See if i can get myself back on track by end of week n be more productive.
Thanks for hugs :) here have all one each back :p id say
Go for the group superhugglewuggle lol but i might not beable to handle a 5girl panda piley on :p ta fo
Thanks for the huggies :)
Yes, Steve! Great news
Hey jim how goes it :)
Ta for all the huggies everyone x
Can't stop hugging :)
good to see you Steve! hope you are doing well... walking the dog again?maybe a hike?? have fun..good exercise too!
Yea been pottering in garden n i think its time to go burn a few cals :)
hi Steve! :)
Steve the panda enigma
hey steve, glad to see your okay :)
What kind of dog do you have? I have one too :)
hey cutie lol
Well i thought i wrote a huge long blab about the dog the other day but its not here now lol so ima just say sheepdog called seb lol great dog as smart as a wee 2yr old human lololl
What kinda doggy is yours?
Hey seleneeee :) :p
Cavalier King Charles spaniel, cutest thing ever. Not so smart, tho...
Its crazy lol thought posting on here may help abit like project my thoughts out of myself n away n it does abit :) yay for moodpanda x
I just wanna give up drip to my knees n scream at the sky n just say i f#%king give up ok i cant do it i give up then row out into the ocean sit on edge of boat n shoot myself in the head lol fish food lol
I tell ppl to just offer up one small prayer for help. there is light at the end if the tunnel but I think & feel we have to ask to be led out quickly because the pain is getting more than we can handle!
its nice c u steve ivw missed ya my friend! hate to hear u r going thru this.big hug n kiss for u xoxo
like Sandy said...nice to hear from you....but not too nice what you're goin through.... hope you feel better soon :)
How are you, buddy? I might visit Scotland again this autumn :-D
Hey yall :) ta for hugs x oooh so where you going this time in scotland?
Edinburgh again! It may be next year tho. In 1 1/5 year I'm probably studying in the UK x
Cool :) is the thought of studying here exciting or nerve wracking fo lol
Ah thanks :-)
*huge hugs* Steve.
Ta for the hugs x i got to sleep n thankfully i have awoken all 'normal' again lol only had like a handful of pints of beer too lol think il stay t-total now lol xxx
is is because of the alcohol? luckily you feel better now :)
Yea i went out to friends engagement party sat night an yea just sunday got steadily worse till that depression trigger switch just flipped. I only drink now on special occasions like that but achh i think im just gonna be a non drinker now.
Whether it was worse cause id been exercsing alot this last two months n being really healthy plus id also been taking allergy pills those last few days while looking after dog n blahhh well i was oryt over the night i felt alil high but ach
But sunday was bad an i aint felt like that in a long time im just best staying away from any nighttime social occasions an stay on sofa pot of herbal tea movie rental ha stick to the exercise n daylight x
YOU. You disappeared. You always worry me when you do that! I've missed your stupid face being here. :p
i miss u also!!!
I miss you two too :) i spent lastweek in venice with most of my friends and the bride n grooms family at my pals wedding. Was nice :) home now fearing that was prob the last sun n warmth il see n feel till 2014 ha :p i get a general panda
Loving warmth from you lovelys :) but outside fo bbrrrr chilly now! So i missed anything? Any gossip?:p
I got my lip pierced and moved to manchester.
I panicked about you (leave a note, maybe?!) and have begun to slip behind with school work again... but it will probably be fine...
Awesome!a lip piercing!!like this :). lolol thats my made up sign for lip piercing ha :p
Yea il leave a wee note n slip it under your door so u know im ok :)
How come your slipping behind?ive no doubt youl get there eventually :) doesnt have to be a race :)
I will get there eventually, but apparently that's not good enough for certain teachers. I had to take a massive diversion to avoid my English teacher today. And I hid behind a door from Dr Physics. I will get there though, don't worry.
Also, my room's number eight, it's called Mackintosh. :p
Isnt 8 a really lucky number in china an other parts of asia round there 8
You need some of those magicians smoke bombs on pocket n then you just go "alllakassamm" an throw one on floor an pooooffff you disappear in the fog lolol
hi steve! xxx
It's been awhile. How have you been?!
