Melody L - MoodPanda Mood Diary

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nixiblu . HERO · 09 Oct 5

Still brooding over failed relationship. I had such false expectations that he was the one. I'm disappointed, and always find endings tough. It's hard to let go and stop thinking about him

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Nik S · 06 Oct

bad story

Albertine M LEGEND · 06 Oct

I'm sorry, nixi - like you I find it hard not to brood when things end. Hope you can hang in there x

Sarah H · 06 Oct

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Love ! LEGEND · 06 Oct

it is hard. The grieving process is more of a journey- and a long one at that. Knowing this, we can allow ourselves to feel & grieve with self-compassion.

Melody L GUARDIAN · 09 Oct

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nixiblu . HERO · 09 Oct 4

So close to tears all the time

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Nik S · 07 Oct

Spacekitten V GUARDIAN · 12 Oct

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nixiblu . HERO · 23 Sep 4

Down about lack of energy, relationship break up , work. , Weight. Can't change the mindset at the moment

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Penelope P LEGEND · 20 Sep

Sometimes you just have to wallow for a while and lick your wounds x

D C · 21 Sep

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Actually. I realize that I was disoriented about not being able to work and have no income in covid. And when I expressed I was lonely I got 'you have friends' as a retort. But I wanted more care and attention from him.

nixiblu . HERO · 23 Sep

When I got work and found it hard to adjust and was tired. I wanted him to listen and be encouraging. There was none.

nixiblu . HERO · 23 Sep

The lack of energy, my snappiness and weight gain came from me feeling stressed and neglected and a bit down. The break up was not why I was down. It is the solution

Manda P LEGEND · 23 Sep

Glad you are getting things figured out, nixi. 💙

Emma M SUPPORTER · 24 Sep

Me too glad you've worked thru it a bit. Next step is solving the issues once we've done our soul's searching. I'v stood back and tried to work things out in my own life too,and it's TRUE sometimes we do need to just wallow a bit then move on ! 🌈🌻

nixiblu . HERO · 24 Sep

Thank you ladies. X

Spacekitten V GUARDIAN · 25 Sep

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Melody L GUARDIAN · 23 Sep 6

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Spacekitten V GUARDIAN · 15 Sep

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Jake G ADMIN - CHIEFPANDA · 18 Sep

Cindy has gifted you shiny silver medals! :-)

Melody L GUARDIAN · 23 Sep

Wow, thank you! :))

nixiblu . HERO · 24 Sep

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Melody L GUARDIAN · 31 Aug 6

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John T LEGEND · 30 Aug

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John T LEGEND · 30 Aug

Mushroom season, Melody

Andreas F 6+ MONTHS · 30 Aug

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Beth W · 30 Aug

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Ann L GUARDIAN · 31 Aug

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Melody L GUARDIAN · 31 Aug

Haha, John T, you remember :D

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me M 1+ YEAR · 25 Jun 2

He put so many problems into my life. Made me cry for days. Just a month ago I cried day and night because of thinking he haid a child. And now I have to deal with the problems he brought to the

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me M 1+ YEAR · 25 Jun

the project. Alone.

me M 1+ YEAR · 25 Jun

Now I don't answer him. And I don't care. He will be treated like all the guys get from me.

Tinker B · 25 Jun

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corrado M 6+ MONTHS · 25 Jun

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Shelley H HERO · 25 Jun

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nixiblu . HERO · 14 Jun 5

Friend cancelled meeting today which was fine as I wanted only to sleep. Falling into a bit of depression. Recognise it. I hadn't washed my hair in 10 days. Not exercising. Getting Chubby

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Tine K · 13 Jun

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Shelley H HERO · 13 Jun

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Tayla O 6+ MONTHS · 14 Jun

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Penelope P LEGEND · 07 Jun 3

Recently I feel like my head is going to explode. I don't know who I am, where I am, what the point is. Never felt so detached from the human race in my entire life.

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Ann L GUARDIAN · 06 Jun

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nixiblu . HERO · 07 Jun

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me M 1+ YEAR · 31 May 1

Whenever I meet with him I feel good and calm for a few days. It only lasts a few days. But then I fall into tears again and miss him. He doesn't know any of it.

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me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

whatever needs to happen will happen. I guess

Jen B HERO · 30 May

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corrado M 6+ MONTHS · 30 May

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corrado M 6+ MONTHS · 30 May

maybe the few days will be a little more, and then a little more. and in the end the bad days will be in minority.

me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

Thank you corrado <3

paul M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

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nixiblu . HERO · 31 May

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me M 1+ YEAR · 31 May 2

It had to come sometime. I've been at my mom for almost a week. She drives me crazy.

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me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

But I feel better here. Don't want to go home so much. to be alone. With my thoughts.

me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

Don't know if I'm feeling better because I met him. And now it's still fresh. Although here I am missing my place.

me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

I've heard a song before that talks about someone who doesn't want to be dependent on love.

me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

It's obviously because I met him. I feel better. Because the day before, I wrote that I cried all night and all morning and for two weeks. It has such an effect on me. I'm afraid it will come again. I hope not.

me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

I hope he doesn't disappoint me.

me M 1+ YEAR · 30 May

I feel like if he disappoints me in the next few days. I'll call H. Because I have no power to cry again two weeks and a month

nixiblu . HERO · 31 May

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Anonmous A HERO · 28 May 2

Missed my panda friends...I've not forgotten you guys you have always been in my heart. Grateful to each of you since 2013 when we 1st met ❤ thank you.

