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Michael W HERO · 02 Jan 0
Well shit... There it is again. I'm seriously thinking about going inpatient... I can't handle this constant, rapid, sudden ups and downs. It's killing me.
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Michael W HERO · 02 Jan
I'm so infuriated with my brain, my meds, everything. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of fighting. I'm just about done. But I know my mom would probably take her life too if I took mine. I don't want that. I wish I had simply never been born.
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Michael W HERO · 02 Jan
My brothers keep telling me I wasn't planned. My mom says that's bs. I don't think I was meant to be. I truly believe my existance is an anomaly.
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Michael W HERO · 02 Jan
I don't relate to hardly anyone, and those with whom I relate I barely relate I feel. Yet so many people who know me have such good things to say about me. I think they feel sorry for me.
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Michael W HERO · 02 Jan
A guy I was interested in told me in a breakup email (we lived in different states) that I have 'kicked puppy syndrome' or something like that. Like I'm too fragile to be f*cked or taken seriously as a sexual partner. Too f*ucking fragile.
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Michael W HERO · 02 Jan
Maybe that's why people always compliment me or are nice to me (except the ones who aren't, and that's probably the way it should be with everyone interacting with me...)
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corrado M · 02 Jan
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Ian D 6+ MONTHS · 02 Jan
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Ian D 6+ MONTHS · 02 Jan
Hang in there. Have you got someone who you can talk to?
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corrado M · 02 Jan
talk to us
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jan
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jan
Do you go to therapy? It would really help you out to talk about all this. No one is too fragile to be cared about.
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Michael W HERO · 08 Jan
I do go to therapy. I have an appointment on the 14th. My apologies for the angry post.
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Michael W HERO · 19 Dec 5
Not wanting to say that the veils have been lifted because I don't want to jinx myself, but I have felt more like myself for the past few days.
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Michael W HERO · 19 Dec
Thanks everyone for supporting me during this difficult time! 😁
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Jake M · 19 Dec
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Penelope P LEGEND · 19 Dec
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Spacekitten V 6+ MONTHS · 19 Dec
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Caroline M · 19 Dec
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Manda P LEGEND · 20 Dec
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Manda P LEGEND · 20 Dec
Glad to hear!
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Michael W HERO · 11 Dec 0
Feeling very disenchanted with the world. I'm such a burden by being born. I wish I never existed so it wouldn't hurt those who love me when I finally take my life.
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Michael W HERO · 11 Dec
If I make it to next year, okay... But if I make it to 2021, it'll be a damn miracle.
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nixiblu . HERO · 12 Dec
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nixiblu . HERO · 12 Dec
Michael. We are all here for you. 2019,2020,2021 and beyond
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Jacynta R · 12 Dec
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Hannah G · 12 Dec
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Sif M · 12 Dec
I feel love and care for you. Just because you were born.
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 12 Dec
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Alicia B LEGEND · 12 Dec
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Michael W HERO · 12 Dec
Thank all of you
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Spacekitten V 6+ MONTHS · 13 Dec
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Manda P LEGEND · 13 Dec
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Manda P LEGEND · 13 Dec
We've got lots of love for you, mik! Remember it will always get better. Maybe not as quickly as you'd like, but you'll get there!
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Michael W HERO · 10 Dec 3
Feeling kinda like garbage this morning.
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Albertine M LEGEND · 09 Dec
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Albertine M LEGEND · 09 Dec
Sorry to hear that, Michael - you certainly aren't, hope feeling passes quickly
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Spacekitten V 6+ MONTHS · 09 Dec
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Manda P LEGEND · 09 Dec
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Michael W HERO · 10 Dec
Thanks
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Spacekitten V 6+ MONTHS · 13 Dec
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Michael W HERO · 04 Dec 0
My ex gave me a stern talking to about how I always look miserable and it's isolating me. I feel so despondent that I don't know what to do. I know he was trying to help me, but he was crass about it.
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Michael W HERO · 04 Dec
I feel like I'm done with life. I'm over. Michael's story has been finished. Now it's just time for me to kick the bucket and take a dirt nap, whenever that may be.
