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Ann L · 14h
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Alicia B LEGEND · 14h
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Organising house stuff. This has been all I've done for the past three weeks.
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Ann L · 14h
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Alicia B LEGEND · 14h
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Manfred F · 10h
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I'm having a hard time lately. The insights I've had are upsetting, and I can't get any therapy yet. I feel like I've finally put the puzzle of my personality (and thus my life) together. I now
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
understand my motivations from 20 and 10 years ago that have been a mystery to me until now. But since I don't know how to heal by myself, it all scares me. I'm afraid I'll ruin everything now that I finally have something that is worth a lot to me.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
I'm afraid I'm already ruining it. I'm being paranoid, which is a part of my self-diagniosis that might or might not be confirmed in two months.
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Dianne D · 1d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
I'm afraid I'm ruining it by actually being paranoid. By asking for reassurance all the ***ing time. By not being positive and energetic. By not figuring my *** out anymore. I'm afraid I have presented myself as someone far better than the real me.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
I didn't do it on purpose. I've done my best to be honest. I am so tired of myself, of my mind giving me endless proof of everything going to shut, even as I understand that those reasons are not real.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 1d
Mental illness sucks. It's really hard to live with. It's really painful and exhausting. Sport helps. Being outside helps. At least I'll come out of this crisis with firmer thighs, right?
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corrado M · 18h
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Anna D 1+ YEAR · 15h
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Johnya T LEGEND · 11h
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Manda P LEGEND · 2h
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Manda P LEGEND · 2h
It's good you realize you are being paranoid. People love you no matter what & I find that hard to accept myself.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 06 Jul 5
Had a big derealization moment last night after a flashback, self harmed a bit. Acceptance from loved ones is so important in these moments. Not being blamed for my mental state is key for me because
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Alicia B LEGEND · 06 Jul
I feel so ashamed every time after I self harm. I don't mean that it's an acceptable thing to do and we should all just go for it. I believe understanding is more helpful in controlling it than judgement.
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P B · 06 Jul
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Tayla O 6+ MONTHS · 07 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 07 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 07 Jul
Understanding is SO important when it comes to mental health. From others & from yourself. Don't ever be ashamed for coping mechanisms. We are all broken & just trying to get by with healthy & unhealthy ways. Tomorrow is a new day, my friend! 💞
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Anna D 1+ YEAR · 07 Jul
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Johnya T LEGEND · 3d
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Alicia B LEGEND · 3d
Love you, Manda 💜
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul 7
Vogue and a hike today. Now home, tired and wanting to chill. Forgot my phone when I went out and not being connected to J has made me feel lost. Can't live without that man.
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Manfred F · 05 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul
That's so sweet. I bet he feels the same about you!
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
Thank you, Manda, I don't know if he does :) but maybe yeah
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Tayla O 6+ MONTHS · 07 Jul
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Johnya T LEGEND · 3d
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Shelley H HERO · 05 Jul 5
Just had to zip into the bathroom again.This is.crazy
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
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Manfred F · 05 Jul
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Laura B · 05 Jul
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Snail M · 05 Jul 2
Meditated this morning w my partner. We both feel such overwhelming sadness. I had a powerful vision that I am a mountain spirit. This explains a lot. We are both exhausted.
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Snail M · 05 Jul
Summer always has such overwhelming emotions
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
That sounds really interesting, what do you mean by a mountain spirit?
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Manfred F · 05 Jul
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Kiara S NEW · 05 Jul
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Laura B · 05 Jul
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Samantha C · 06 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul 5
So dizzy & lightheaded. Took my reduced Luvox for the first time last night. Hope this helps SOON. Daughter started her period. I just happened to see she signed up for a period tracker when I...
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Manda P LEGEND · 03 Jul
...checked her email for a verification. I never look at her email & it just so happened she had started the day before. I asked her why she didn't tell me & she said she knew where the pads were. 😆
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Lenny + · 03 Jul
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Lenny + · 03 Jul
Gosh she really sounds like she has her head on her shoulders.
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Lenny + · 03 Jul
I definitely wish that I had a mom to bond and tell me about my period though. So maybe there's probably much more room there.
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Samantha C · 03 Jul
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Ann L · 03 Jul
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Ann J · 03 Jul
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Manfred F · 03 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 03 Jul
Thanks, Lenny, & thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul
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Michael W HERO · 04 Jul
Luvox was so trippy and hazy for me it was like I was in a constant state of doing shrooms. It was awful...
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Bipolar Bear . 1+ YEAR · 04 Jul
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nixiblu . HERO · 04 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 04 Jul
Sorry to hear that, mik. It was definitely what was causing the dizziness & anxiety. I feel so much better after just a couple lowered dose days. Thanks for the hugs, Pandas! 💚
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
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Alicia B LEGEND · 05 Jul
💜💜💜 your daughter sounds so cool
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Manda P LEGEND · 05 Jul
Aw! Thanks, Alicia. That makes me happy. She actually is pretty damn cool!