Hi :) emm yea things are oryt i guess generally x not much to say really haha spent last week in venice with friends at friends wedding.was lovely.nice city n islands to hangout in :)
Sounds wonderful! :)
miss seeing you on here Steve <3
yaa-ish steveooo heyyy
Me too, but a bit more fine now you've finally reappeared. ;)
Ta yall x :) preoccupied with getting myself out of summer n into that more productive healthy mindframe etc
I'm trying to do the same... it's harder than you first think, isn't it? :p
Lots of hugs Stevie bear luv u <3 glad yr a 7! x
yaaaa glad ur feeling better Steveooooo xoxoxo
Ta yall xxx
I feel defeated.
Really bad for your lungs and exercising too.. try and stop!
Its playing havoc with my motivation to exercise etc im trying to run it out off my system n its just like the most counter productive force for health n fitness x
maybe it helps to have a note in your wallet to remind you why you want to quit. human are driven by two forces: pain and pleasure. you've got to associate smoking with pain and not smoking with pleasure;)
Its a drug that my brains now using as a stimulant prob cause ive had a long summer of not exercising as much and socialising n stuff too much instead and cause im on a lower dose of anti depressants this year an
My brains prob using it as a counter balance cause im not exercising n on a lower dose its pepping me up on the mind but making me feel crappy overall etc soo i have a plan lol
Im gonna up my dose of pills to stimulate my brain and start running again everyday and thatl take care of the desire to prep the brain with other drugs etc an then once its outta my system
Bout a month il reduce dose again and all will be fine lol thats my theory n thats what im doing as of tomorrow lol :p
Like i never took my pills thur or friday so on friday night by dinner i was craving mass intake of food so i ordered a huge amount of chinese takeaway and scoffed till bloated etc lol brains like one giant drug addict lol
This is a plan fo n itl work im pretty sure x
had my last cigarette January 31st this year... think i quit for good... very hard habit to quit...maybe get the patch or lozenges they really helped me..good luck and *hugs*
oh and i had been a smoker for about 30+ years since i was a teenager
weak :p you stink!!
you can do it Stevey I have faith in you!
*Triple hugs* be strong u can do it. Mind over matter xx
I'm not trying to be mean but the way I quit smoking was because of the bad smell.. Sure you can do it!!
Yea i know lol i laughed when i read it lol im off them!!will report back to yal at weekend if i makeit that far :p
Cheers for all the hugs n concern fo :) i knew itd be a good idea to just say it outloud to everyone n face it head on rather than struggle in silence x
<3 <3 Never easy giving up sumin...even love. Thinking of u, Try and take d bull by the horns and go with will power <3
Ta, Doing fine seem to be off the ciggies and preoccupying myself with work and running and food n i feel good :) feel healthier already :p
Lol running lastnight at midnight :p
yeaaa congrats Stevey :-)<3<3
congrats Steve! great to hear about your not smoking
Yea all sorted im fine now, the summer of debauchery is all behind me now :p
Glad 2hear it :) *Hugs*
try doing something u enjoy mayb it bring u up?
Night Night Steve *hugs*, Sleep well xx
sweet dreams Steve super big hugs<3 <3 <3 <3
Used my heated plant propagator to supply warmth n a house for him an i used a sterilised dripper to feed him warm soy milk n stuff n i thought hed make it! Once his eyes opened i could prep him n eventually return him to the garden
Maybe make a wee nest n see if he could survive on his own etc he died lastnight. I failed. Maybe i was complacent about him surviving. Buried him now an thats that life goes on. :(
very kind of u to try so hard to keep him alive tho u did alot n thats so wonderful of u steve
U Did a beautiful thing! Steve, U Have a very special heart! Hugs to you for loving all the life on this planet!
Wow, I wish everyone had such a big heart <3
Yea was sad but i guess i gave him a few days of life more than he woulda. I buried him a foot down in the dirt so he can return to the universe i guess in time.
On a positive i have my plant propagator out now n clean perhaps i should attempt to grow some flowers again:)
What a beautiful person you are Stevie bear <3 <3 Im really touched by yr compassion. *Monster hugs* xx