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 04 Dec
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Lini V · 04 Dec
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Thalia R · 04 Dec
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Metron A SUPPORTER · 04 Dec
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Metron A SUPPORTER · 04 Dec
I'm sorry to hear you are so down. Please don't do anything drastic. Pandas are here for you.
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nixiblu . HERO · 04 Dec
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Manda P LEGEND · 04 Dec
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Manda P LEGEND · 04 Dec
Sorry to see you are feeling this way, mik. It only goes up from here.
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Michael W HERO · 27 Nov 3
Still thinking about him... All the things I'll never get to experience with him. I'm going to miss being his boyfriend, but look forward to being his good friend.
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Michael W HERO · 27 Nov
He's not going anywhere, and I'm very thankful for that.
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Eve H · 27 Nov
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M M · 28 Nov
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Manda P LEGEND · 29 Nov
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Michael W HERO · 21 Nov 6
Had a good weekend. The musical is finally over so that's a lot less stress, but the Peace on Earth concert is coming up which introduces a new onslaught of stress.
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Spacekitten V 6+ MONTHS · 18 Nov
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Jen B HERO · 18 Nov
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Albertine M LEGEND · 19 Nov
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Albertine M LEGEND · 19 Nov
So nice to see you again, Michael, and great to see green!
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Manda P LEGEND · 19 Nov
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Michael W HERO · 21 Nov
Thanks everyone! It's good to be back! I'm glad they finally updated the app where I can use it on my phone (sort of... There are still some bugs here and there...)
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Alicia B LEGEND · 21 Nov
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Michael W HERO · 12 Nov 5
Feeling somewhat normal for the first time after having a massive meltdown last week...
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Michael W HERO · 12 Nov
I'm super thankful for my support system... My family, friends, and my boyfriend have all been wonderful to me the past few days. I wish I could be a better person for them.
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Melissa G NEW · 12 Nov
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Lenora H · 12 Nov
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Ian D 6+ MONTHS · 12 Nov
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Manda P LEGEND · 15 Nov
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Manda P LEGEND · 15 Nov
I'm sure they love you just the way you are! Glad to see ya back, mik!
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Michael W HERO · 18 Nov
Thanks!
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Michael W HERO · 19 Aug 6
Suddenly feeling much better. I APPLIED FOR JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBS!!!!!
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Manda P LEGEND · 17 Aug
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Manda P LEGEND · 17 Aug
Woo-hoo! Good luck!
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Albertine M LEGEND · 17 Aug
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Albertine M LEGEND · 17 Aug
Good luck!
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 17 Aug
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Michael W HERO · 19 Aug
Thanks! :D
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Manda P LEGEND · 25 Oct
mik, you look GREAT! Very healthy & happy! That makes me so happy! Well done on getting things back on track. May your happiness continue! 😊
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Michael W HERO · 04 Aug 0
Awaiting the heat death of the universe.
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Metron A SUPPORTER · 01 Aug
It's going to be awhile. Hope things get better for you a lot sooner.
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Metron A SUPPORTER · 01 Aug
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Lydia R HERO · 01 Aug
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 01 Aug
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Manda P LEGEND · 01 Aug
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Manda P LEGEND · 01 Aug
Thinking of you, mik. 💚
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Michael W HERO · 04 Aug
Thanks everyone
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Michael W HERO · 28 Jul 1
Still in the #pits. Nothing helps. No desire or will to do anything. I don't even feel like calling my psychiatrist for help. To top everything off, I'm broke and am scared to apply for a job...
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Manda P LEGEND · 19 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 19 Jul
So sorry to see you still feeling so low, mik. Hope those brighter days come soon.
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Michael W HERO · 28 Jul
Thanks
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Michael W HERO · 11 Jul 2
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Pseudo Bear ! HERO · 10 Jul
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Bipolar Bear . 1+ YEAR · 10 Jul
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Raquel P NEW · 10 Jul
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Stephy M NEW · 10 Jul
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Lydia R HERO · 10 Jul
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Ade W · 10 Jul
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 10 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 10 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 10 Jul
*big hugs* Hope you start feeling better soon, mik.
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Michael W HERO · 11 Jul
Thanks Manda. And thanks everyone.
