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Michael W HERO · 15 Sep 5
The leaves are changing and the days are getting even shorter. That means bad for my normal health. 😔 Had an intense therapy session yesterday about childhood trauma.
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Michael W HERO · 15 Sep
My birthday present came yesterday, a 61-key MIDI controller. One of my best friends came over and hung out.
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Manda P LEGEND · 16 Sep
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Ann L GUARDIAN · 16 Sep
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Jason J GUARDIAN · 08 Sep 5
cant seem to wake up or shake the brain fog today. Ugh
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 08 Sep 5
Proud of myself for getting up earlier today and for calling the doctors twice today. Trying to do some work but finding myself slightly frustrated with it. Wish the technical stuff was minimal.
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John T LEGEND · 07 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 07 Sep
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me M 1+ YEAR · 07 Sep
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Lucy C SUPPORTER · 07 Sep
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Manda P LEGEND · 08 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 08 Sep
Thanks me, Jeff, Lucy and Manda
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 08 Sep
Thanks Michael and Mercy
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nixiblu . HERO · 08 Sep
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Anonmous A HERO · 09 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 09 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 13 Sep
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Spacekitten V GUARDIAN · 15 Sep
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Manda P LEGEND · 08 Sep 5
Cinnamon toast in the middle of the night, but nothing else. That's a bit of good news. Gotta take daughter to the orthodontist in the morning to fix a wire that popped out which means up early.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 08 Sep
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
Man braces were weird to me. They were kinda fun because it was sort of a 'right off passage,' plus you got to choose your colors (until you get the power chains). I always did two sets of alternative colors on mine. Never was brave enough to do rain
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
Rainbows, but I want out of the closet that and I live in a very small town in the south... 😑
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
But they could definitely be a PITA.
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John T LEGEND · 08 Sep
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nixiblu . HERO · 08 Sep
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Anonmous A HERO · 09 Sep
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Manda P LEGEND · 09 Sep
Sorry you weren't ever able to do rainbow colors, mik. My daughter definitely did that once already. She wanted braces so bad & is already sick of them. She'll be thankful though. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💜
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 08 Sep 4
Didn't sleep well last night
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Jason J GUARDIAN · 08 Sep
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Love 1 LEGEND · 08 Sep
ditto
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
I know that feel...
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mercy B · 08 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 08 Sep
Thanks Jason, Love, Michael and mercy. Hope you get better sleep tonight Love and Michael
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John T LEGEND · 08 Sep
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me M 1+ YEAR · 08 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 08 Sep
Thanks John and ne
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 08 Sep
*me
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Jen B HERO · 08 Sep
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Anonmous A HERO · 09 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 09 Sep
Thanks Jen and anon
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Manda P LEGEND · 10 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 10 Sep
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Spacekitten V GUARDIAN · 15 Sep
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 15 Sep
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Love 1 LEGEND · 08 Sep 6
Poor night's sleep. Early a.m. wakeup. 45m meditation. Will extend the choosing love practice T-F as will be in contact w/students for 1st time in 6 months. They'll feel the vibe.
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
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John T LEGEND · 08 Sep
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Spacekitten V GUARDIAN · 12 Sep
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep 6
I need to update here more often. Kinga feeling 😄, but also feeling 😥 in the background... I hate mixed episodes.
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Michael W HERO · 08 Sep
Kinda* no idea where Kinga came from... Stupid autocorrect lol
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mercy B · 08 Sep
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corrado M · 08 Sep
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corrado M · 08 Sep
feeling like a Kinga
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John T LEGEND · 08 Sep
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Love 1 LEGEND · 08 Sep
kinga is a cool sounding word.
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Anonmous A HERO · 09 Sep
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Manda P LEGEND · 10 Sep
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Manda P LEGEND · 10 Sep
Ah, mixed episodes. They sure are something!
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Michael W HERO · 30 Jul 1
I want my family back. I'm tired of living like this. It's so painful to see my mom and dad interact the way they do. I wish this other guy would get lost forever. I'm so sick of this daily suffering.
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Michael W HERO · 30 Jul
That I literally can't do a single damn thing about to fix anything. It's just all on me to handle it the best I can until I can SOMEHOW overcome my mental illness and get a job during the pandemic and move out.
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Cassie A · 30 Jul
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Max T SUPPORTER · 30 Jul
You got this.
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Manda P LEGEND · 31 Jul
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Cassie A · 29 Jul 3
I'm afraid to go to sleep and wake up tomorrow and hate myself again.
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Mandy H · 29 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 29 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 29 Jul 3
Melancholic, anhedonic, no energy or motivation. My doc wore my Dexedrine for half the amount I normally take for some reason. I'm really feeling the effects.
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Laura B · 27 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 27 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 27 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 29 Jul
I could go on the portal and message, but since it's a schedule II med, I'd have to pick it up in person and deliver it to the pharmacy, which at this point wouldn't be such a bad idea. I was just so blaaah and down before you know?
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Michael W HERO · 29 Jul
I feel better now so much just having the stuff in my system. I think I'll wait until I go back for my next script to address it. It could be he just feels he doesn't want me on that high of a dose anymore.
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Michael W HERO · 29 Jul
Thanks for the suggestion!
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Michael W HERO · 12 Jul 4
Well crap... Had a good day yesterday and I guess this is the price to pay for it: a crappy day... Oh well. Maybe something will happen between now and tonight to make it better or maybe tomorrow...
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Michael W HERO · 12 Jul
... Might be a better day.
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corrado M · 12 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 12 Jul 7
Had a crap start to the day and a great finish to the day. Excellent therapy appointment, went on a very energizing walk in the park with a friend, and the protriptyline seems to already to be working
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Manda P LEGEND · 11 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 11 Jul
Awesome! Hope you enjoy your weekend, mik!
