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Beer dinner was fun last night and delicious. But poor night's sleep and feeling ill this morning from the food/drink. Managed a few treadmill miles. Lots of work stress piling up.
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Last work night this week. I'll have three days off. Still enjoying myself, not very tired, but looking forward to some gaming, some rum and some chill time doing nothing.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
I've noticed lately that my self esteem does not depend on how good I am at something anymore. It's a change that's happened sometime in the last year and a half. I used to be upset by failing a tiny thing at work, by making a mistake when I speak, b
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Brandon A NEW · 3h
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
By not looking good enough, by not doing something creative well enough, by saying something stupid, by not being liked by some random, by losing a game. It's amazing how much I've changed. And before the antidepressants, too
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Brandon A NEW · 3h
I love everything about this!
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
I feel much more stable on them and thus more able to enjoy this change. The work I've been doing was not in vain, I'm sure all the reading, thinking, self-talk, exercises and journaling have all helped. But nothing has ever felt as powerful as
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
finding a therapeutic alliance. I call it that even though it's not with a mental health professional. An intimate relationship, a real human connection, love, call it what you will. I feel supported and safe and cared about for the first time in my
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
I feel like I can be myself. And work on becoming a better myself. Everything is easier
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
now. Work, sleep, creativity, relating to people, not just the one person but all people
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
Dancing, singing, thinking, sitting on a bus, doing nothing, being excited and being bored. It's the end of the year and I thought I'd take some time to appreciate this gift out loud. 2019 was amazing.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
Thank you to the universe
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
And to the young pandas out there, don't lose hope. Life can be tough but it can also surprise you.
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Jake M · 3h 1
Why is it so hard to do things that I need to do. Why is it so hard to get the help that I need. They say you can 'easily get what ever help you need' as long as it's listed on this half page .
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Started the day hungover. Lunch with a friend then started Christmas shopping
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Danika M NEW · 3h 9
Might be spending the weekend with my girl! Super excited. I love her so much and I know she loves me too
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Didn't really update over the long weekend. Feel pretty ok today physically. Had a nice sense of accomplishment yesterday. Enjoyed the run and socializing last night, and got 5 miles on 'mill this AM.
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Jeff M LEGEND · 3d
Beer dinner tonight with a friend, which I'm really looking forward to despite feeling like I've done nothing but eat and drink for 5 days!
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Jeff M LEGEND · 3d
Excited to have so many days off this month (we have to use 1/2 our vacation or lose it by end of year). Not a single full week of work this month! Not that I have anything to do on those days off...
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Mark M · 3d
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Mark M · 3d
Hopefully you can find something to do on your days off.
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Manda P LEGEND · 2d
Enjoy all your days off. You deserve a break!
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I'm having a great time at work. I feel a little stupid because of my German, but I enjoy doing the bar and giving people alcohol in general 😁 Also, watching a film and having some free pizza is
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Alicia B LEGEND · 2d
pretty nice. I like coming home in the morning. I like mornings but I hate waking up early, so this is perfect. Plus, I'm getting a ton of flattery from coworkers and guests, and who doesn't like an ego massage?
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Alicia B LEGEND · 2d
I feel confident in both my mind and my body. If only I could come home and find there someone who is currently far away, then my happiness would be total.
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Jake M · 2d
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Jeff M LEGEND · 2d
Glad you're enjoying the job, even with the language barrier!
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
So happy to see this much green! I'm glad things are going well. Sounds like you are a rockstar at the new job!
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3h
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Therapy went well. We were supposed to pick a topic to work on with EMDR but there is just SO MUCH & it's all connected. She says I'm opening the door & seeing what's in the room. She says this is ok.
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Manda P LEGEND · 3d
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Manda P LEGEND · 3d
Ugh, hugged myself. Wanted to say that this is bringing up lots of old memories. Crazy to miss my ex when I think he broke me.
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Jake M · 3d
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Ian D 6+ MONTHS · 3d
We have to keep feeling these things to get over them properly, hard but stick at it.
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Ian D 6+ MONTHS · 3d
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Jeff M LEGEND · 3d
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Jeff M LEGEND · 3d
I hope you manage to clear out that room and decorate it with all sorts of good stuff that makes you happy! Subconscious feng shui! (I like this metaphor!)
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Manda P LEGEND · 2d
Thank you, Pandas. I like that metaphor too, Jeff. Will be sharing it with my therapist!
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Alicia B LEGEND · 2d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 2d
I like the sound of that too, Jeff
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BF had a big dentist appt today. Infected broken tooth that needed an extraction & bridge work. I feel bad for him. He has tomorrow off so I look forward to spending the day with him. I want a nap. 😴
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Alicia B LEGEND · 2d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 2d
Poor thing. Hope he feels better soon.
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Manda P LEGEND · 1d
Thanks, Alicia. He's still sore & a little swollen but hopefully it'll feel better soon. He's a trooper!
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Stressed about dentists check up tomorrow but feeling ok. Haven't been running for a while need to get back out there. All my favourite paths are saturated after the city's most wet autumn on record.