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Michael W HERO · 02 Jun 3
Today was an ungood day. Hoping for a good day soon.
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jun
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Misfit girl L · 01 Jun
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Lydia R HERO · 01 Jun
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Baby Girl c · 01 Jun
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Dave C · 01 Jun
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Cheyenne M · 01 Jun
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Ade W · 01 Jun
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 01 Jun
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Michael W HERO · 02 Jun
Thank you all! Means a lot!! 🌈
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Michael W HERO · 01 Jun 4
Felt like garbage today. Stayed in bed all day with a stomach ache. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
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Pseudo Bear ! HERO · 30 May
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Shelley H HERO · 30 May
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Albertine M LEGEND · 30 May
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Albertine M LEGEND · 30 May
Feel better soon xx
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Metron A SUPPORTER · 30 May
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Lieteke G · 30 May
Hope you feel a little better already!
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Michael W HERO · 01 Jun
Thanks everybody!!
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Michael W HERO · 23 May 7
I've come down with a cold or something but it hasn't affected my mood!
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Lieteke G · 22 May
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 22 May
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Manda P LEGEND · 22 May
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Manda P LEGEND · 22 May
Glad it hasn't affected your mood but I hope you feel better soon, mik!
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Lydia R HERO · 22 May
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Albertine M LEGEND · 22 May
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Albertine M LEGEND · 22 May
What Manda said:)
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Michael W HERO · 23 May
Thanks!! 🌈
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Manda P LEGEND · 18 May 4
Appointment in 5 hours. Gotta keep my mind busy. Just want this to be over with & me doing my regularly scheduled grocery shopping afterwards. Have gained so much weight. No more caloric beverages.
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Lydia R HERO · 17 May
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Lydia R HERO · 17 May
That's at least some good news. :) hope the appt goes well!
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Natalie C GUARDIAN · 17 May
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Natalie C GUARDIAN · 17 May
Hope your appointment goes well xx
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Manda P LEGEND · 17 May
Thanks, Lydia. I'm sure it'll be fine. Debating whether or not to take a clonazapam that is supposed to be hidden from me. Was a su*c*de risk but they were in the very first spot I looked. No joke! I guess I'm on BF's wavelength. Thanks for the hugs!
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Lydia R HERO · 17 May
What does this pill do? There's not so much time left now, right? Isn't there anything you can do to distract yourself?
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Manda P LEGEND · 17 May
Thank you, Natalie. I'm sure you are a pro at dreading appointments! xx
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Manda P LEGEND · 17 May
It's an anti-anxiety med & it really works now that I don't take them often. I've spent the morning researching my ancestry on my dad's side because I pretty much know nothing about it. I found a second cousin on a DNA site. I'm so excited! 2 hours.😕
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Lydia R HERO · 17 May
So it's not a risk any longer? Is there a chance that the anxiety will go away on its own after the appointment? If you absolutely can't take it anymore then you have to decide what to do. I just hope you'll feel better later.
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John T LEGEND · 17 May
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 17 May
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Silke V HERO · 17 May
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Margot L SUPPORTER · 17 May
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Albertine M LEGEND · 17 May
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Albertine M LEGEND · 17 May
Hope it went well xx
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nixiblu . HERO · 18 May
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Manda P LEGEND · 18 May
Oh, no, Lydia. The med that made me so sick was Lithium. I had severe toxicity which ended up causing a severe lack of potassium which made them hook me up to a heart monitor the whole time I was there, give me potassium thru my IV & 2 pill form...
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Manda P LEGEND · 18 May
...doses, & who knows how many bags of IV fluids they ran thru me. I was severely dehydrated as well which is expected for violently puking for 8 days straight! I did take the pill though & I think it helped a lot. Thanks for all the hugs,, Pandas! 💜
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Michael W HERO · 18 May
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Michael W HERO · 18 May 5
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Manda P LEGEND · 17 May
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Manda P LEGEND · 17 May
I like your mental health support ribbon. Glad you are out of the red!
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Lydia R HERO · 17 May
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 17 May
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Albertine M LEGEND · 17 May
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Michael W HERO · 18 May
Thank you! And I am too! I hope it stays!