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Alicia B LEGEND · 03 Jul 8
I've had the loveliest day today hanging out with J. online. We chatted, we read a book, we laughed our entire heads off. I can't wait to be together irl. It's going to be amazing.
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Laura B · 02 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jul
So glad you guys have each other! 💞
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P B · 03 Jul
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Johnya T LEGEND · 03 Jul
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Alicia B LEGEND · 03 Jul
Thank you, Manda, so am I :)
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Anna D 1+ YEAR · 03 Jul
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me M 1+ YEAR · 03 Jul
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K T 6+ MONTHS · 04 Jul
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K T 6+ MONTHS · 04 Jul
Sounds great, Alicia! Glad you had a good day! :)
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nixiblu . HERO · 04 Jul
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Tayla O 6+ MONTHS · 07 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul 10
Before I took my nap, my daughter was making plans to have chiljis for dinner. When I woke up, she informed me that sh had made plans to have dinner at my mom's. Uhh, oookaayy?
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Manfred F · 30 Jun
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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C. N · 01 Jul 7
nothing like hard physical labor to reset the mind
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Ann L · 30 Jun
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Ann L · 30 Jun
Yes,absolutely 👍🙂
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Manfred F · 30 Jun
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Jen B HERO · 01 Jul 4
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Ann L · 30 Jun
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Ira T · 01 Jul 1
so alone. don't even want anything. my best years of youth go to waste, so pointless. why do I feel so bad. my soul is fainted, my body is rotten. fucking emptiness
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Manfred F · 30 Jun
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Manfred F · 30 Jun
I feel you 😟
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P B · 30 Jun
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 01 Jul 6
Did yoga today! Setting a rule that I can't get on my phone until I do it. Therapist is going to talk to my psychiatrist about getting me on something for the anxiety. Fingers crossed bcuz this sucks!
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Manfred F · 30 Jun
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 30 Jun
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nixiblu . HERO · 30 Jun
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Laura B · 30 Jun
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul
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Bipolar Bear . 1+ YEAR · 01 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 01 Jul
Thanks for the hugs, Pandas. 💚
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Shelley H HERO · 02 Jul
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Well Pandas, my toilet blocked up again but I must add that this is not down to me!! Nothing from landlord of course, they're the worst. GP rang and just told me to self refer for physio.
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Manfred F · 30 Jun
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Penelope P LEGEND · 30 Jun
Always the way, I have zero faith in doctors I'm afraid. The good news is I got over half way on the couch to 5k. But the next session is running 20 minutes non stop. I only just got through 8 minutes without collapsing. Dreading it.
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Penelope P LEGEND · 30 Jun
Because I have no job and basically no future then I'm feeling very much not myself. Again, I have no clue who I am or what I'm meant to be doing. Running anywhere is definitely not like me at all. Anyone else feeling this way?
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Robert H GUARDIAN · 30 Jun
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nixiblu . HERO · 30 Jun
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nixiblu . HERO · 30 Jun
Aim for 20, but don't feel bad if you only get to 10. The challenge is only a guide and it is best to do at own pace. But if your knee is injured it might be better to have a rest day?
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Laura B · 30 Jun
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Penelope P LEGEND · 30 Jun
I hear you nixi, but I'm hoping this running (or fast walking more like) is actually strengthening up my leg muscles. I do not get any pain during or after and it maybe psychological but I feel moving the knee is better than sitting and it seizing.
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Penelope P LEGEND · 01 Jul
It does give me a slight boost when I've completed a stage. I plan to rest tomorrow. I've just got two in already this week because I am going to stay at M's so won't get chance later in the week. We shall see.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Anna D 1+ YEAR · 01 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul 10
I just got off the phone with the former student I am so proud of. I had her in tears. I remember telling her when she was little that if I ever had a daughter I would want her to.be just like her.
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Shelley H HERO · 30 Jun
I did and she is.
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nixiblu . HERO · 30 Jun
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Laura B · 30 Jun
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
Awwwwww, that is LOVELY!
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul 10
My daughter introduced me to a new love. Pepperidge Farms Irish Cream Milano cookies. 😋 Delicious!
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul
Nice rich taste 😋
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jul
I just picked up some of the Irish cream ones. We haven't opened them yet. Looking forward to them!
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul 10
My daughter just called me. She's getting me chicken fajitas from chiljis. 😋
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul
That was magnificent 😋
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Shelley H HERO · 01 Jul
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Manda P LEGEND · 02 Jul
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We put together kid bed #2 and SURVIVED! Went even better! Even after taking down the old bed.
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Alicia B LEGEND · 01 Jul
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Macaila F NEW · 30 Jun 1
I just feel like I am not good enough
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Alicia B LEGEND · 30 Jun
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Alicia B LEGEND · 30 Jun
I know the feeling oh so well. None of us a perfect, but we do our best and we deserved to be loved and appreciated.
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Manfred F · 30 Jun
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Bipolar Bear . 1+ YEAR · 30 Jun
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