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Melody L GUARDIAN · 28 May

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Anonmous A HERO · 28 May

Thanks Melody <3

Shelley H HERO · 28 May

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Shelley H HERO · 28 May

Hey Anon ❤ Missed you my friend XXX

Ada L 6+ MONTHS · 28 May

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Jen B HERO · 29 May

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Anonmous A HERO · 29 May

Missed you too , Shelly H <3

Anonmous A HERO · 29 May

Thanks Ada, Spencer & Jen <3<3<3

Manda P LEGEND · 29 May

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nixiblu . HERO · 31 May

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nixiblu . HERO · 31 May

Hey Anon.

nixiblu . HERO · 31 May

Welcome back. Good to hear from you. Hope all has been ok

Anonmous A HERO · 12 Jun

<3 Thanks Manda P & <3 Nixiblu...good to be bk, missed you too.

H F HERO · 22 Jan

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me M 1+ YEAR · 24 May 1

I just want to cry. I've been crying for a week. Why did he do this to me. Why he lied. I asked him even before we met if he had children. I asked. And he answered no.

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me M 1+ YEAR · 23 May

In the first message I asked. And I knew why I was asking. What kind of person is lying like that. Why.

me M 1+ YEAR · 23 May

I do not know what to do. Do block him. Do confront him. But every day that goes by, it hurts more. I have to do something.

me M 1+ YEAR · 23 May

I knew why I asked. Because children come with a woman. I have no problem with children. I have a problem with a woman. I need a mutual connection. And if he answered yes I would be more careful. But he lied. What kin of man can lie like that.

me M 1+ YEAR · 23 May

I feel so hurt. It's the worse than anyone ever did to me.

me M 1+ YEAR · 23 May

I just want to stop feeling that way. I don't care about anything. Just stop feeling like I just want to cry for a week.

Ann L GUARDIAN · 23 May

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Ann L GUARDIAN · 23 May

Distract somehow. Warm bath ,candles,good movie, eat good ,try to sleep.try don't analyze the situation.

Ann J · 23 May

If he lied to you about something that for you means it's over then that's it. Take care of yourself not him. People are sometimes like that, it is nice to find nice relationship, but if it's not then not. It is ok. Lying is not right though.

Ann J · 23 May

But it is he who lied, not you. Be well.

Anna D SUPPORTER · 23 May

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Anna D SUPPORTER · 23 May

Oh, sorry to hear that :( He isn't worth your tears. You're a great person that deserves a good guy and love. Take a day off, buy your meal, watch films and repeat yourself you're a great person :)

corrado M 6+ MONTHS · 23 May

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Grace R NEW · 23 May

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me M 1+ YEAR · 24 May

Thank you Ann L, Ann J, Anna, corrado and Grace.

Melody L GUARDIAN · 24 May

At least you found out soon enough. Keep searching, don't lose hope. Or talk to him about why he lied, about his past relationship.. and then decide if he had good intentions or not.

Melody L GUARDIAN · 24 May

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me M 1+ YEAR · 25 May

Thanks Melody!

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me M 1+ YEAR · 11 May 3

I have awful thoughts.Fears he was going to disappoint me. And tell me he's not continuing the project. I don't know what to do with those thoughts. I do know that this

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me M 1+ YEAR · 11 May

may have to do with past fears. But even if he tells me he's here and that everything is fine, I still won't feel confident. I don't know what he can do to give me confidence

Split P LEGEND · 11 May

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Shelley H HERO · 11 May

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Max T LEGEND · 11 May

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Max T LEGEND · 11 May

You have all the confidence you need inside you. X

me M 1+ YEAR · 12 May

Thanks Max xx and all

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me M 1+ YEAR · 10 May 1

I hope he won't disappoint me in real life. Like he did in the dream:(

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Melody L GUARDIAN · 10 May

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John T LEGEND · 10 May

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John T LEGEND · 10 May

Real life is a different kind of dream where you can make your own rules

Anna D SUPPORTER · 10 May

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Anna D SUPPORTER · 10 May

I think that you're only so afraid your new guy will be the same as H was and dreams try to handle with this. Hang on ❤️

me M 1+ YEAR · 11 May

Thank you Melody, Johnya and Anna, my lovely pandas

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me M 1+ YEAR · 03 May 3

I feel angry at him right now.Yesterday I felt I was in denial. I guess anger is the second stage. In the process I have no idea what the next stage is.But that's good because I don't want to contact

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me M 1+ YEAR · 02 May

anymore, right now

Jen B HERO · 02 May

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nixiblu . HERO · 03 May

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me M 1+ YEAR · 10 Apr 4

As much as I want to believe in his actions that they show interest. I need to listen to the words. And not try to believe in something that doesn't exist because I might crash. And in his own words

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me M 1+ YEAR · 09 Apr

he said that at the first meeting we decided it was just a project connection. And that's what it is. And I have to believe it. And to release

Shelley H HERO · 09 Apr

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me M 1+ YEAR · 24 Mar 4

I felt good. I enjoyed my time in isolation. I moved on. Suddenly H writes me messages he wants to meet. And I didn't answer him, he sent me a picture of another woman (he thought it would annoy me)

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