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Had a crap start to the day and a great finish to the day. Excellent therapy appointment, went on a very energizing walk in the park with a friend, and the protriptyline seems to already to be working
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Manda P LEGEND · 57m
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Manda P LEGEND · 57m
Awesome! Hope you enjoy your weekend, mik!
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 30m
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I'm having a hard time lately. The insights I've had are upsetting, and I can't get any therapy yet. I feel like I've finally put the puzzle of my personality (and thus my life) together. I now
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
understand my motivations from 20 and 10 years ago that have been a mystery to me until now. But since I don't know how to heal by myself, it all scares me. I'm afraid I'll ruin everything now that I finally have something that is worth a lot to me.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
I'm afraid I'm already ruining it. I'm being paranoid, which is a part of my self-diagniosis that might or might not be confirmed in two months.
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Dianne D · 1d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
I'm afraid I'm ruining it by actually being paranoid. By asking for reassurance all the ***ing time. By not being positive and energetic. By not figuring my *** out anymore. I'm afraid I have presented myself as someone far better than the real me.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
I didn't do it on purpose. I've done my best to be honest. I am so tired of myself, of my mind giving me endless proof of everything going to shut, even as I understand that those reasons are not real.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
Mental illness sucks. It's really hard to live with. It's really painful and exhausting. Sport helps. Being outside helps. At least I'll come out of this crisis with firmer thighs, right?
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corrado M · 18h
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Manda P LEGEND · 2h
It's good you realize you are being paranoid. People love you no matter what & I find that hard to accept myself.
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5-5.5. Meals were OK and I did a little writing but other than that, the day's continued like before. At least I got to meditate. Writing and other things would be great to do tomorrow.
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Lenny + · 21h
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Manfred F · 2h 5
<5 - you know how bad it is for your mental health to have absolutely nothing to do? Just can't find motivation to do anything.. stuck in this loop again 😠
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Manda P LEGEND · 2h
I know that feeling all too well. Hope it passes soon!
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Feeling the stress on my chest bc I'll see my ex tonight.
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Anna D 1+ YEAR · 15h
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Manfred F · 2h
Hope it went well.. ❤
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Seeing him give me such a strange feeling. I feel so hurt. It's like I don't feel love anymore, I just me who we were, I mis him but he feels like a different person. And that just hurts.
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P B · 6h
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Manda P LEGEND · 2h
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Psychiatrist didn't give me anything for anxiety &, for some reason, raised my Luvox dose back to what we thought was making me dizzy. Who knows? Tardive Dyskinesia is bad. I went from a 1 on...
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Manda P LEGEND · 2h
...the scale to measure it the last time he checked to a 7 today. Not good. He is going to prescribe something if it's not better in the 3 weeks until I talk to him again. Daughter having a friend over tonight. She hasn't seen her friends in 4 months
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Manfred F · 2h
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Michael W HERO · 1h
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Michael W HERO · 1h
Luvox was a very unfun medicine for me. What are you taking that is causing TD of you don't mind me asking? That's pretty serious! Are there no alternatives that wouldn't cause it? Clozapine is one that does to mind.
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Manda P LEGEND · 58m
I've been on Clozapine for well over a year now. The TD started a long time ago. I've been on so many meds that it's hard for me to tell what started it. We had slowly lowered my Clozapine & now he thinks the higher dose was hiding the TD.
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 23m
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Stepped on the scales first time since pre covid. I've put on half a stone. 😢
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
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Samantha C · 1d
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Manfred F · 1d
Who cares about half a stone? Though I have to admit to have no idea how much that is 😅
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corrado M · 18h
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corrado M · 18h
'let him who is without sin care about the first half stone'
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Anna D 1+ YEAR · 15h
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nixiblu . HERO · 8h
Lol guys. Thanks
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
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Manfred F · 1d
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Manfred F · 1d
Big hug!
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5-5.5. Meals were so-so and I didn't have much of an appetite. Today was pretty quiet. I didn't do much writing or anything else besides watching TV.
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Manfred F · 2d
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Manfred F · 1d 6
Sort of ok. Let's see what the day brings
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Ira T · 2d
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Emma M · 2d
Have a great day I hope it's productive and happy ! 🌈🌻
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me M 1+ YEAR · 2d
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
Hope you're having a good one!
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Therapy went well. Reported a panic attack on the 2nd & two, almost three, yesterday. Speak to psychiatrist tomorrow. Don't have much hope for him prescribing something. Worrying so much about...
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
...them returning to school. This happens every year but it's amplified by a million with them being out since mid March & all the COVID sh*t they are going to have to deal with.
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Manfred F · 1d
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Manda P LEGEND · 24h
Thanks for the hug, Manfred!
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Manfred F · 2d 3
Think i just lost the girl I was courting. She said she likes me and I'm a good guy (too good), but apparently I can't give her a feeling of safety and security. I'm not quite heartbroken, but it ..
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Manfred F · 3d
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Manfred F · 3d
..stings. I really feel a lot for her.
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Jen B HERO · 3d
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Ann J · 3d
Don't worry about that, love is nothing to force. Be happy, build up your confidence, have a good day :)
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elaine G NEW · 3d
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Manfred F · 2d
Thank you Pandas! ❤
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Manda P LEGEND · 2d
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Manda P LEGEND · 2d
Sorry to hear that. I'll throw the old one liner out that there are always more fish in the sea!
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Manfred F · 2d
Just gotta deal with them feelings.. and then hook away to catch another one and hopefully reel in it this time, haha 😅
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me M 1+ YEAR · 1d
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Time for night night. I hope you guys.had am good.day. Things are.getting better around here. I'm real happy 😊
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Sif M · 3d
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Manda P LEGEND · 2d
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Meh. Blah.
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 3d
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5.5-6. It was another average day and I helped prepare some food. Meals were OK.
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Manfred F · 3d
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First day back at work since the beginning of Corona. I was afraid I'd forgotten what I had to do, especially with the brain fog I'm experiencing, but it went ok. I'm very tired though.
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Manfred F · 3d
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Anna D 1+ YEAR · 3d
I hope you'll be fine in job now!
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Tayla O 6+ MONTHS · 2d
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Failed on c25k. Two ten minute runs and I couldn't finish the second one. Probably only ran half of it. Knee hurt after. I'm sick of being so heavy and stiff. I'm sick of having a messed up head.
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Manfred F · 3d
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Manda P LEGEND · 2d
***big hugs***
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Manda P LEGEND · 2d
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I wear medical dog tag and bracelet listing ailments and emergency contacts. Must wear at all times. Also have life alert necklace that is monitored. Don't always wear.it tho. Usually only when nervou
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Shelley H HERO · 2d
Or visited by Dr or outsiders. Should take it more seriously. We live in a great country! Yes we do !
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Manfred F · 2d
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