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John T LEGEND · 20 Nov
Can't make excuses because I usually just run round and round the council estate.
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Spacekitten V 6+ MONTHS · 20 Nov
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Panic attack earlier prevented me from going to volunteering but a new album downloaded has come to the rescue. Susanne SundfΓΈr is post human. Unreal singer. I've managed to be productive today.
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John T LEGEND · 29 Nov
Sometimes all those immobilising feelings coming out leave me pretty telaxed
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John T LEGEND · 29 Nov
Relaxed*
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Manda P LEGEND · 29 Nov
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Manda P LEGEND · 29 Nov
Sorry to hear you had a panic attack. I know how awful they can be!
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Had help tidying up yesterday. Feel momentarily on top of things. Felt energised by a amazing person on the phone but I ruin it with a made up as I go along story about a vomiting sailor.
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John T LEGEND · 3d
My Dad has injured his back. I'll make extra effort to cheer him up tomorrow after volunteering. First things first. Xmas tree up tomorrow morning.
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John T LEGEND · 3d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
Poor dad! Hug for the dad.
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I have a freaking UTI. Hope it goes away or else I'll have to call the doc on Monday. Thanksgiving went well. I didn't worry about it months in advance like I used to so that was nice. Therapy Monday.
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Jake M · 29 Nov
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nixiblu . HERO · 01 Dec
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nixiblu . HERO · 01 Dec
Belated happy Thanksgiving Manda Panda
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Manda P LEGEND · 01 Dec
Thank you, sweet nixi! πŸ’™ Thanks for the hug, Jake!
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Jen B HERO · 02 Dec
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
Oh no, Hope you're feeling better by now
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Manda P LEGEND · 3d
Thanks, Alicia! I managed to flush it out of my system in a day. Thank goodness because UTIs suck!
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On the way to my second of five consecutive night shifts. Feeling good. Very happy about my German language progress. I'm lucky to have my language brain πŸ˜€ I'm so chill about a new job, meeting new
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
people, speaking a new language. I'm so lucky to have changed in this way. Being chill makes life a hoot.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
I think the ssri is making me more energetic.
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John T LEGEND · 3d
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Manda P LEGEND · 3d
That's awesome, Alicia! I'm so happy for you! πŸ’ž
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Thank you
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Alicia B LEGEND · 29 Nov 6
I'm officially starting work on the 1st of December. I've gad a safety training day yesterday and met some of my colleagues. They seem nice. Been to a lovely concert after that, danced my head off,
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Alicia B LEGEND · 29 Nov
met the musicians.
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Manda P LEGEND · 29 Nov
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Manda P LEGEND · 29 Nov
Hope your first day goes well. I wouldn't mind dancing my head off!
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John T LEGEND · 29 Nov
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John T LEGEND · 29 Nov
I thought you were dancing your toys off...?
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nixiblu . HERO · 01 Dec
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nixiblu . HERO · 01 Dec
Good luck
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
Lol John my typos stay between you and me, OK?
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Alicia B LEGEND · 24 Nov 6
I got my contract and I'm starting work on the 1st of December. Found out about something that's happened to someone I love. It made me feel... flattened. Of course, I'll be OK and I want to know
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Alicia B LEGEND · 24 Nov
things. But maybe this is a good test. Sometimes people don't know if they love someone or not. Feeling great amounts of empathy for them is probably a good sign.
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Jeff M LEGEND · 24 Nov 5
Stressed yesterday, but run (in the cold rain) helped. Felt very lonely after drinking a beer with all those people but no one to talk to. I talked a bit, but felt very alone. Blah.
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Ian D 6+ MONTHS · 22 Nov
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Jeff M LEGEND · 22 Nov
Another quiet, lonely weekend ahead. At least the temps should be higher than last week so i hope to be able to get some good runs in. Next week is a short week, and have to use up time off next month.
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Manda P LEGEND · 22 Nov
Hope you have a relaxing weekend, Jeff.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 24 Nov
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Manda P LEGEND · 24 Nov 5
Did my first EMDR session yesterday. I read it can have uncomfortable side effects & I had a panic attack today which doesn't seem like a coincidence. It was awful. And, I'M LOSING WEIGHT!!!
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Manda P LEGEND · 24 Nov 7
Started a new video game & am having so much fun with it. Mom sent us a check for $300 to spend as Christmas gifts. So generous & much needed. New computer, treadmill, $3600 dental work for BF.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 24 Nov
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Alicia B LEGEND · 24 Nov
Love it when there's a game to enjoy! What is it?
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nixiblu . HERO · 25 Nov
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Manda P LEGEND · 28 Nov
It's called The Outer Worlds. It's awesome! Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! πŸ’š
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Alicia B LEGEND · 24 Nov 7
MTG night with Alex and Zhenya. Loved hanging out with bros XD. I used to hang out with guys a lot and feel very much like one of them. I've missed it. The jokes in poor taste, the unimportance of
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Alicia B LEGEND · 24 Nov
everything looking good and proper, the ability to completely check out of reality to play a game. I'm not saying those are male qualities, just the qualities of these two guys and me.
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