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 11 Jul
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corrado M · 11 Jul
nice to see you rating your mood higher since you're back writing in MP
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Michael W HERO · 12 Jul
Thanks everyone!
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Manda P LEGEND · 11 Jul 4
Psychiatrist didn't give me anything for anxiety &, for some reason, raised my Luvox dose back to what we thought was making me dizzy. Who knows? Tardive Dyskinesia is bad. I went from a 1 on...
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Manda P LEGEND · 11 Jul
...the scale to measure it the last time he checked to a 7 today. Not good. He is going to prescribe something if it's not better in the 3 weeks until I talk to him again. Daughter having a friend over tonight. She hasn't seen her friends in 4 months
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Manfred F · 11 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 11 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 11 Jul
Luvox was a very unfun medicine for me. What are you taking that is causing TD of you don't mind me asking? That's pretty serious! Are there no alternatives that wouldn't cause it? Clozapine is one that does to mind.
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Manda P LEGEND · 11 Jul
I've been on Clozapine for well over a year now. The TD started a long time ago. I've been on so many meds that it's hard for me to tell what started it. We had slowly lowered my Clozapine & now he thinks the higher dose was hiding the TD.
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 11 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 11 Jul
Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
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nixiblu . HERO · 11 Jul
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Bipolar Bear . 1+ YEAR · 12 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 12 Jul
Makes sense since it's very anticholinergic (with some mixed cholinergic activity). There's a brand new antipsychotic out that I'm on called Caplyta. It has very low risk of movement disorders. Maybe you could ask about it?
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Manda P LEGEND · 12 Jul
I will definitely ask about that. Thanks, mik, & thanks for the hugs, Pandas!💚
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul 6
Today was an okay day. I have a new sleep medicine called Doral which is alright. Anxiety is relief up, but I have Serax. I'm finally gaining weight again, unfortunately. I knew the day would come.
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul
Oh I also started counseling through BetterHelp a few weeks ago and that's really helping too! Going to be staying DBT for borderline personality disorder, something I've never experienced before.
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul
Starting* not staying lol
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Manfred F · 04 Jul
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Bipolar Bear . 1+ YEAR · 04 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul
Good luck with it! I hope it helps!
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul 6
Feeling somewhat out of the hole I was in before. Started a brand new drug that came out just recently, Caplyta. It has been a miracle for me. The difference is night and day!
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nixiblu . HERO · 28 Jun
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Shelley H HERO · 28 Jun
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Manda P LEGEND · 28 Jun
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Manda P LEGEND · 28 Jun
Good to see you, mik! Glad you are doing well!
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul
Thanks Manda!
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Shelley H HERO · 05 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 05 Jul
Very good my friend ❤ I'm happy for you. Keep up the good work
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Manda P LEGEND · 04 Jul 5
So dizzy & lightheaded. Took my reduced Luvox for the first time last night. Hope this helps SOON. Daughter started her period. I just happened to see she signed up for a period tracker when I...
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Manda P LEGEND · 03 Jul
...checked her email for a verification. I never look at her email & it just so happened she had started the day before. I asked her why she didn't tell me & she said she knew where the pads were. 😆
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Lenny + · 03 Jul
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Lenny + · 03 Jul
Gosh she really sounds like she has her head on her shoulders.
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Lenny + · 03 Jul
I definitely wish that I had a mom to bond and tell me about my period though. So maybe there's probably much more room there.
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Samantha C · 03 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 03 Jul
Thanks, Lenny, & thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul
Luvox was so trippy and hazy for me it was like I was in a constant state of doing shrooms. It was awful...
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Bipolar Bear . 1+ YEAR · 04 Jul
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nixiblu . HERO · 04 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 04 Jul
Sorry to hear that, mik. It was definitely what was causing the dizziness & anxiety. I feel so much better after just a couple lowered dose days. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
💜💜💜 your daughter sounds so cool
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul
Aw! Thanks, Alicia. That makes me happy. She actually is pretty damn cool!
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Michael W HERO · 08 Mar 3
Feeling like I'm going down again. Pleeease not again!! I can't stand this anymore...
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Tiffani E · 07 Mar
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Maria K 6+ MONTHS · 07 Mar
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Max T SUPPORTER · 07 Mar
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Max T SUPPORTER · 07 Mar
Hang in there, Michael. We're all here with you and for you. You can get through this.
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Manda P LEGEND · 08 Mar
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Michael W HERO · 08 Mar
Thanks everyone
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Frustrated at political disagreements.
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Jen B HERO · 02 Mar
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JVAN X GUARDIAN · 02 Mar
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JVAN X GUARDIAN · 02 Mar
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Michael W HERO · 03 Mar
Discussing politics is a guaranteed way to get p*ssed off. It always seems to escalate when two people find something they really disagree upon. It's sad. Happened with me and my best friend last night. We talked it out of course though.
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Michael W HERO · 16 Feb 7
Feeling oddly positive and energetic... Got a response from my psych. ECT is officially off the table with her. I am welcome to get a second opinion..... Continued in comment...
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Michael W HERO · 16 Feb
But I think the best thing for me is to stay the course of treatment, don't screw with my meds, and stick with her, because u can't imagine starting over new with someone unfamiliar especially in the acute condition I'm in now.
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Max T SUPPORTER · 16 Feb
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Michael W HERO · 16 Feb 5
Feeling semi normal this morning. Managed to fight off quite a lot of depression yesterday. I think Valium had to do with it.
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Michael W HERO · 16 Feb
I'm going to try to not take Valium today if I can help it because I want to see if this Fisher Whitacre Stimulator is actually working or not.
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Shania M · 16 Feb
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