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 16 Apr 4
Really sad to confirm that a fellow MoodPanda, Nick N, is no longer with us :( he was a lovely person and I hoped I could help but he decided to take his life. I hope you have finally found peace Nick
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 14 Apr
Thank you for all the support you gave me and fellow pandas. I barely knew you but you deserved to be happy.
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K T 6+ MONTHS · 14 Apr
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K T 6+ MONTHS · 14 Apr
Was that Nick who was in the hospital? This is very sad. I didn't have too much interaction with him but I saw a couple of his posts. RIP Nick. Hope you and fellow pandas are coping alright Tasha xxx
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Penelope P LEGEND · 14 Apr
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Penelope P LEGEND · 14 Apr
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anon u NEW · 14 Apr
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Reba H GUARDIAN · 15 Apr
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Esther B LEGEND · 15 Apr
Oh no :( sad news
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Esther B LEGEND · 15 Apr
I've read it on his FB now. Hopefully he's in peace now indeed.
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Lydia R HERO · 15 Apr
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John T LEGEND · 15 Apr
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 15 Apr
Yeah he was in hospital, they had just moved him to some private accommodation xx
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Esther B LEGEND · 15 Apr
Poor soul. But I think he was happy with your support Tasha! X
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 15 Apr
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K T 6+ MONTHS · 15 Apr
Ah gosh. I can never understand when they discharge people who still clearly need support. Nick knew himself he was not ready. 😢 Too sad.
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K T 6+ MONTHS · 15 Apr
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Albertine M LEGEND · 15 Apr
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Albertine M LEGEND · 15 Apr
Thank you for sharing this, Tasha, even though it's so sad. I'd been wondering how he was.
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Natalie C GUARDIAN · 15 Apr
This is so sad, hopefully his at peace. ☹ thanks for letting us know Tasha xx
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DesBear D GUARDIAN · 15 Apr
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Clara B 4+ YEAR · 15 Apr
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Richard E SUPPORTER · 16 Apr
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Margot L SUPPORTER · 16 Apr
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 16 Apr
Thank you everyone for your kind comments, hopefully he is in a better place now xx
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nixiblu . HERO · 16 Apr
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Love 1 LEGEND · 16 Apr
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Love 1 LEGEND · 16 Apr
A tragedy. He was a tortured soul. I feel sorry for his children, his family, his ex, those who cared about him.
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Michael W HERO · 16 Apr
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sonny S 1+ YEAR · 16 Apr
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Katie S SUPPORTER · 16 Apr
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Katie S SUPPORTER · 16 Apr
I hope he's at peace now.
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Richard E SUPPORTER · 16 Apr
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Binky B HERO · 17 Apr
Oh, Nick! So sad. ***e is really hard to accept and process :( he must have been suffering ever so deeply... Goodbye, Nick. You're back with nature now...
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Tasha S GUARDIAN · 16 Apr 6
Looking after myself
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Silke V HERO · 16 Apr
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nixiblu . HERO · 16 Apr
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 16 Apr
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Love 1 LEGEND · 16 Apr
important.
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K T 6+ MONTHS · 16 Apr
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Tuxi A HERO · 16 Apr
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Michael W HERO · 16 Apr
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Manda P LEGEND · 16 Apr
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Margot L SUPPORTER · 16 Apr
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Albertine M LEGEND · 16 Apr
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Albertine M LEGEND · 16 Apr
Good to hear
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Natalie C GUARDIAN · 16 Apr
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Katie S SUPPORTER · 16 Apr
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Mandy O SUPPORTER · 17 Apr
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Michael W HERO · 12 Apr 7
Feeling better today.
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Louise S · 10 Apr
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Louise S · 10 Apr
Keep that rolling but!
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Louise S · 10 Apr
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Louise S · 10 Apr
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Janine S 1+ YEAR · 10 Apr
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Richard E SUPPORTER · 10 Apr
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Lydia R HERO · 11 Apr
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Manda P LEGEND · 11 Apr
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Albertine M LEGEND · 11 Apr
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Albertine M LEGEND · 11 Apr
Woo!
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Michael W HERO · 12 Apr
Thanks everyone!
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