oddly good and she was different from everyone else. Didn't judge me and understood my worries abt everything. She didn't mind I self harm.25To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
26(1) Have to go to that classroom in schl today. Time to face the music. I'm hella scared and have a migraine. So great ?27To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter28(0) My mum just spoilt my whole mood said I was shouting at her when I wasn't. SHE WAS. Then my dad said there's something wrong in my head and the schl thinks it as well. Apparently I need to 'grow up'.29(0) OMG. I'm on my periods. Like why. I have a science gcse higher physics paper today and a geography test. Also,tomorrow is and NO feminax to help me. !!!! :( :( how can I even concentrate on my tests30To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
May
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     1(1) I wanna stab myself in the leg.2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
3(0) Don't have the motivation to do anything. My dad sexually abused me on Friday and my mum said I'm lying. They expect me to go back to 'normal'.4To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter7(4) Had an introduction to one of the counsellors. Told me I can decide whether I wanna continue or not. But I feel like I have no choice.8To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter9To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
10To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter11(0) This girl at schl was talking abt how she doesnt talk to her dad cause he abused her as a child and if she changes her schedule or goes to her room straight from schl then she would still get proper12To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter13To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter14(5) I just took an overdose of 5 tablets of ferrous fumarate 332 mg and nothings happened :( shall i overdose on something else as well to ensure i die 100% guranteed15(6) Feeling great. I got some more of those iron tablets like 28 so this time i can swallow more16(1) Fuck i just came out of hospital after spending 12 hrs there. Why did i get saved
(5) 4.5 pretty neutral. Just a bit scared for tomorrows assessment at 10:00 am for the camhs thing. Does anyone know something that i should expect and stuff. If you so pls let me know
17(0) In hospital puking up bile. Its all green and gross. I overdosed again im so STUPID. I want it to stop now18(5) On the road to recovery. Im glad i got saved. U were all right.19To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter20To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter21(3) Anxious and feel uneasy. They're transferring me to a psychiatric hospital!!. I have butterflies in my stomach and scared as fuck.22To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter23To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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June
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 1To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter2To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter3To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter4(1) So im still stuck here in the hospital and the judge didnt take me off section. Im coming out of covid isolation so im scared to meet the other people here like what if they dont like me and stuff. I hv some big decisions to make for when i get out of here cause clearly i cant stay at home with my parents cause they trigger everything bad. So i hv two options. 1) go to a boarding schl5To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter6To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter
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28To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter29To view data older than 3 months, become a MoodPanda Supporter30(2) Gonna hv to do it again. I tried but i cant recover. I still feel low the hospital didnt do shit. This time im gonna take like a 100 tablets tho so i can properly die. I just need to find a way to get some more. I found one packet with 32 but its out of date (i hv a huge problem with stuff like this) But then again desperate times call for desperate measures.